For context listen to the interview LifeReview – The Victim of Judgment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to exist as judgment
instead of support.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize the harm that judgment cause, and how it keeps
reality from changing, keeps us from changing ourselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear judgment, fearing that others will judge me as having
done something wrong, which then might lead to punishment, as it’s apparently
‘too late’ for correction, as you have already ‘done something wrong’, and thus
solutions are not considered, but how to make one ‘pay for what they’ve done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that nervous breakdowns can result from participation in and as the system of judgment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to have an entire internal reaction process take place within myself when I perceive myself as
being judged by another.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that what I perceive as another judging me, is
because I am existing as judgment toward what that being is expressing to me,
and thus it’s actually me judging me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that there is no one else’s judgment that exists
but the judgment within oneself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not remember that I actually had to learn to judge myself by
following the examples of others in my world and reality way back in my
childhood.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to put pressure and stress on my physical body on my internal
organs through the reactions that I have programmed into myself as how I react
to perceiving another as judging me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that the more you accumulate participation in
stress, fear and judgment will actually lead to eventual organ failure and
death as it becomes too much for the physical to handle.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to instead of investigating myself to turn to external measures
as for example medications which have accumulated consequences.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to accept external measures as a way of controlling and curing one’s
internal reality, when nothing external to and separate from me can actually
change who I am and the harm I am causing myself through the thoughts and internal
conversations I accept and allow myself to participate in.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that who I am as the thoughts and internal
conversations I participate in within myself has a direct consequence on my
life in my world and in my human physical body, causing damage to the very
organs of my human physical body and eventually leading to such an extreme as
the failure of the organs of my human physical body, and even my death.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to take for granted the physical experience that takes place
when I participate in the fear of being judged and perceive myself as being
judged, as the anxiety, tension, aching and discomfort that I actually feel
within such moments, as the indication that I am causing stress and harm to my
human physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to take for granted that what I am doing to my body
through my participation in patterns of self judgment within my thoughts and
back chat will not actually have an effect or that I am not actually causing
that much harm, as I do not feel the extent of the consequences of repeated
participation as it takes time for the consequence to accumulate and for a
while I will feel fine.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not see the obviousness of the effects of the accumulation of
causing such harm to the human physical body as evidenced by those in my world
who I have seen literally deteriorate before my eyes due to the stress they
have put themselves through, and to not take this realization back to myself
and apply myself within the common sense of stopping my participation in the
thoughts and internal conversations through which I cause myself extensive harm
and hasten myself toward death.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to believe that I don’t care if I am causing accumulating harm
to my physical body as I am not experiencing the consequences yet.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to utilize the accumulation of consequence being spread out over
time as justification to deny that any substantial harm is taking place, as the
consequence has been placed into the ‘future’ and is apparently ‘not here now’ and
thus I ignore the moments ‘here’ where I am actually bit-by-bit building and
accumulating the consequence that will become my eventual reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that if I am existing as fear of judgment, then
that is what I will see, and thus how/why I will interpret & perceive
others to be judging me within the comments/viewpoints they are expressing to
me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to instead of realizing the judgment is within myself, place the
blame on the other as the one judging me, not realizing that I am the one that
is participating within the thoughts and back chat of thinking things like ‘oh
god, I have done something wrong’, ‘I haven’t done this right’, ‘I have
failed/I’m a failure’, and experiencing the fear and anxiety within myself, and
since another person is not able to actually get inside myself it is only me
that creates and is thus responsible for what I experience within myself, how I
perceive my world and reality and the relationship I have formed toward it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that judgment actually functions as a tool for
enslavement as it keeps us focused on and looking toward the past as ‘what
we’ve done wrong’ when we can’t do
anything to change the past, rather than instead investigating oneself as the
relationships one has formed to uncover to self where one has formed
self-abusive relationships so self can correct one’s relationships, to not
involve self-abuse, so one can actually really live and not be busy killing
oneself in accepted patterns of fear and anxiety toward what is here in one’s
world and reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to miss out on possible opportunities of support from other
beings in my reality because I perceived them as ‘judging me’ and thus went
into a mind reaction where I then could not consider or realize what they were
actually saying and the context in which they were saying it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to sabotage myself by programming myself to take things
personally and not realize that this is a defense and enslavement mechanism of
the mind to keep me limited within experiencing reactions and missing out on
opportunities to expand myself and learn from others and develop effective
relationships with those in my reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that when I go into a reaction of self-judgment,
that I then only see my judgment and don’t even really see the being who is
communicating to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that all judgment comes from comparison,
comparing myself and what I do to others and what they do and how they do it to
how I do it, etc. and that when I am spending time in comparison I am
distracting myself and separating myself from my own self expression by
comparing and judging, when I could rather learn from others ways of doing things
that I had not considered, and thus expand myself and my abilities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to believe/think that it is even really possible to compare my
expression to another, as all our expression is unique.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to use my world to create experiences of depression, fear and
anxiety within myself, instead of being here stable as myself and allowing myself
to really live and express here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that when I did not come into this world as
judging and comparing myself to others, but that I learned this behavior from
the examples around me, thus it’s not a ‘natural’ part of my expression but a
learned/programmed behavior.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not see that there is no purpose or reason for comparing my
expression to another’s in judgment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that when I judge things I separate myself from
them and miss out on an opportunity to
see the relationship I have formed with those things so that I can see the
nature of myself that requires direction.
I commit myself to investigating myself and
the relationships I’ve formed to what is here, to see the nature of myself that
requires direction.
I commit myself to stopping participation
in the patterns that are harmful and self-abusive, so that I am not busy
killing myself and can get busy living.
I commit myself to walking myself within my
process to sort out my internal mind reality, so that I can see what is really
in fact going on in my reality and see the actual context in which beings are
saying things to me, that I missed because I was filtering everything through
my mind’s perception, and thus not seeing reality for what it is, but only
seeing a distorted version of reality.
I commit myself to whenever I have a
reaction toward where I fear that they are judging me, to see, realize and
understand that the reaction I am having is coming from within my own mind and
my own judgments toward myself, so that I can take self responsibility for whatI’m creating within myself and correct the nature I’m existing as to not be of
self-abuse and self-limitation.
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