Day 18 - What Is Fear?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider where do my fears even come from? How are they created?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just take my fears for granted like they are normal to experience and a 'part of being human', thus just accepting them without even understanding what they are or where they come from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear in some way helps me or assists me, when I look at the actuality fear as an energetic reaction based on participation in thoughts has never actually assisted me or the situation I was in, or anyone that I know of, it has only manifested consequences by taking your attention aware from here and paying attention instead to thoughts and pictures in your mind, then you miss what's happening in reality and you make mistakes and have accidents, and manifest that which you fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself believe that it's not possible to stop my fears, not realizing it is an energetic reaction that I gave permission to in the first place to be activated, and gave it permission over and over until it became an automated habit, and thus I can actually deprogram the habit by no longer giving permission to the reaction, until it no longer occurs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that fear is a preprogrammed design as evidenced by the fact that most of humanity shares the exact same fears with each other with only some minor variations between individuals but the design of each fear is always the exact same from person to person.
 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself come up with justifications as to why I have these fears, not realizing that within justifying the fears I am actually validating the fears, when they are not real as they only exist if I participate in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that I create my fears, and thus when I experience fear I am actually fearing myself, as what we fear is what is here that we have accepted and allowed to exist here, and not taken responsibility for to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that fear makes no sense in terms of that it's an experience that we allow within ourselves that we experience toward what we've created, thus there is really no reason to participate in the experience of fear, when it's not real, it's a self-created experience, and by participating in it you will manifest that which you fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself in limitation because of my fears, which I have created and given permission to in the first place, instead of stopping my participation in the fears so that I can actually live effectively in this world and not trap myself within self-justified limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the solution to fear is to stop trapping oneself in the fear towards a condition we have created and allowed here, and to find effective solutions to what is here, then that which we are fearing can not even exist, but firstly this requires to stop the participation in the fear within oneself, as participation in the fear is what keeps one from effectively facing and dealing with the situation in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if we face what we fear and correct it so that what we fear no longer exists, that this indicates that what I fear is that which I have accepted and allowed to form in this world without consideration of whether it is best for life or whether it abuse life, thus fear is the result of that I have allowed conditions to exist which are abusive to life and self as life, and thus I fear facing those conditions, because I have allowed them to exist in my world and am not doing what it takes to remove such abuse from existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if we live in self honesty not hiding anything or hiding from anything but facing what is here in this reality as myself as what I have accepted and allowed, then no fear exists, as I stand here stable as myself and take self responsibility for what is here, within the realization that to take responsibility for what is here and face the shit we have created, and sort it out, means that we'll create a world that is heaven on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is a construct that keeps me from realizing myself as it keeps me trapped in limitation and not expanding myself into and as my world, but accepting things as they are, so that I never change and my world never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear exist as energy generated within the mind consciousness system, which when I live as these fears and allow myself to experience these fears as real and as myself, I am existing as a preprogrammed energetic reaction, and thus not here as myself as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I justify participating in fears within the mind CONsciousness system I am actually conning myself into accepting self limitation by allowing myself to be controlled, bound and enslaved to my own self-created fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I manifest my fears by participating in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to live without my fears will be such a relief literally, as living as fears is stressful and takes a toll on the physical, as you can see the examples shown by those who live their lives in constant fear and worry you can watch as their physical literally  rot and shrivel away as time passes and they continue extensive participation in their fears.

I commit myself to not accepting things 'the way they are' when I do not even understand how or why it exists/is created.

I commit myself to take nothing 'for granted' as there is always a cause, as this reality is a cause & effect reality, and to take something for granted is to accept myself to remain in ignorance and thus a slave to what is here within accepting a limited understanding of my world, thus I commit myself to educating myself about my world and what is here.

I commit myself to stop participating in fears, within the realization that they are not real and that they require my actual participation to exist and to control, enslave, and limit me, while depleting my human physical body and causing 'aging'.

I commit myself to sort myself out within stopping my fears so that I can then take on the conditions that we've created in this world to stop manifesting the conditions which we fear.

I commit myself to realizing that there is never any valid justification to participate in a mind construct of fear, as to do so is to limit, bind, and enslave myself to a system to keep me in-fear-ior in this world and never standing up and expanding myself to become someone that has a real impact here in this world in bringing this world into equality and a dignified life for all.

To hear some of my personal experience with fear:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUlhjwVherY

Day 7 - Resistance & the Key to Heaven

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I experience resistance that this is actually me accepting self limitation, and participating in the pre-programmed fear of fear for survival.

I commit myself to when there is the resistance to doing something/not wanting to do something that comes up right away, I stop, breathe, and realize that the resistance is me accepting limitation, that within participating in and accepting resistance that I am actually saying that I am not free to do it, and I haven't even given myself the chance to see if it's what I'd like to do, where 'what I'd like to do is defined as what is going to expand myself as life, one and equal. The reaction of instant resistance is based in a fear of 'but what if doing this compromises me in some way'. I have 'learned' this fear from growing up and existing within a system where you are not considered, and if you don't 'look out for yourself' and 'stand up for yourself', you will get taken advantage of. Within the current system where you are not supported, your very need to survive is taken advantage of and used to manipulate you into enslavement. This is how most people must work for the majority of their life in jobs that are not necessary or supportive or relevant to life or are even harmful to themselves, but is making someone a profit, and there is no choice but to accept the conditions as you are at the disadvantage, with your very survival on the line.
Within this, I have accepted and allowed myself to develop and live as the fear pattern of 'I must look out for myself', which now I must deconstruct, because within living this pattern, I am actually responsible for accepting and allowing a system in which we 'must look out for ourselves'.

Because what's necessary to change this reality from one where 'you must look out for yourself, because no one else will' - is that we must become beings that consider everyone as and within the whole, and leave no being out of consideration. Because the world is a reflection of who we are, thus the world exists as a 'look out for yourself only' world, because that is exactly what we're living in our lives, in our actions, in our words, in our day to day living, and accept within our current economic system, and so we are making it reality. Thus, if we change our starting point of 'looking out for ourself' to consider solutions for the whole, then we can actually eradicate and eliminate the fear of survival in it's entirety, by bringing worldwide solutions that end the 'survival game', so that the fear of survival doesn't even exist in reality. We are the creators of reality, and who and what we live is what we live into reality. So, I take self responsibility to change myself into the change I would like to see in the world, that will lead to manifesting a world that is best for all, where problems are able to be solved at the source, which is self, as who self is, as each and every individual here.

I commit myself to when I notice the immediate reaction of resistance, realize that I am accepting limitation for myself and my world and reality, and that is absolutely unacceptable, as why would I accept limitation and self-diminishment which lead to the consequence of not really being here, living here, experiencing the physical as myself in fullness, thus when I see the resistance I stop, and immediately release the resistance, realize that I am making an excuse as to why I can't do something/justifying limitation, and breathe myself here, stable and constant, stopping the fear that I am going to get fucked over and realign my starting point to what's best for all, realizing that within what's best for all, what's best for me is included, and thus there is nothing to fear, and nothing to worry about, as within the context of the situation simply calculate what works out and cause no unnecessary harm to anyone.

Thus, I commit myself to stand as vulnerability as/with myself and what's here, within the realization and understanding that there is nothing I need to defend or protect myself from, as I am part of the whole, equally considered, and within my fear, I am actually stating that I don't care who is abused as long as it's not me, because I am not looking at how to approach/handle the situation in such a way that no abuse happens, but am only concerned with preventing it happening to 'me'. Thus, the solution is always to look at and consider the bigger picture of ensuring that within what we do and the decisions we make, that no unnecessary harm is created. Looking out 'for myself' in separation of everyone else, will result in conflict, but looking out for all creates no conflict, and within the all I am equally considered.

This is how living as what is best for all life, manifests a world that is best for self as well, and how within living as self interest in separation from 'the rest', within separating ourself from everyone else, we're saying 'you must look out for yourself, as you cannot trust me, as I only consider myself.' And this is what manifests a world full of conflict, to the extent where we have such massive destructive and violent conflicts as the wars that take place constantly throughout the world, much of it happening in places and to people that are never heard about within the general media, and this is because war is extremely profitable within a profit-based system. And why do we have a profit based system? it is a direct reflection of who and what we're living as within accepting a reality wherein we must only consider ourselves, because we are not simply considering all equally, in ensuring that all have access to what is required. This is the very reason wars are justified and participated in - because for many, the job of being a soldier provides the best way to support themselves and their families. In a system where everyone is supported, individuals will not be driven to participate in wars as a point of survival.

I commit myself to becoming the solution to war, by deleting my pre-programmed nature of self-interest and fear for survival, and reconstructing myself and my nature as a being that lives according to the principle of what is best for all.