Day 150: I Don’t Want to Do This: Reaction Dimension (Part 3)

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This post is a continuation to:

Day 139: The ‘I Don’t Want To Do This’ Character

Day 140: 'I Don’t Want to Do This': Thought Dimension

Day 141: I Don’t Want to Do This: Thought Dimension (Part 2)

Day 143: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 1)

Day 144: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 2)

Day 145: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 3)

Day 146: I Don’t Want to Do This: Backchat Dimension (Part 1)

Day 147: I Don’t Want to Do This: Backchat Dimension (Part 2)

Day 148: I Don’t Want to Do This: Reaction Dimension (Part 1)

Day 149: I Don’t Want to Do This: Reaction Dimension (Part 2)

In this post we’re now going to continue with the Commitment Statements for the Reaction Dimension of the I Don’t Want to Do This Character in regards to working/doing my job.

Reaction Dimension Self Commitments:
Thought Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when/as I see the thought come up in my mind of how I am not going to enjoy myself while working/doing my job, I stop immediately and move myself as the directive principle of myself to not participate in the thought and to simply stick to the task at hand working/doing my job, as I see, realize and understand that if I do not immediately move myself, that I’ll essentially allow the Mind to move me with the energy-experience of ‘dread’, where I’ll become that energy and thus sabotage myself in my living here in effectively applying myself within my work/job.

I commit myself to standing as the decision to not accept and allow myself to follow/live/connect me to the thought in the moment, as I see, realize and understand that if I do so I will become the thought and energy-experience that accompanies it, and essentially lock myself into the mind giving up my directive will in determining who I am in the moment , and so I commit myself to stand as my decision in the moment and take a breath and move myself to stay here in reality within doing my job/working.

Imagination Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself participating in the negative imagination of how I’m not going to enjoy work, where I imagine what might ‘go wrong’, to realize that by participating in this imagination and energy-experience I am the one creating it, and thus I can stop in a moment within making the decision to stop participating and walking/living that decision through breathing through the energy and grounding myself here in and as the physical, as I realize that the more I stick to my decision to move myself, the more I take back control of myself from the mind and show the mind that it does not in fact have power over me, and thus the energy will start disappearing as I no longer accept and allow myself to be moved by it.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into the positive imagination where I imagine myself as not having to work, being at home, doing something else and experiencing myself positively in these scenarios, where I get to avoid doing the action/task that is before me as working/doing my job, to realize that I’m accepting and allowing myself to be moved by energy and going into an energy-experience instead of remaining here in/as the physical and moving myself practically according to what needs to be done such as working/doing my job.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to when and as I see myself go into imagining in my mind alternatives to what it is I have to do in the moment, and experiencing ‘comfort’ toward this imagination, to stop participation, as I realize I am allowing myself to be manipulated by/through/within an energy-experience of ‘comfort’ attached to images in my mind, with the purpose of manipulating myself to give up on the task before me, and thus I commit myself to realize that that experience of ‘comfort’ is not an actual, self-directed expression of myself as comfort.

Backchat Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when in a moment where I am facing the task of working/doing my job, and see myself participating in the words “Man I really don’t want to do this” / “I am not going to enjoy this” / “This is not going to go well”, where I then experience the negative energy experience of ‘anxiety’, to realize that I am using these words and the accompanying energy-experience of ‘anxiety’ to create an alternate reality in my mind as a relationship toward working/doing my job, in order to compromise me in doing what I need to do here in order to effectively support myself within working/doing my job.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself participate in the backchat “I wish I could be doing something else” / “It’s going to be so long before I’m finished” / “I wish I could be doing something else” / “It’s going to be so long before I’m finished” and the accompanying energy-experience of ‘depression’, to stop, breathe and ground myself here, as I realize that I am using these words and experience of depression to manipulate myself into not doing that which I must do, and thus it is up to me to stand as my decision to move myself and no longer accept and allow myself to be directed by energy-experiences.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to when and as I see myself going into backchat and a positive or negative energy-experience toward working/doing my job, to stop participation and breathe to stabilize myself here in reality, and stand as the directive principle of myself and changing myself to no longer accept myself to live as words with energy to living words where I direct myself to move and actually do that which I have decided to do, in applying myself within effectively working/doing my job in order to support myself here.

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Day 147: I Don’t Want to Do This: Backchat Dimension (Part 2)

This post is a continuation to:

Day 139: The ‘I Don’t Want To Do This’ Character

Day 140: 'I Don’t Want to Do This': Thought Dimension

Day 141: I Don’t Want to Do This: Thought Dimension (Part 2)

Day 143: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 1)

Day 144: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 2)

Day 145: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 3)

Day 146: I Don’t Want to Do This: Backchat Dimension (Part 1)


Here in this post we’re continuing with the Backchat Dimension of the I Don’t Want to Do This Character/Personality in relation to working/doing my job, in walking the practical application of Self Forgiveness and Commitment Statements.

Backchat Dimension: Self Forgiveness:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when faced with an opportunity to expand myself in this world within working/doing my job, through which I can ensure my financial stability and expand my skills within the system to put myself in the best position to make an impact in this reality, to sabotage my application within working/doing my job by participating in the initial thought, and then the imagination, and then into backchat, and within this not seeing the relationship that I’ve formed toward/in relation to working/doing my job, where instead of simply being here, stable, and applying myself, I take this event/situation and create positive and negative energy-experiences toward it, which I further substantiate by participating in backchat such as “Man I really don’t want to do this”. Within this, not realizing the connection I am formulating and substantiating within my mind toward working where I’m forming a negatively-charged association within myself toward working/doing my job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment of facing self movement as self expression in applying myself within my job/working, to accept and allow myself to go into my mind, taking my attention away from reality and doing my job here, and instead go into my imagination in an alternate version of reality where I have a relationship toward working as negative, and then using the backchat of for example “I am not going to enjoy this”, to take me further into the belief that ‘I am’ this negative experience/relationship toward working/doing my job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when faced with a moment of simply moving myself here as myself within expanding and applying myself within my job/working, to instead go into my imagination in imagining what I’d rather be doing, and from here to go into the backchat “I wish I could be doing something else”, to confirm that relationship within my imagination, and not considering within this that what it is I am trying to avoid is the negative experience within myself, and not the job itself, and within this to not consider that I am the one creating the negative experience within me, and thus can simply stop creating it, through stopping participation in the thoughts, imagination and backchat through which I create and manifest the negative experience in the first place.

Backchat Dimension: Commitment Statements:
I commit myself to when faced with an opportunity to expand myself in this world within working/doing my job, and I notice myself participating within a relationship within my mind toward working/doing my job within imagination and backchat, I breathe, bring myself back here, and stop participating in the imagination and backchat, to no longer accept and allow myself to continue existing as this pattern, as I realise that I am only sabotaging myself and my application of myself within working/doing my job, through which I have the opportunity to make sure I am financially stable and develop skills that will assist me to get into an effective position within the system to have a real impact in this world.

I commit myself to, when and as I notice I am participating in backchat, to assist and support myself with breathing and bringing myself back to reality to ground myself here, within this, realizing that I must actually move myself out of the mind and energy-experience, back into physical reality, within the moment of doing my job/working.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself participating in backchat, to stop participation as I see, realize and understand that if I allow myself to participate in the backchat, that I am making a deliberate decision to accept myself to continue living out/existing as these patterns of energy-experiences, and thus accepting myself as not ever able to be here without these energy-experiences but stable and constant as myself, and thus I commit myself to stop participation in backchat, as I realise that to participate in the backchat is the deliberate decision to accept and allow myself to remain limited forever and a slave to my own mind, and that I really cannot accept this as who I am into eternity.

And thus, I commit myself to stopping all the ways in which I limit myself and my participation here, so that I can really fully live up to my potential, especially within working/doing my job, to take full advantage of the opportunity that is here, for who knows how long, to do what I can to get myself into an effective position in the system to make change that is to the benefit of all life, as up ‘til now, we’ve let those who would abuse life take prominent/powerful positions within the system, and thus it’s time to stand up in consideration of life, and the common sense that to abuse what is here is really abusing ourselves, and therefore we must do what it takes to establish an Equal Money System to stop the abuse of life, so we can create a life for all here that is free of unnecessary suffering.

Day 43: Who I Am – Mind Consciousness or Physical

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I really am is the physical, and it’s through my mind consciousness system that I have separated myself from the physical here within forming relationships within my mind toward what is here as the physical, as emotions, feelings.

These relationships I form in my mind toward what is here consist of and exists as feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, images, perceptions, beliefs, opinions, memories, judgments, thoughts, experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that these feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, images, perceptions, beliefs, opinions, memories, judgments, thoughts, experiences only take place within the bubble of my personal mind consciousness system and are not experienced by anyone else but me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if all these experiences only take place within me, that that implies that only I can control/direct what I experience within me, as it is taking place within me, and no one else is inside of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this means that I am in fact responsible and the actual cause of what I experience within myself, and thus anytime I find myself blaming another for how I feel/experience myself, I am actually giving my power away and my ability to direct myself as how I experience myself within myself, and making myself subject to factors that are outside of me to direct and control my experience, when it is actually me that is accepting and allowing what I experience within myself, and thus within this I forgive myself for blaming another for what I myself am allowing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that in believing others to be ‘responsible’ for what/how I experience myself I am separating myself from my ability to direct how I experience myself, and to direct myself as myself, as I will be subject to experiences that come up within/from my mind consciousness system that, rather than here as myself with nothing moving, no experiences being generated within me, as those experiences are not who I really am, but are stored information generated by my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I am the only one that actually can control/direct how I experience myself within myself, then I am actually responsible for everything that goes on within me, as every thought I allow, as every emotion/feeling I allow, as every memory, image, picture, and every reaction I have to anything in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every reaction I have to what is here in this reality, either as a positive or negative reaction, is due to the relationship I’ve formed to/toward a manifestation within this reality that I am assessing/judging within my mind’s eye, which sees in terms of polarities as positive/negative in order to generate energetic experiences based on the values I have assigned to what is here, where if I encounter/experience something in my world that within my mind consciousness system is defined as good/positive, then I will experience myself positively, and if I encounter/experience something I have defined as negative/bad within my mind, I’ll have a negative feeling/experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the sole purpose of the mind is to generate energy to continue its existence, and thus by living as the mind, I become that slave that does the ‘dirty work’ for the mind consciousness system, by participating in these polarities and believing that these experiences are whoI really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind is nothing without the physical, as it requires the physical substance to generate energy for its continued existence, and thus if I do not participate in the mind by feeding it energy, it will cease to exist, and I will exist here as myself free from mind control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that who I am here is the physical here as the breath, as when I stop the mind and participation in and as thoughts feelings and emotions, I remain, and thus who I am is not the mind - though the mind is who I am as who and what I have allowed myself to become in separation of myself, wherein I have given parts of myself away to the mind consciousness system and allow the mind consciousness system to live for me, instead of living for and as myself.

I commit myself to through a process of self investigation, self forgiveness, and self corrective application, deconstruct myself as a mind consciousness system, to investigate the relationships I have formed throughout my life within my mind consciousness system toward that which is here as the physical, so that I take back all the pieces of myself that I gave away and gave up my ability to direct, and thus became a slave to my own mind consciousness system.

I commit myself to showing that who we are is not the mind consciousness system, in showing that it’s a system that exists within and as us as a parasite that leeches off the physical and utilizes the physical to generate the energy that it require to exist and thus does not exist of its own accord, but actually requires the physical to exist, and the being as self to participate in and as it.

 I commit myself to living as the example for all that who I am and who we really are is the physical here as breath and not the mind, by stopping myself as a mind consciousness system through daily application of uncovering to myself all the layers of consciousness that I am/have been existing as to see and identify and diffuse the patterns, taking myself back to a point of nothingness, wherein nothing separate from me moves within me, to then be able to recreate myself as a being that stands one and equal to and as the physical, that considers my world and reality as equal to myself.

I commit myself to no longer be a slave for the mind consciousness system wherein I exist only to give power and life to the mind consciousness system, but to birth myself here as life and actually live for real, not a puppet for a system to use as a literal battery to generate energy for its existence.

For more context read Day 49: the QuantumFlesh and listen to the interview Reptilians – Facing The Question of ‘Who I Am’

Watch the documentaries The Trap and TheCentury of the Self to see how the human has been able to be controlled by taking advantage of the human as a mind consciousness system.