Day 79: Commitment Statements on the “I Can Do It” Character

I commit myself to when a picture comes up where I would activate the ‘I Can Do It’ character, to stop and realize it is only a picture and that there will be consequences if I allow this character to activate and I participate in/as it, because I’m then participating in a picture and not actual reality.

I commit myself to stop living as illusions as the pictures I see in my mind, so that I can be a real being that lives in real reality, and not just as a picture in my mind that isn’t real.

I commit myself to actual self change, which must be walked in actual reality, and no longer wasting my time trying to change the pictures in my mind, as the pictures aren’t real, and thus I’m only trying to change what is an illusion in the first place, and thus I commit myself to see, in all ways, what I’m actually living as, so that I can change myself in reality, as that is the only change that is real, is that which is lived.

I commit myself to become aware of what triggers the activation of this character as the thought/picture of me failing, and to realize that creating/participating in a character is not the solution to deal with the picture that comes up in my mind, but that the solution is to not believe the picture in my mind, and realize that it is only a picture and not real. And within this, I commit myself to develop the ability to see/recognize the moment before I am about to activate this character, so that I can stop and not participate in/become/live as this character, but remain here as myself, not possessed by a reaction character as a personality suit that I will then become as who I am as certain mannerisms and internal conversation, and emotion and feeling reactions, none of which is self-directed, but happens to me, through my own accepted design as the patterns I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as within my mind consciousness system.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into/participating in backchat according to the character of ‘I Can do this’, to stop, and realize that I am attempting to manipulate myself through talking myself into certain beliefs/patterns of behavior.

I commit myself to show how just how we’re controlled by our own minds that we’ve separated ourselves from, as how we’ll become completely possessed by character take-overs to the extent that we practically do not even exist here but are only existing as and ‘giving life’ to characters, that are only ever nothing more than illusions, and that we’ve accepted ourselves as these characters so much that the take-over is nearly instantaneous and when it happens it will direct all our internal conversation, our thoughts/feelings/emotions, what we say, how we move, how we act, how we feel physically, such that we’ll no longer be here as ourself as a self willed self directed individual, but will be completely consumed by this character reaction to a certain situation/trigger/event, that that’s all we’ll exist as, which is really extensive mind-control going on.

I commit myself to focusing on reality as who I am and who we really are in reality and what our actual effect on reality is, and to sort out what is reality and what is just a picture and thus not real, so that I can get down to understanding myself and myself as humanity and this existence and how we create what is here, so that I will then be able to create in awareness and create a world that is best for all life, where all can live a dignified life, and none are made to needlessly suffer.

I commit myself to sort out all the ways in which I live as the fear of survival, so that I can stop existing as and being controlled and directed by patterns of fear, and actually find out what it means to really live, to really be here and be an active and aware part and participant in this world, and to actually move myself in consideration of all that is here and how this reality currently functions and operates, so that I can ensure that I move myself in such a way that the part that I play is one that can stand for eternity, as a being that lives in consideration of all life as equal to and as myself, to ensure that who I am as a creator is benevolent and that I actually care as a living expression of who I am.

I commit myself to see through the bullshit of the justification to participate in a character, and realize that it is never of any benefit to participate in and as a character, as when I live as a character, I am not living as myself, and thus as a character, I sabotage myself and diminish myself, and thus I commit myself to realize that it is my actions and who I am as/within the physical that is who I really am, and thus any part of me that I give away to an imaginary character is not real. Within this, I commit myself to bring all parts of myself that I’ve given away to characters, back to myself, to re-amalgamate that which I’ve separated myself from to live as the whole being that I actually am here.

Day 77: The ‘I Can Do This’ Character

The 'I Can Do It' Character comes up when activated by the thought as a picture of me failing, where for example, I am about to attempt something like a new job, and the picture comes up of me in the job and failing at it, and thus I then experience the fear of that I cannot do this, where the backchat comes up of ‘oh god, what if I can’t do this?’ this is when the ‘I Can Do This’ character becomes activated, wherein I’m trying to cover up and deny that I am experiencing the fear of failure and that I have accepted and validated the picture of myself failing as real, and instead of realizing that I have simply believed in a picture that isn’t real, and thus can simply stop believing in/validating it, I rather create a new character to super-impose on top of the fear experience so that I can suppress the fear experience as how I’m actually experiencing myself and pretend to myself that that is not how I am actually experiencing myself, by deciding that how I’m going to experience myself is ‘believing that I Can do it’, yet not realizing that this belief and this character are just as fake as the initial thought and fear that triggered me to create and participate in this character. 

When I faced the point of doing a job I’d never done before, and the picture of me failing came up, I created this character because I did not want to accept the picture of me ‘not being able to do it’, as failure was simply ‘not an option’, because I required a job to be able to survive. So the creation of this character comes down to the point of ‘survival’, showing how we’ve not actually yet evolved as humanity, because we’re still allowing ourselves to exist within/as survival as how we view, perceive, and interact with the world and situations in our environment.

I saw it as I simply could not accept this picture of me failing, because I needed to succeed in order to ensure my survival, yet not realizing that what was required then was to simply not accept the picture as real, and that by creating and superimposing a character over top of my actual experience, what I was actually doing was distracting me from actually facing the thought I had accepted, to see that it was in fact not real and only a picture in my mind, and rather focusing on creating and living as yet another character, as a personality suit of mannerisms & behaviors that I act as instead of being here as myself.

Then when I live as this character, I’m putting on a ‘fake air’ of what I can/can’t do only based on an idea and not actual reality, and this will lead to disappointing results, as believing/pretending I can do something and actually being able to do it, are two different things. Thus, I’ll manifest consequences by not living one and equal as who I am by trying to put on a presentation of what ‘I can do’, regardless of actual reality, and actually sabotaging myself by setting myself up for situations where reality is going to clash with the presentation I am trying to uphold, which is completely unnecessary, as I can simply be here as myself, not requiring to ‘know’ what I can and can’t do as knowledge in my mind, but rather walk here as a physical being and ‘find out’ what I can do, by actually participating and moving myself in physical reality, so that I will actually find out what I really can do, and not be living a pretense. 

And within this realizing that skills and abilities take time as a practical process walked in the physical to develop such skill/ability, and thus further evidence it really doesn’t work to pretend and put on a character seeking to convince that we can do something, when we’re really just trying to convince ourself, because we already realize that we have not made such an ability a reality yet, and thus can only ‘convince’ ourself that it is reality, within this deluding ourself by taking ourself into an alternate reality in the mind.

Self Forgiveness on the "I Can Do It" character will be walked within the following post.