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Day 150: I Don’t Want to Do This: Reaction Dimension (Part 3)

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This post is a continuation to:

Day 139: The ‘I Don’t Want To Do This’ Character

Day 140: 'I Don’t Want to Do This': Thought Dimension

Day 141: I Don’t Want to Do This: Thought Dimension (Part 2)

Day 143: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 1)

Day 144: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 2)

Day 145: I Don’t Want to Do This: Imagination Dimension (Part 3)

Day 146: I Don’t Want to Do This: Backchat Dimension (Part 1)

Day 147: I Don’t Want to Do This: Backchat Dimension (Part 2)

Day 148: I Don’t Want to Do This: Reaction Dimension (Part 1)

Day 149: I Don’t Want to Do This: Reaction Dimension (Part 2)

In this post we’re now going to continue with the Commitment Statements for the Reaction Dimension of the I Don’t Want to Do This Character in regards to working/doing my job.

Reaction Dimension Self Commitments:
Thought Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when/as I see the thought come up in my mind of how I am not going to enjoy myself while working/doing my job, I stop immediately and move myself as the directive principle of myself to not participate in the thought and to simply stick to the task at hand working/doing my job, as I see, realize and understand that if I do not immediately move myself, that I’ll essentially allow the Mind to move me with the energy-experience of ‘dread’, where I’ll become that energy and thus sabotage myself in my living here in effectively applying myself within my work/job.

I commit myself to standing as the decision to not accept and allow myself to follow/live/connect me to the thought in the moment, as I see, realize and understand that if I do so I will become the thought and energy-experience that accompanies it, and essentially lock myself into the mind giving up my directive will in determining who I am in the moment , and so I commit myself to stand as my decision in the moment and take a breath and move myself to stay here in reality within doing my job/working.

Imagination Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself participating in the negative imagination of how I’m not going to enjoy work, where I imagine what might ‘go wrong’, to realize that by participating in this imagination and energy-experience I am the one creating it, and thus I can stop in a moment within making the decision to stop participating and walking/living that decision through breathing through the energy and grounding myself here in and as the physical, as I realize that the more I stick to my decision to move myself, the more I take back control of myself from the mind and show the mind that it does not in fact have power over me, and thus the energy will start disappearing as I no longer accept and allow myself to be moved by it.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into the positive imagination where I imagine myself as not having to work, being at home, doing something else and experiencing myself positively in these scenarios, where I get to avoid doing the action/task that is before me as working/doing my job, to realize that I’m accepting and allowing myself to be moved by energy and going into an energy-experience instead of remaining here in/as the physical and moving myself practically according to what needs to be done such as working/doing my job.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to when and as I see myself go into imagining in my mind alternatives to what it is I have to do in the moment, and experiencing ‘comfort’ toward this imagination, to stop participation, as I realize I am allowing myself to be manipulated by/through/within an energy-experience of ‘comfort’ attached to images in my mind, with the purpose of manipulating myself to give up on the task before me, and thus I commit myself to realize that that experience of ‘comfort’ is not an actual, self-directed expression of myself as comfort.

Backchat Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when in a moment where I am facing the task of working/doing my job, and see myself participating in the words “Man I really don’t want to do this” / “I am not going to enjoy this” / “This is not going to go well”, where I then experience the negative energy experience of ‘anxiety’, to realize that I am using these words and the accompanying energy-experience of ‘anxiety’ to create an alternate reality in my mind as a relationship toward working/doing my job, in order to compromise me in doing what I need to do here in order to effectively support myself within working/doing my job.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself participate in the backchat “I wish I could be doing something else” / “It’s going to be so long before I’m finished” / “I wish I could be doing something else” / “It’s going to be so long before I’m finished” and the accompanying energy-experience of ‘depression’, to stop, breathe and ground myself here, as I realize that I am using these words and experience of depression to manipulate myself into not doing that which I must do, and thus it is up to me to stand as my decision to move myself and no longer accept and allow myself to be directed by energy-experiences.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to when and as I see myself going into backchat and a positive or negative energy-experience toward working/doing my job, to stop participation and breathe to stabilize myself here in reality, and stand as the directive principle of myself and changing myself to no longer accept myself to live as words with energy to living words where I direct myself to move and actually do that which I have decided to do, in applying myself within effectively working/doing my job in order to support myself here.

Day 120: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 4)

This post is a continuation to:

Day 108: Waiting to Value Myself

Day 109: Waiting for Approval – I Need You To Like Me: Thought Dimension
Day 110: Waiting for Approval: Thought Dimension: Practical Application
Day 111: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension
Day 112: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension: Self Forgiveness

Day 113: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension: Commitment Statements

Day 114: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension

Day 115: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension: Self Forgiveness

Day 116: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension: Self Commitment Statements

Day 117: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 1)

Day 118: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 2)

Day 119: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 3)

Imagination Energy-Relationship Self Commitments continued:
I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop creating and participating in an alternate version of reality made-up in my mind that exist only as energy and has no bearing or substance in reality, and commit myself rather to self expansion as a physical being that live practically in/as the physical reality.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into/participating in my imagination in imagining scenarios in which I possibly wouldn’t have to go through with the situation, where my mind takes me through various different possibilities like for example if I a stray dog were to run up and bite me on the way there and so I’d rather have to go and treat the wound, or if I were to fall and injure myself, within this not even considering how I would actually experience myself if those things were to actually happen to me, where then I would find myself in an even worse situation of actual physical consequence than the energy-experience of anxiety and hopelessness, and thus I commit myself to realize the common sense that the obvious better solution is to simply stop the energy-experience within myself, as that is the only actual solution, and imaging physical consequence to ‘save me’ in essence from myself, from the experiences that I’m actually creating within myself, is obviously no solution, and that within this I’ve accepted myself as powerless wherein I’m waiting for my reality to come up with some situation to change my experience, instead of standing up within/as myself to change how I experience myself as I am the very creator of the experience in the first place.

I commit myself to assist and support myself when and as I see myself imagining in my mind not having to go through with the meeting/interaction, and experiencing ‘relief’ toward this imagination, to stop participation, as I realize that I am allowing myself to be manipulated within/by/through an energy-experience of ‘relief’ attached to an image in my mind, with the purpose of manipulating myself to give up on the task that is before me, and so I commit myself to realize that I am not that experience of relief, as it’s just a feeling that was triggered by the image in my mind, and thus I do not allow myself to be directed by an energy-experience and I move myself to face the task at hand, as I realize that I am the one that created the feeling of ‘relief’ in the first place and thus it is not actually real.

Backchat Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when facing a moment of meeting/interacting with another, and I see myself participating in the words “I really wish I didn’t have to face this person right now” where I’m speaking as the emotions of anxiety and hopelessness that I have and manifested into my physical within my participation in thought and imagination, to see and realize how I am using words and the energy-experiences related to them, to give myself over to the mind in further validating myself as thought and imagination, instead of being the directive principle of/as myself and living words as/into real physical living.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself participate in the backchat “I really wish I didn’t have to face this person right now”, to realize that I am using these words and the energy experience of anxiety and thus creating myself as this experience and thus into an alternate reality in my mind, and through this compromising myself where instead of me living here as breath and remaining in actual reality and simply moving myself to interact with another, I am allowing myself to be directed by energy-experiences that seek to prevent me from doing that which I set out to do.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to when and as I see myself going into backchat and a negative or positive energy-experience toward what is here, to stop participation, breathe and stabilize myself here in reality, and in that moment take directive will of myself and change myself as the words I live as from words of energy to living words, where I decide that I am going to follow through on the task at hand and so will myself to take directive stance of myself and move myself to actually do it.

Reaction Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself within an energy-experience as reaction toward what I am facing as the task at hand, as for example facing a moment of meeting/interacting with another being, and I see, realize and understand the nature of my thoughts, imagination and backchat within the energy-reactions are existent within the context of the Validation Character: to see, realize and understand that I am accepting and allowing myself to go into energy-experiences of the mind, instead of practically living here in actual reality, and allowing myself to follow through with the task before me.

I commit myself to assist and support me to move myself from being controlled/directed by energy-experiences, to a self-willed, self-directed being, and to redefine myself from living words of energy to actually Living words, so that I align myself to physical living instead of living as/within/possessed by the energy of the mind, and thus I commit myself to use writing as the tool with which I establish a self-agreement with me where I assist and support myself to direct myself to follow through with what it is I set out to do, and no longer give up on myself and go into the Validation character.

Within the next post, we’ll continue on to the Behavior/Physical Dimension of this Character/Personality.

Day 119: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 3)

This post is a continuation to:

Day 108: Waiting to Value Myself

Day 113: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension: Commitment Statements

Day 114: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension

Day 115: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension: Self Forgiveness

Day 116: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension: Self Commitment Statements

Day 117: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 1)

Day 118: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 2)

Here continuing from where we left off in the previous post, continuing now with Self Forgiveness on the Reaction Dimension, and then starting into Self Commitments.

Reaction Self Forgiveness continued:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the Validation Character/Personality, allow myself to live as the energy-experiences that come up within me as anxiety, hopelessness and then to relief, according to the feeling of anxiety that I’ve connected with the Thought of someone not liking me, the feeling of hopelessness that I’ve associated with imagining them treating me mean, and the experience of relief I’ve connected to the imagination of not having to go through with meeting/interacting with them, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow and become this energy-experience, where I’ve actually created an alternate version of reality of the scenario before me of meeting/interacting with someone, and instead going into and becoming/living as this energy-experience instead of remaining here in actual reality and simply interacting/meeting with another being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider/see how I have allowed myself to be completely consumed within the energy-experience where I am living as/for just that experience, and within that not considering how I’m practically not even aware of my physical body, my very breathing, the other being I am/going to be meeting/interacting with and all and everything around me and in my world as all the various beings and manifestations that exist in this reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within accepting myself to exist as this point, I’m limiting myself in my world and reality where instead of getting to know part of my world and reality as the other beings that I exist with here through meeting/interacting with them, I’m giving into and allowing myself to be directed by energy-experiences of anxiety, hopelessness and relief.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by these energies and never considering how it is that I came to think/believe/perceive that I want/need/desire for others to ‘like me’, within this not seeing/realizing that within this I am actually manipulating myself where I want the other person to act in such a way that I can feel validated/liked, instead of realizing that it is me that determine how I experience myself and thus the actual solution is actually for me stop accepting and allowing myself to participate in energy-reactions, and not in how another acts/doesn’t act toward me, as no one but myself can stop my participation in the very thoughts, imagination, backchat, and reactions to which I have allowed to become habitual as my accepted and allowed nature as ‘who I am’.

Reaction Dimension Self Commitments:
Thought Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when/as I see a thought cross my mind of someone not liking me or an interaction with a person not going well, I stop immediately and move myself as the directive principle of myself to not participate in the thought and simply stick to the task at hand of meeting/interacting with another, as I see, realize, and understand that if I do not immediately move myself, that I will accept and allow the Mind to move me with the energy-experience of anxiety, and that I will become that energy and be moved and directed by that energy and I’ll thus sabotage myself and my participation here by going further and further into the alternate reality of the energy-experience, instead of remaining here in actual reality and effectively participating.

I commit myself to stand within this decision within not accepting and allowing myself to follow/live as/connect the thought to me in the moment, as I see, realize, and understand that if I do so I will become that thought and accompanying energy-experience and lock myself into the mind and essentially giving myself up and my directive will to the mind becoming locked in an experience of energy and no longer here directing myself here in awareness and determining who I am in the moment and what I will live as, and so I commit myself to stand as this decision to in the moment, take a breath and move myself to stay here in reality with meeting/interacting with another being.

Imagination Energy-Relationship Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when and as I see myself participating in a negative imagination such as seeing another being not liking me/picturing an interaction with another being not going well/going badly, within and as an energy reaction of hopelessness, to realize that by participating in this imagination and energy-experience that I have connected to it, that I am accepting and allowing myself to create this energy-experience, as I am the one that is participating in it, and so deciding that I will live as/within it, which I can stop in a moment through making the decision to stop participating, and then walking/living that decision, breathe through the energy and ground myself here in and as the physical, as I realize that the more I stick to my decision to move me, the more I show that the mind does not in fact have control/power over me, and the imagination and energy will start disappearing, as I no longer accept and allow myself to be moved by it, that I have for so long accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I’m going further into my mind into a positive imagination, where I imagine scenarios where I can avoid going through with the planned course of action of meeting/interacting with another being, to realize that I am accepting and allowing myself to be moved by energy and going into an energy experience instead of remaining here with/as the physical and moving myself practically, as the physical in physical reality.

In the next post we’ll continue with Self Commitments for the Imagination, Backchat and Reaction Energy-Relationships for the Validation Character.