Day 67: Self Commitment Statements on the ‘I Hate Work’ Character

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I commit myself to realize that I am responsible for how work currently exists as being ‘forced’ within living as that relationship toward ‘work’, and thus I commit myself to realize that it can be another way, as I can change who I am and the relationships that I’m living as, and support all others to do the same, and within this transform how ‘work’ currently exists into real self expression.

I commit myself to transforming my relationship to/toward ‘work’ because I realize this is the key to transforming how work currently exists and that it is our collective acceptance of work as something we ‘don’t want to do’ and that we ‘must be forced to do’ that ensures that we’ll always exist as being forced to work.

I commit myself to move myself and not require motivation as an outside point that drives me before I will move, and within this I commit myself to investigate everything as an outside/separate point of ‘motivation’ that moves me, so that I can stop existing as patterns and see where/how I must yet take back my self direction to move myself.

I commit myself to deconstruct my programming according to what I’ve defined as what I ‘don’t want to do’ and thus also the polarity of what I ‘do want to do’, so that I am no longer directed by beliefs that keep me limited.

I commit myself to realize that the resistance toward working is actually serving consumerism, and thus I commit myself to stop being just a power source that powers the current system by buy buy buying, so I say bye bye to the character of ‘I hate work’, and change my starting point to rather expanding myself in each and every moment, rather than developing and reinforcing the habit of being lazy and accepting myself as more and more limited, so that I require to buy more and more in the attempt to make up for my limitations.

I commit myself to realizing that when I participate in the ‘I hate work/I don’t want to work’ character, that I am actually programming myself to be limited that will manifest as an actual physical limitation experienced within/as the physical where I’ll actually experience physical resistance to effort, and thus am manifesting actual physical difficulty in moving myself which is extremely limiting myself as a physical being within a physical reality, and thus commit myself to stopping this self abuse from participating in resistance to working/that which takes effort.

I commit myself to when I am realize that I am seeing work as ‘something I must do’, that the physical resistance/reaction I experience is not actually real, as I’ve programmed it into my physical and is activated by going into and accessing the character of ‘I don’t want to work’, and thus I breathe and bring myself back here and into my physical body and no longer allow myself to go into and access the character of ‘I don’t like working’, and through consistent application of walking the correction in every moment, deprogram the physical resistances I have programmed into myself.

I commit myself to educating myself and getting an understanding of how this reality operates so that I can make sure that who I am and the decisions I make and live as is in the context of reality as it currently exists and how to manifest reality into a world that is best for all, within this becoming the actual change and solution to the current manifestation of society that is in separation of what is here within only considering profit/money/survival.

I commit myself to stop the belief that who I am is ‘not wanting to work’ within the realization that it is a belief that I simply accepted and did not question and that is able to be deleted in a single moment and I am still here, and thus is not real/who I am.

I commit myself to transforming my relationship to work/labor/effort so that what I do becomes the actual expression of who I am as a physical being as a part of this whole reality, and thus I commit myself to investigating myself to see exactly how/where I live as this character of ‘I hate work’ within my daily life, to actually change myself and in the moment no longer live as this character, so that I can live as a Real Character here that is the physical.

I commit myself to realizing that I do not exist separate from this world/reality and thus it is in my best interest to ensure that this world/reality is properly cared for which is the same as properly caring for myself, and within this allowing myself to do what’s necessary to be done to care for life, which the character of ‘I hate work’ actually prevents me from doing, and thus this character obviously is not in my best interest.

I commit myself to become one and equal to the situation at hand as correcting what we’ve manifested here through correcting myself, to take responsibility instead of accepting myself as limited and as a victim to the system/to the way things are, within realizing that it is us as each individual that collectively create the way things are, and thus it’s myself as one of the individuals, as each and every individual,  that must change our accepted nature, to stop manifesting a world of enslavement.

Day 61: The Postponement Character - Self Sabotage 101

Today I got a real clear look at the character of Postponement, and just what that looks like, and how I participate in and as it – and this is really cool because, the result of participating in and as this character is that I sabotage myself and my life, and all of existence as myself, by developing and programming myself with patterns of postponement, which I then live out. 

How does that work? I mean, I can look at my life, and all the moments that I postponed, and I can see them, because I knew in those moments exactly what I was doing, yet not realizing the consequence and how to assist and support myself to stop, as I didn’t yet see it all laid-out before me in simplicity. And thus I can also see how I’ve compromised myself by participating in and as the character of Postponement, as all the things I could have done, but didn’t because I believed myself to actually be the character of Postponement, not realizing that it is actually just a character that is acted and is not real as who I am, and thus I am able to change my character to a character that is actually effective and supportive, where I rather live life to the fullest, then waste it away in postponement. I mean, I only get this one lifetime, with a limited number of breaths, why would I decide to spend them within limitation and holding myself back?

So when I participate in Postponement, I know that I am actually mind controlled, where I’m allowing my mind to have control over me. How this works, is it starts with a thought, wherein the mind takes you to a negative thought toward what one is about to do, and then pulls you in with a positive thought. The next step is where you go into backchat based on the thought, which confirms that you have believed in and accepted the thought. So, by the time you are already in the backchat of ‘I don’t want to do this, I’d rather do that’, you have already accepted the initial thought as the initial negative thought and then the positive hook, and thus from here will act as that thought and have backchat in response to that thought, and be directed by that thought, and thus be literally possessed by the mind, which is the purpose/function of the mind – to keep you enslaved to not ever see/realize/face yourself so that you can actually change and stop accepting and living as limitation, never really actually living, as you’re only living as the mind, as how the mind directed you to feel and be to/toward your world and reality.

I mean, quite an effective tool for enslavement as it have one believe that you actually are that limitation, and that you actually want to be limited. Yet, once you know how it operates, you can see right through the ‘magic trick’, to see there really is nothing magic about it, it’s just a simple pattern that we’ve taken for granted, with a really simple solution, that if applied constantly and consistently,  you will transform yourself into a being that no longer Postpones your life away, but actually lives fully here in each and every moment. 

So, when I see myself going into Postponement and having backchat about wanting to do something else, I see how I’ve defined what I’m about to do as negative, and then have come up with a positive as ‘what I’d rather do’ – and when this pattern comes up, I know that I have accepted a thought, and that I am allowing myself to be mind controlled, and thus I stop and identify the initial negative experience, and the positive experience that the mind use to suck me in to trigger the character of Postponement, so that I can become aware of exactly how this character is triggered, so that I can stop before it is activated and gets to the point of backchat, and where I will start to manifest actual physical symptoms like feeling tired, or fidgety, and just wandering about, and so within this, utilize this as a tool to strengthen myself in the decision of who I am, as a cross-reference for where I’m not yet standing within the decision of who I am and what I do.

And thus in such moments where I would go into and become the character of postponement, I assist and support myself to not participate within the realization that the resistance is not real, it is created through the mind within the initial negative thought and then the positive thought to hook me in to the belief and acceptance of the thought where I will then live as that thought, while it is only ever a thought and not actually real, so once I identify the thought, I then stop participating and physically commit myself to do what it is I had decided to do, and move myself to do it. And as I consistently apply this correction of practical application, where for example, if I have decided I am going to write something, then I sit and do that and focus on that until it is done, I will eventually delete the character of Postponement, while changing myself to become the directive principle in who I am and what I do, within making a decision and actually doing it, realizing it will become easier as I go along, until it becomes who I am, as a being that makes a decision and walks it through to completion.

Day 1: Patterns & Cycles

As humanity, we've been existing in cycles of patterns, never considering how the patterns that we're living as are manifesting this world, this reality, to be one in which extensive abuse occurs in each and every moment - we're not considering how we are actually the cause of this and the creators of this world, and that shows that we are actually less than our creation.

We have become slaves to the patterns we live out, because we don't even understand/see/realize that we're even existing as patterns, where we constantly cycle the past as our memories within who and what we live as. 

It's here that I begin a 7 year process of deconstructing these patterns one at a time, through applying self forgiveness on the patterns and committing myself to living the correction. Within this process, I'll be applying self forgiveness on the patterns, whether or not the pattern is within my direct life - as it exists within this world, and if I cannot face what is here, I accept the same limitation for all who face such point.

This to equalize myself to what is here, so that if I ever were to face such a point, I will have placed direction for myself to stand in such a situation and direct myself within the principle of what is best for all life.

So, I'll start with applying self forgiveness on the points I've mentioned here thus far -
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I am existing as pre-programmed patterns and cycles, then who I am is not actually 'life', as I am not here in each moment as myself, but only existing as pre-designed patterns that I live out as myself, and thus I who I am and have been is a pre-programmed robot.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to consider that if I am not here stable, constant in who I am within each and every moment, that this implies that I am not actually 'life', that who I am is not actually real, if who I am fluctuate from moment to moment based on the patterns that I have developed as my personality throughout my life, and now live out and according those memories and experiences from the past.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that the experiences I have where I experience emotions/feelings/thoughts that are based on memories/the past indicate that I am not here as myself in each and every moment, but am existing as the past, and thus existing as just memory repeating itself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I experience emotions/feelings/thoughts coming up inside of me, that this indicates I have separated myself from my myself, within a mind consciousness system through which I experience emotions/feelings/thoughts based on past experiences/memories, and thus that I am not here as myself in each and every moment.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that the emotions/thoughts/feelings that come up in a moment as an experience within myself are actually who I am, and thus take them for granted and not question why they are there, how they function, and what is the consequence of participating in those thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that this world as how it is currently manifested with extensive suffering and abuse taking place in each and every moment is the result of who we are as who and what we've accepted and allowed ourselves to be, within the patterns and cycles of abuse we have accepted ourselves to exist as, generation through generation, passing on the cycles of abuse and never seeing/considering that we are actually responsible for manifesting this world as it is, and within that that it is thus our responsibility to stop existing as cycles and patterns of abuse, and walk ourselves into correction, to manifest a world which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take for granted the way I've always existed, not seeing/realizing/remembering how I've formed myself as a personality consisting of patterns of abuse and justification as to why the world 'is the way it is' and that I am not responsible, within this not realizing that by accepting and allowing myself to exist as a pre-programmed personality that I am in fact responsible for what is here as I am existing as the same cycles and patterns of abuse that take place within this world at large.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give in to reasons/excuses/justifications as to how/why I am not responsible for what is here and who/what I am existing as, within this not realizing that I am justifying my own limitation, wherein I accept myself as pre-programmed and do not give myself and all of life the gift of stopping patterns and cycles of abuse, as I have accepted who I am and thus do not change myself to stop self limitations.

I commit myself to investigating myself to see where/how I exist as patterns and cycles of past experiences/memories and releasing myself from these patterns through self forgiveness - so that I can stop existing as a repetition of the past as past experiences, and live here as myself in each and every moment.

I commit myself to consider that by taking self responsibility through self forgiveness, I will actually change and expand myself and become a real self directed being that is actually here in this reality, rather than within my mind within preprogrammed experiences, and thus missing what is here, missing life, missing opportunities to expand myself within this actual physical reality.

I commit myself to investigate the thoughts/feelings/emotions I experience and see what patterns I am accepting and allowing myself to exist as by participating within these patterns, and what the consequences are within my life and my world of living as these patterns, so that I may become aware of how I create my life and my world and my experience to take self responsibility to change who and what I live as so that I can make sure that who and what I am living as will manifest a world that is best for all life.

I commit myself to consider that when I participate in justifications in order to not change myself and remain as I am as a pre-programmed personality, that I am in fact trapping myself within limitation and denying myself the gift of allowing myself to expand myself to my full potential.

I commit myself to consider how what I accept and allow to exist within myself, I also accept and allow to exist in all others, and thus I am responsible for how this world exists within what I accept and allow for myself.

I commit myself to investigating myself to see what patterns/cycles I am existing as and to release myself from them through applying self forgiveness, in specificity, so that I can see my application within my writing and who/what I am living as and to ensure the words I write when lived will have a result that is best for all.

I commit myself to consider that by taking responsibility for myself and correcting myself through self forgiveness and commitment to correction, that I actually empower myself to have an ability to respond within this reality and stand equal to what I have created, and become a benevolent creator which create a world that is best for all life, which means that I create a world that is best for myself as I am part of the all.