Day 35 - The Obvious Secret of Consciousness

Day 35 - For context listen to the interview Reptilians – The Obvious Secret – Reality or Illusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I require thoughts to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is consciousness, not realizing that it is a system existing within me and thus it is not actually me, but it is a system within me which I have abdicated myself to and allow to direct me in my stead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and fear that if I stop thinking that I will die or cease to exist or lose myself, when in actuality I will begin to exist as actual life here, rather than just the thoughts that are created and generated by and within my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I stop my thoughts the only thing I will lose is those thoughts, and then I will be here as myself without preprogrammed thoughts directing me, silent inside able to move and direct myself, and become more aware of what I’ve been missing in the physical reality that I have been distracted from by always being in my mind within thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I accept who I am as the thoughts that run around in my head and allow those thoughts to direct me, then what does it imply that I am not even aware of those thoughts, that I am not a self directed individual in control of myself and my actions, but am a mind-controlled robot subject to the fluctuations of my preprogrammed mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I have not actually really been here experiencing, seeing, hearing actual reality, as I have been my whole life distracted by the noise in my head as the constant and continuous thoughts running.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the more I give permission to my thoughts that the more control I give my mind over me, within separating myself from my mind system and allowing thoughts to direct me, instead of standing equal to and as my mind within getting an understanding and awareness of how my mind functions as the patterns and behaviors I have been programmed with so that the mind no longer directs me in separation but I can direct myself and my mind in oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every second I spend off in my mind is a wasted moment where I have missed actually reality that I can never get back, as you only get so many breaths in this life, and thus I should make the most of each and every single breath I have and make everybreath count where I within every breath move myself to expand and grow so that I can have an impact in this world and reality and ensure that who I am is actually a benefit to all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I am not aware of how my mind functions when my mind is what is controlling my very behavior, that I am actually a slave to my mind as I do not understand how it functions, how it is directing me, and manifesting consequences and play-outs in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if my thoughts just pop up in my mind as if out of nowhere, that I am not in control of myself but am at the whim of my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my beingness exists only in my head region, ignoring that I am actually here within my total physical body, and that actual self movement comes from the chest area, and what is going on inside the head region is thoughts being generated by and through my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am is not a system within me, but I am the being within the human physical body and my mind consciousness system, and since I am here within the human physical body and mind consciousness system implies that I am in fact responsible for my human physical body and my mind consciousness system, in getting an understanding and awareness of how they operate so that I can utilize what is here as myself in a way that result in what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I have actually designed my own mind consciousness system throughout my life according to my acceptances and allowances, within the thoughts that I decided to participate in and exist as.

To not consider that if I would not actually want what really goes on in my secret mind to be exposed, that indicates that the nature of my secret mind as the thoughts and backchat I allow and give attention to is really nasty and evil, and should not in any condition be accepted and allowed by me to exist within me.

I commit myself to realizing the insignificance of thoughts, within simply looking at what is the result from participation in thoughts is that they produce no result in the physical, and that only participation in and as the physical is what matters as what takes place in matter and substance, whereas thoughts are just information energy threads with no real substance.

I commit myself to walking the daily process of getting an understanding of how my mind operates so that I stand equal to and as my mind and in equality and oneness can direct myself and my mind as myself within what is best for all.

I commit myself to not accepting and allowing the nastiness of backchat to exist within me.

I commit myself to realizing that who I am is not my thoughts and that I can actually only really live if I stop participation in thoughts, for as long as I am participating in thoughts, I am not really here in reality, not really living, but missing out and squandering this opportunity that I have as a physical being here with a limited number of breaths.

Day 14: Jealousy - I want what you're living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I participate in jealousy toward another, I am participating in one of the nastiest patterns of behavior that exists, wherein I sabotage not only myself but all others in my world, by living in such a way where I am only considering myself and trying to shape my world into what is best for me, disregarding all others, and disregarding the consequences that I create when I abdicate my self-responsibility and allow myself to be directed by the design of jealousy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that participating in the construct of jealousy actually only serves to trap me in a position of jealousy toward another, as I am not taking any practical action, but am only spending my time and energy participating in thoughts and backchat about what another has that I want, how it isn't fair that they have it and more various backchat depending on the extent to which one participates, where it can become extremely nasty and spiteful, and thus I am only existing as cycling through these thoughts and backchat in my mind, instead of living here and living for myself that which it is I am jealous of another for living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste the time that I have in this life in a state of jealousy, wherein instead of living for myself that which I see another living, I'm wasting time in my mind, where I literally become possessed by thoughts, feelings, and emotions through my continued acceptance and allowance of my participation in such thoughts and experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want another to not have what I don't have, rather than considering how I can live it for myself, or if I cannot live it for myself, to realize then that there is no point to continue focusing on that which is not within my ability, and instead focus on that which is within my ability to actually live as myself, so that I ensure my focus is always on expanding myself in every way possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not only harming others within participating in jealousy but that it works both ways, wherein when I attempt to keep others down I am also keeping myself down, as I am accepting my world and those in it as diminished, which means I will not have the examples of others within my world to learn from and explore new ways of expressing myself that I had not before considered, or opening up opportunities for expansion within working together with others, thus within not allowing anyone in my world to expand, I create my world to be not able to assist and support myself to expand as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so possessed by jealousy that it controls and affects my very behaviors as my mannerisms, words, actions, tonalities, wherein what I say and do is from the starting point of manipulating the situation toward an outcome that is best for me, in total disregard of another, or even in deliberate attempt to sabotage another, in the desire to get what I want for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I am possessed with jealousy, then I am not here, living and experiencing myself here in the physical reality, but am 'lost' within my mind within thoughts, and thus 'missing out' on life, which will feed my patterns of jealousy, as I am denying myself opportunities in moments to be here living and expanding myself, and thus sabotaging myself, where instead I could in those moments be putting in the time and effort to expand myself and actually live here, and then I would not feel like I am 'missing out' on anything, as I'd be too busy actually living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I am not directing my mind to ensure that the patterns I live as are in the best interest of all life here, and assisting and supporting all life, myself included, to develop and expand ourselves, for if I am not the directive principle of my mind, the automated reactions I accept as myself are what I will become and manifest in this world in the image and likeness of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an economic system which supports jealousy by not giving equal support to all individuals, so that some receive more support to expand themselves in this world, while others are disregarded and not given the same opportunity to exist and thrive here, and within this providing a platform on which jealousy to thrive for those that have not received adequate support towards those that have received more.

I commit myself to not participating in patterns and behaviors of jealousy, and to stop immediately when a thought of jealousy come up and realize that if I decide to participate in such thought that I am sabotaging myself by going into my mind into spitefulness, rather than living and expressing myself here in the physical reality.

I commit myself to realize that when I participate in jealousy I harm myself and everyone within accepting diminishment and limitation, and standing deliberately in the way of the expansion of myself and this existence in it's entirety, thus it is my responsibility to ensure that I do not participate in jealousy, so that I do not manifest a world of limitation and abuse.

I commit myself to live from the starting point of expanding myself and my world, so that I assist and support myself and my world to become the best it can be in all ways.

I commit myself to bringing forth an economic system which is based on equal support for all, so that all have the equal opportunity to exist and thrive here, and none are left out.

I commit myself to living to my fullest in each and every moment, in each and every breath, being present here, so that the the thought or temptation to go into jealousy does not have the opportunity to present itself, as I am already busy living my life and expanding myself here.

I commit myself to ensuring that I am the directive principle of my mind, so that I ensure that the behaviors that I live are directed in such a way that is best for life and that I am in no way accepting abuse or limitation to exist.