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Day 45 - Love as Justification for Abuse - Self Forgiveness



Below is a Personal Message I received on my Youtube channel and related Self forgiveness. Suggestion is to speak aloud the self forgiveness for most effective result.

For context, watch the videos this comment is directed toward:


Subject: Love Month

"HI:)
I wanted to comment on your video but my comment is too long. I think:)

How do you know, that people feel the love, in the way you describe it? Do You know all of them?:) Do You know me? :) You talk about Your friends and the people you know? Or you are talking about people you know from the media? People want to love and to be loved.
Do you love yourself?

Stress is good for us. Stress is a reaction to a threat. At the moment of danger, we can act quickly and save lives. The problem is that our environment generates stress, this stress is prolonged (eg, our work). When we go home after work, the source of stress is gone. But we do not know how to get back to our natural state. We cannot get rid of tension. We don't know how to do it. Often we are not even aware of this tension.

Motions do not damage our bodies. God gave us the body and emotions / feelings. We are not like robots. Negative feelings do not damage the body. We believe that we have no right to express our feelings/emotions (eg anger). We block, and lock them inside us. This causes the disease. We don't know how to express our feelings/emotions in a healthy way (not aggressive). Kindness, compassion, love heals. Even a smile ... just like yours. Heard about laughter therapy?
Definitely you should smile more often:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvWf6U_AbVE
And he is LOVE!
then he grows up, and:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRUGvArWXLk
:)
Love does not harm your body :) Go to the hospital. Meet with sick children. Play with them. See if you can go wrong: P The only thing that can happen is that you will experience the Big LOVE. If you think your heart is now open ...:) . The heart can always open more and more. There are no limits.
Go to a nursing home, talk with patients. Talk to someone who is terminally ill. Give him your attention. Smile (so beautiful as you can). You'll see how this "chemical reaction" work on them :) For them You are LOVE.
Without emotions we are nothing. I know many beautiful people. I also know people who are "dry". The world in which we live is not paradise. I do not know anyone who would have supported the war and abuse. People are struggling to survive. They work like slaves. They do what they do not like:/. Do not have time to save the world. And do not believe that they can make a difference. That is why We need a soul like yours. Wise, loving and in a beautiful package. There is passion in you :) and it's like a plague :P"

 
 
Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into thinking/believing that it’s not possible to know how people experience love, or that I do not know/see how love is experienced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that the fundamental design of love is the same for all human beings, because I want to justify and hold onto my idea of ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the design of ‘love’ is fundamentally the same design for every human being, yet with differences and variations within how one has ‘personalized’ their version of the definition of love that they will live as, in order to feel that one has come up with their own, unique version of love, to blind self from the fact that the fundamental design of ‘love’ is exactly the same, in order to not realize that ‘love’ as an experience is a pre-programmed pre-designed system, so that I may remain enslaved by/within my mind consciousness system, generating energy for its existence by/through participating in this design of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that participating in the design of love as an emotion/feeling experience generated within my mind consciousness system, that all I am doing is generating energy for the mind consciousness system to continue to exist, and thus I am living merely as a slave to the mind consciousness system as a human-battery that provide the fuel to continue its existence, instead of being here as life, living and experiencing myself as a physical being in physical reality which is real, and not simply an energetic experience generated within/by my mind that only takes place within my mind, and acts as a parasite to my living flesh using the resources of my human physical body to generate the emotions/feelings that we’ve defined as ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I have called ‘love’ is not actually love, as it is energetic feelings generated by/through my mind consciousness system at the cost of my human physical body, and thus what I have called ‘love’ is actually ‘evil’ as what I am doing is participating in and allowing my mind to eat away at my physical human body, which is innocent, and within participating in this energetic ‘love’, I am disregarding the physical and allowing it to be harmed, even though it has always unconditionally supported me within allowing and gifting me life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the physical is the example of real love, as real support in oneness and equality in the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that what I want/desire is not necessarily what’s best for me and reality as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe that because I want/desire something, then it must be a ‘good’ thing, and I shouldn’t question it, but should just allow myself to have it and try to fulfill my want/need/desire, within this not seeing that this indicates that I am actually enslaved and addicted to my desires, as I am not willing to look at my desire/want in self honesty to see what I am actually participating in and as, and whether it is actually beneficial to me and reality as a whole, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I do not fully understand/am fully aware of what I am participating in and what the consequences and outflows of that participation are, then I am not actually in control of myself, and that I am, in fact, mind-controlled, as I am allowing the mind as desires/wants/needs to drive me, where I am ‘blindly’ following my wants/needs/desires, and compromising myself disregarding the effects it has on the physical actual reality and allowing myself to harm and destroy the physical for the sake of desires, which do not even lead to actual satisfaction, but only to more desire, as the nature of desires/wants is to keep one forever ‘wanting’ for seeking ways to generate more energy for the mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to CON-Fuse fear as a response to an actual event in the physical which assists me in responding to an actual physical threat, with stress that I inflict on my human physical body through participation in feelings and emotions, in order to justify my participation in those feeling and emotions, at the expense of my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the stress that I experience as a reaction to my environment is due to me accepting my environment as stressful, as I’ve accepted a reality where life is not supported but is abused for the sake of fulfilling the desires of a few elite, and thus, as I in my own mind, participate in following my desires at the expense of my physical, so has the world system been manifested as the reflection of what I accept and allow myself to do/be done unto myself wherein to the world system I am simply a human battery that exist to give it life at the expense of my human physical body and the entire physical reality which is being depleted and devastated by/through the current economic system, wherein the majority of the earth’s population exists as wage-slaves to fuel the system, and do not have a dignified life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we do know what we need to do, which is to stop existing as our current accepted nature which accepts and allows the physical as ourselves, nature, the animals, to be disregarded and abused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the solution of self-change to change my world and my experience within it, within this not realizing/considering how I am actually responsible for how this world is manifested as the current abusive system, as a reflection of our abusive nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not even see how I am accepting and allowing myself and all life to be abused then I have not yet considered what actual ‘love’ is, or investigated to endure that the definition of ‘love’ that I am living, in fact applies to this reality, wherein I ensure that ‘love’ is an actuality in the physical, as all life being supported and no abuse being accepted and allowed to be done to any being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that the ‘love’ that is attributed  ‘god’ proves that love does not exist is actually evil, as if god existed he has not done anything to stop the abuse that is taking place and allows thousands of innocent children to die every day from preventable causes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify participating in emotions and feelings when I do not understand where they actually come from or how they are created and generated within my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that stress does not harm the body, when the evidence is all around me and within me, as I can feel the effect the stress has on my body, and how accumulated stress over time manifests as ‘aging’ wherein you can literally watch the human physical body deteriorate due to accumulated stress, so that I can continue participating in abusing the physical because I have become addicted to the energetic experience of feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that going to a hospital and meeting and playing with sick children, has nothing to do with energetic experiences that I experience within myself toward that situation, and that if I am experiencing energetic experiences within myself toward a situation/event/being, then I am not experiencing the actual situation/event/being, but am experiencing a feeling inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without emotions we are nothing, when in fact the opposite is the case, as when we are existing as an emotion or feeling, then that is what we become, experience, see, hear, and thus ‘miss out’ on actual reality, as what is going on in actual reality and the beings and forms in our reality we are interacting with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and accept that the world we live in is not a paradise, within this accepting and allowing the extensive abuse that is taking place within implying there is ‘nothing we can do about it’, this is ‘just the way it is’, the world is ‘just not a paradise’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have the time or am able to change the world, when I am actually one of the elite in this world that is supported within the current world system to have what I need, and thus I am actually in a better position than much of the world’s population that is in poverty and is literally ‘stuck’ within their position where every moment of their life is spent trying to survive.

I commit myself to considering what actual love would be, as ensuring that the world that we create does not allow beings to be harmed for the sake of the pursuit of desires as the mind.

I commit myself to realizing that who I am is not emotions and feelings, as when I am not experiencing them, I am still here.

I commit myself to become aware of when I use justification and excuse to accept things as they are, to not have to change myself, so I can remain within my accepted limitation, and thus I commit myself to stop participating in justifications and excuses that keep myself limited and allow the abuse to continue in this world.

I commit myself to realizing that this world is how we create it to be, and thus if it is not a paradise, then it is because we are not creating it to be so, and thus there is a solution which is to change ourselves and how we manifest and create this world, so that we manifest a world where life is enjoyed by all.

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Day 40: How I Sabotaged Myself: Relationships – Manipulating for Energy


Relationships as they currently exist are based in polarities, through which we take ourselves on roller-coaster rides of energetic experiences, that wreak havoc on our physical bodies, yet it’s this up-and-down, happy-then-sad cycles that we’ve become addicted to, and that we call ‘living’. Why did I accept the roller-coaster of love as a valid pursuit of my time? Why did I refuse to see that the negative comes with the positive and that you can’t have one without the other? Because I wanted to believe that I could somehow have those positive experiences without the negative, or that at least the positive would ‘outweigh’ the negative and that those ‘good moments’ would make it ‘all worthwhile’.

But those good moments weren’t really real moments, because what I was experiencing was an energetic feeling inside myself, not an actual experience in physical reality, and thus why such experiences as such feelings, never lasted, because they weren’t actually based in the physical, but merely chemical reactions induced inside my body, feeding off my body, to give me a rush just like a drug.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that feeling experiences are real experiences, not realizing that the feelings I was experiencing inside myself was not something actually taking place in reality, as an actual physical experience, but is only energy moving within me and feeding off my body like a parasite, to give me a ‘fake’ experience, distracting me from actual reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by spending my time and efforts to manipulate my world and the beings in it, in order to create certain energetic feeling experiences within myself, that I actually am wasting time and breath that could be spent being here in actual reality and learning how to live effectively and have effective relationships that are based on actual physical experience as what it really means to be in a relationship as a partnership as an agreement between oneself and another being living together practically, actually getting to know each other as who each other are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that when I am living within the focus of manipulating my relationships in order to generate these energetic experiences for myself, that I am actually not living here as simply myself as who I am, but my behaviors and mannerisms are all geared toward this goal of manipulation, and thus if within a relationship both partners are living this starting point, then neither being is getting to know each other as who they really are, as neither is living as who they really are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that this is where the feeling/experience of ‘losing oneself’ in a relationship, and feeling like you ‘can’t just be yourself’ comes from, as one has literally given oneself over to living as a system, living as the mind consciousness system that is designed to manipulate for energy, and thus one becomes more and more ‘trapped’ into specific behaviors in order to maintain the relationship as one is addicted to the energy that one ‘gets’ from being in the relationship.

I commit myself to realizing that energetic experiences are just that and aren’t actually taking place in physical reality, but only within oneself as a chemical reaction, and thus is not a real experience.

I commit myself investigate where I give focus to energetic experiences as if they are real, and to become aware of how and where I manipulate in order to generate energetic experiences within myself, that serve to only deplete my human physical body for the sake of a drug-like chemical reaction, so I can stop living for energy and live for real in the physical reality as a physical being.

I commit myself to no longer approach relationships  from the starting point of manipulating and seeking energetic experiences, so that I and have real relationships that are based on physical reality and on getting to know myself and another as who we really are, as physical beings here, not controlled and living for an addiction to energy that we call ‘love’.


Day 39 - Self-Forgiveness on the Design of ‘Love’


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the word ‘love’ as defined by/within relationships of separation, wherein I am separating myself from all other beings as me, into a relationship with only one other being, excluding and disregarding all the rest of existence, and entering into a relationship where I am now only focusing on the other being, wherein they as the relationship have become my entire world and the rest of the world I literally ‘shut-out’ where it becomes ‘us sticking together, no matter what is going on in the world’ where ‘the world can go to hell as long as we have each other’ and so on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the effect I have had on others in my world within uttering the word love, with all the programming and symbolism I have attached to that word, within ideas, pictures, words, memories, beliefs, feelings, emotions, thoughts, and to not realize that when speaking that word that everything I have attached to my definition of love resonates when I speak that word and activates ideas, pictures, words, memories,  beliefs, feelings, emotions, thoughts in the other beings I am speaking to, and thus supporting the mind consciousness system within activating it so it can create energy within the being to feed off of, as the mind consciousness system requires energy to continue to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that relationships served the function to support mind consciousness systems to exist because the mind consciousness system requires relationships from which to create friction in order to generate the energy it requires to survive, and it is ‘love’ is the word that is used to connect two beings together within relationship.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I am seeking and searching for ‘love’ because I, as a mind consciousness system, am looking for another being, as a mind consciousness system, to have a relationship with, because I, as a mind consciousness system, cannot exist without relationship. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that love as a system design that supports us to separate from the world and go into relationships is the primary design through which we accept and allow the abuse that takes place in the world to continue without caring even one iota of the suffering that is taking place to millions others, because within a relationship we have decided to care for this one other person only, and disregard all others, and thus love is the ultimate evil in this world.

I commit myself to consider what actual love would be and that it would not be hiding myself from and cutting myself off from the rest of the world and my responsibility as a participant in this world and world system.

I commit myself to take responsibility for how I have lived ‘love’, and expose the true nature of the design of love which is evil as it serve to distract one from the entire rest of this world and existence, and so diminishing self and all of existence, one and equal.

I commit myself to no longer participate in relationships as hiding from the world and diminishing self another within accepting each other as limited only to the relationship as the primary focus and entertainment of each other’s lives, but to redefine relationships in such a way that my relationships stand as what is best for all, within supporting each other to grow and expand and be an active self responsible participant in this world that actually has an impact that is a benefit to all life.

Day 33 - Who We Are Is LOVE or EVOL?



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who we are is ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider or really investigate what this phrase actually entail, but just believing it because it ‘sounds nice’ because of the positive charge I have attached to the word ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the belief that who we are is ‘love’ is just that – a belief – and not actually based on anything but on feelings and thoughts, where if I actually looked at what was going on within me when thinking that who we are is love, what I would see is that the belief has no actual substance to it and is just ‘what I would like to believe’ as it ‘sounds nice’, according to how we’ve defined love as the idea of what love is as being something that is ‘nice’ and ‘positive’ which is usually associated with positive energetic feelings we experience within our human physical bodies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I experience positive feelings only sometimes and have never been able to experience them all the time, and thus if sometimes that positive feeling does not exist, then how can I actually be it, since I am always here and it is not, thus obviously the positive feelings are only something I experience and are not who I am in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even though I realized that thinking that who we are is love isn’t actually true and doesn’t actually make sense, to suppress this realization and act like it is true within wanting to believe it, as if we are love as we are already, then that means I am fine the way I am and can stay the way I am, as I am apparently love already, and thus don’t have to do anything or lift a finger but can just continue as I always have, now just believing that ‘I am love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that by actually deciding to participate in such a belief that I am actively deciding to participate in delusion and thus-

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the self-abuse and self-harm I am doing within participating in deluding myself, not only to myself but to everyone and everything in existence, as I am within my words and actions perpetuating a lie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I am thus responsible for the existence of such a belief and deception to exist in the world within other beings as I have participated in the belief in ‘giving it life’ by living it as myself as ‘who I am’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the obvious fact that the current state of humanity shows beyond any doubt that who we are is certainly not 'love', as we are allowing such extensive abuse to take place.

I commit myself to sorting out where I have assigned polarities to words, and not allow myself to be directed by energetic feeling polarities, so that I can see things as they are and direct myself in my reality, not be directed by feelings that are just chemical reactions taking place within my human physical body, and are thus not who I really am.

I commit myself to become aware of the words I speak to ensure that the words I speak are not supporting and spreading delusion, but that what I speak is in the best interest of all life.

I commit myself to keeping myself grounded in actual reality and not participating in ‘nice sounding’ ideas in my mind, when I know there is no actual substance to such ideas, and that the only way one can believe in them is by not investigating such statements to see if it is actually true or relevant to reality and what is going on in this world and existence.

I commit myself to realizing that love as a feeling is useless in a physical reality where what’s done in the physical in the reality shared by all is what matters, and the fantasies in my mind do not matter as they do not take place in reality but are only illusions in my mind.

I commit myself to living love as physical action to manifest a world where all life is considered equally and supported equally and none are left out, as that you could call real love.

Day 31 - Love is Fear of the Chaos Within


For context listen to the interview Reptilians – Why Love is so Addictive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the most important relationship that exists is my relationship with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that having a relationship with another is the most important relationship that exists, not even considering my relationship with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to develop relationships toward other beings where I really felt like I could not live without that person or could not pull myself away from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the state of my relationship with myself is in a detrimental condition in serious need of attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the more I run away from myself, the more the desire for the experience of relationship with another grows and gets stronger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the more I chase after that experience of relationship driven by the energy of that desire, I am going to be let down, as it’s going to manifest the consequence of my relationships as a being, my mind and my physical, which are actually crying or attention, because instead of giving attention to those relationships with and as myself, I am avoiding and distracting myself from them within seeking and focusing on having a relationship with another. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in that desire for relationship with another I am actually externalizing my own desire for relationship with myself, where it is actually myself that is begging for attention from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that relationships cannot work as we’re currently approaching them with a chaotic mess of relationships in our minds that we haven’t yet sorted out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how can we actually have a functional relationship with another human being when we’ve got such chaos within ourself and our mind in which we have no control or directive principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret the energy that builds up for relationship with another as ‘love’. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it would be an absolute act of love to actually focus on my relationship with myself, as that is what I am actually wanting to give to myself, to really get to know myself and know everything about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my relationship with myself is actually what I would like to focus on  and that the lack of an effective and supportive relationship with myself is the cause of why I am experiencing desire for relationship with another, in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I have an actual real relationship with myself and my human physical body, that I will finally be satisfied and not feel like I need to find a relationship with another, and will be here as breath not moved and directed by energetic desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider what it would be like to live in equality and oneness with myself, where I’m not driven by energy into situations that I know manifest undesirable and unpleasant consequence that is abusive to the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider what it would be like to not live as chaos inside myself where I have no control or direction, and can just be here as myself stable as breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that masturbation can be used as support to assist and support myself to stop participation in those energies and give myself back to myself to no longer be moved by energies, out of my control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the easy way out of going into the addiction to the energy that I’ve allowed to move and drive me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I go into addictions it is out of fear, where I fear to direct myself and thus let the energy ‘take over’ where then I literally am ‘taken over’ by the energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get addicted to the feelings of what happen in my physical body when I participate in fear, as the adrenaline rush, and to interpret this feeling as ‘I’m alive!’ or ‘I am in love!’, when it is actually just fear that I am experiencing and putting stress on my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the rush I get from adrenaline that I interpreted as ‘being in love’ is actually wreaking havoc on my physical body, and obviously is not thus an act of ‘love’ toward my human physical body. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the experience of being in love as the excuse ‘I couldn’t help it, I was in love’ to excuse behaviors that I participated in or things I’ve done, when there actually is no excuse because I still made the decision to participate in and be ‘driven’ by the feelings I experienced within my physical that I interpreted as ‘being in love’ - I actually made the decision to do what I did and thus was actually aware of what I was doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that love is ‘heavenly’ when love as the rush I feel that I call ‘love’ that takes place within my physical body actually cause hell in my body.

I commit myself to utilizing moments where I experience the energy of desire for relationship with another as a cross-reference that shows me I am not paying enough attention to myself and my own mind and I’m not sorting out the relationships I’m existing as but allowing them to accumulate into an energy that compels and drives me to seek out relationship with another.

I commit myself to realize that if we all hide behind excuses of why we apparently don’t have to change, that nothing will ever change, and thus-

I commit myself to actually changing so that this world can actually change, as only when we stop the hell within ourselves, can we stop the hell without.

I commit myself to getting to know myself and sorting out the chaos that exists within myself and my mind and sorting out my relationship with myself so that I can be effective in relationships with other beings, and actually be ‘at peace’ with myself and not be moved and directed by energies as a virtual energetic puppet that has no self-direction.

I commit myself to realize the actuality of what it is to have a relationship with another being and understanding the impact that I have on another being’s life, to ensure that I do not harm another being by being careless and unaware of myself and how it is possible to harm another for their entire life just by the words I speak when I do not understand the consequence.