Showing posts with label suffering. Show all posts
Showing posts with label suffering. Show all posts
Day 173: Is it a New Year When Nothing Changes?
New Years or New Fears?
Because it’s really all about fear, the fear to change, because nothing ever does change, even though we celebrate a ‘new’ year. A new year full of the same old stuff.
But there's nothing New about the Fear we let hold us back one year after another, so that we never change anything and face the same problems we always have, only worse and one year deeper into the hole we're digging ourselves.
Take part in the Journey to Life to get over the fear of change to Change for Real, that will be something to Celebrate.
In the Journey to Life we’re deconstructing the patterns we’ve accepted as our reality through self forgiveness to reconstruct ourselves and reality through the commitment to correction to that which is best for all life.
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Heaven’s Journey to Life series of posts on our relationship to TIME:
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/untie-me-day-247.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/untie-me-part-two-day-248.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/time-characterpersonality-day-249.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/thought-and-tie-me-day-252.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/thought-and-tie-me-part-two-day-253.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/thought-and-tie-me-part-three-day-254.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/imagination-and-tie-me-day-256.html
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/imagination-and-tie-me-part-two-day-257.html
Day 135: Validation Character: Redefinition Dimension
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| Featured Artwork by Marlen Vargas Del Razo |
This
post is a continuation to:
Day
109: Waiting for Approval – I Need You To Like Me: Thought Dimension
Day 110: Waiting for Approval: Thought Dimension: Practical Application
Day 111: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension
Day 112: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension: Self Forgiveness
Day 110: Waiting for Approval: Thought Dimension: Practical Application
Day 111: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension
Day 112: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension: Self Forgiveness
In this post we’ll be walking the Redefinition Dimension, within which I’ll through writing, redefine who I am in my relationship with myself and my living within this world, to walk myself out of a character/personality and into real physical self-directed living.
For more context in what is being walked here, suggest to read the Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs that walk through this process of Character/Personality deconstruction and Self Redefinition in more detail which starts with this post Character Dimensions - Introduction: DAY 162
Redefinition Dimension: Writing:
I see, realize and understand that as the Waiting for Validation Character/Personality, that I have evolved this Character/Personality in my mind based on interacting with others in my world/reality, to never really be here when interacting with others, and so sabotage the relationships I form with others, to keep me from ever developing effective relationships with the beings that I exist with and interact with here. And that I have so accepted living as this character/personality that it ‘just happens’ like automatically, where when the situation of meeting/interacting with someone comes up, I just immediately go into this character, in wanting to avoid the interaction, wanting to do something else, fearing how the other will react/act toward me, and not just remaining here as myself, in breath, stable, and giving my attention and presence to the meeting/interaction before me.
Thus, how I am redefining my relationship toward meeting/interacting with others, is to no more accept and allow myself to go into the Validation Character/Personality, to no longer allow this character to activate when faced with meeting/interacting with someone in my world/reality, to rather utilize these moments as opportunities to be here and present within interacting with others and to establish my self-will, as within those moments moving myself to face the task before me, and by moving myself, not give the character any ‘space’ to even activate, as I stand as the directive principle of myself, and thus move myself in/as breath to follow through with the interaction.
Thus I will move and move myself to face the task within walking directly toward the person, without any hesitation, standing up straight and trusting myself to be here as myself while interacting with another.
So here I’ve laid out for myself how I’m going to practically change my living from the character/personality pattern, to what change I will walk and how I will walk it, in order to assist and support myself within actually changing in my living and in who I am in relationship to myself and what is here. To through this, take responsibility for the patterns I’ve existed as which are self-limiting, which in turn limit all of existence, as it’s each and every individual and how/what we live as, collectively as one, that creates this world and everything in it.
As it’s said in lyrics of the song ‘Ode to Our Children’: “We created the world from the choices we made. We’re creating the world from the choices we make.” (by the way, you can download that song for Free on Eqafe here.)
So since we’re creating the world through the choices that each and every one of us makes, the solution to change the world is to get to know ourselves as the choices we make in each and every moment, in our day to day lives. Like for example, the choice to accept and allow a character/personality to activate and to sabotage me from being effective here in reality, and taking care of my responsibilities. Like when we choose to put our ‘wants’ before our responsibilities, and manifest consequence for ourselves and thus for everyone and this entire existence. I mean, what we’re doing to nature and the animals, for example, is because we’ve placed our ‘wants’ before responsibilities, so that we’re focusing our time and attention firstly on consumerism entertainment, instead of first ensuring that we’re effectively caring for the nature and animals that without which we wouldn’t even be able to be here entertaining ourselves, as we require nature and the animals to survive.
And like we are allowing ourselves to put entertainment and consumerism before taking action to change our economic system to one that does not create inequality and suffering while supporting a small percent of the population, to one that actually supports all of humanity, in actually doing what it’s supposed to do as functioning as an actual life-support system that works to provide all beings with that which is needed to survive and thrive here.
Thus, why I have committed myself to walking this process of writing, self forgiveness and corrective application, and to walking the Desteni I Process, through which I am practically guided to get to know myself as the patterns I live as, in Detail, so that I can see exactly how I manifest consequence for myself in my immediate environment/relationships, and so to see, realize and understand how I also manifest consequence in the world at large and thus to live in awareness and take responsibility for what I’m manifesting to walk myself into practical change, to no longer live a life of accumulating consequence, and start living Solutions.
Day 93: I Can’t Afford It - Self Forgiveness
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make ‘not being able to afford something’ into a personal experience, wherein I’d experience anxiety at the thought of having to explain that I cannot afford something, instead of simply communicating the point that I cannot afford it, without any energy behind it, just as a simple statement of the facts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive that I’m doing/have done something wrong within not being able to pay, or that I have failed as a person to do what one is expected/supposed to do which is to earn a sufficient living within the system, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take it personally as a reflection on myself of my self worth/value/effectiveness as a human being in this reality, not realizing/seeing/understanding that the current system does not allow everyone to earn a sufficient living, and thus to blame myself as an individual is ignoring the fact that it is each individual collectively that has/is agreeing upon the current system to not effectively support everyone, and thus it is not to ‘get lost’ within taking it personal and creating and going into a personal experience about it, but to rather come to understand how it is I am responsible for accepting and allowing the current system to exist as it does, and to find and implement solutions, such as exposing the ineffectiveness of the current system and the consequences of accepting and allowing it, so that all can see the common sense in rather implementing a system which supports everyone, as the Equal Money System does, so that we can stop manifesting these consequences and life can actually be able to be enjoyed by all, with none left deliberately unsupported to suffer for the sake of a few to make a profit off of the rest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear/resist exposing what is actually going on within the world, within the system we’re currently accepting and allowing, as it’s been humanity giving in to that fear/resistance that has kept us from really facing what it is we’re actually busy allowing, and to then take action to change our reality to one that is actually beneficial to life, rather than destroying life for profit and greed toward the end of destroying ourselves and our entire home here as earth, the animals, nature.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only wait for some situation to arise where for example someone can’t afford the necessary healthcare, before I even consider or think about the suffering that’s going on in this world, because it’s not happening to me, and thus I can ignore it, and then when the situation is over, to go back to my life of comfort, making excuses in my mind as to why I need not concern myself with the plight of this world, as if the world is something separate from me, and not considering that I am actually responsible for the suffering taking place, as I am benefitting from the current system, while accepting the fact that it’s not supporting everyone, and thus it’s my responsibility to stand up and say this is unacceptable, within the realization that I would not want to be one of those who are suffering while others are living comfortably and accepting my suffering, when we could actually all be supported equally so that no suffering happens.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and resist creating ‘awkward’ situations, where reality is exposed, not realizing that that experience of awkwardness, is because we realize that we are actually responsible for the suffering that’s taking place while we do nothing about it, and thus why we feel suddenly anxious/nervous, because the truth of ourselves is being exposed and can no longer be denied, of what we’re allowing to take place in the world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a society in which we make it personal, where we act as though if you haven’t ‘made it’ and ‘found your own way’ in the system, that this is because you have failed as a person, deliberately ignoring the blatant fact that not all start in the same conditions, that what situation you are born into practically determines what kind of a life you will have or won’t have, in terms of how supported you’ll be and whether you’ll have a dignified life or not, and deliberately ignoring that all have an equal right to a dignified life, and thus we should have a system that reflect that, and gives all a dignified life, which would reflect that we are actually beings of integrity, respect and honor toward ourselves and each other as life.
Day 38 – Bad Teeth – Bad Luck
In my life I found myself on the side of
experiencing the consequences of our allowance of the current system which does
not effectively support everyone. There were many consequences due to this but in
this blog I will focus on one which is affecting me currently which is – bad
teeth. My teeth began to deteriorate pretty early on in my life. As a young
child I was able to get the healthcare I needed as my father had a job in the
military which provided healthcare to our family, and as most of your baby
teeth fall out anyway, it wasn’t necessary to get work done on them. However
when I got into my late teens, I was no longer covered by my father’s
healthcare provided through the military as he had retired, and this is when my
teeth really took a turn for the worse. I started to have intense toothaches that
became more and more severe where the pain would travel up into my head and
down into my neck and would be so debilitating that I couldn’t function at all
whatsoever and would lay in bed or on the floor, wherever I was it didn’t
matter because the pain was taking up all of my focus entirely, and all I could
do was writhe in pain. I was afraid that I was maybe going to die from whatever
was happening within my body, as I’d heard you can die from tooth infections. I
ended up going to the hospital emergency room, even though they could do
nothing but give me medication strong enough for the pain, so that I’d
hopefully be able to go back to work, so that I could continue earning enough
money to survive.
Ill health interferes with your ability to
make a living and when you’re already ‘living on the edge’ in terms of making
enough money to pay for your needs, your situation becomes even more dire, as
if you can’t work, you can’t make money and could even lose your job, and then
you’re sick and without a means to get money to live. It doesn’t make sense
that such a situation is even allowed to exist, as it’s obvious common sense
that no one would want to find themselves in such a situation. It doesn’t make
sense to put ourselves in situations where we’re faced with such dire extremes
of experiences and the impossibility to support ourselves out of it, while some
never experience such experiences as they’re supported from the get-go, and
while the vast majority suffers such experiences and more, all to feed the greed of those who would profit off of others' suffering. It’s simply
unacceptable.
These experiences around not being able to
get adequate dental care and the extensively painful and debilitating
experiences I went through had a hand in shaping myself as a personality toward
the system and my world and reality, where I took on a definition of a helpless victim, as I was a victim of the system as I literally found myself without a
choice to do that which those who have the option would obviously do, which is
to get the healthcare that one needs, so that one can live effectively and not
have to experience such extensive pain and suffering when a solution exists.
Unaware of it at the time I used these
events to create further experiences within myself within my mind consciousness
system, as how I interpreted these events and formed a relationship to/toward
these events, and so added consequence as feelings and emotions that I
participated in. I experienced things like a feeling of total and utter
frustration, anger and rage at knowing that the unbelievable pain I was going
through could have been easily prevented if I’d had access to proper care from
the get-go, and could have been easily stopped if I could have had proper care
in those moments of suffering. And knowing that there are others all around me
who are able to get that healthcare and that for some reason I am not, that
reason being because the system does not support all equally and they were in
more ‘fortune’-ate positions within the system where they have access to more
money and thus can afford the proper care. And I feared what long-term effects it
was having on my body not getting the healthcare it needed in time. It did not
make any sense to me to not be able to take care of one’s physical body, as the
physical body is what allows you to be here as a physical being in physical
reality to live and express, and thus you’d want to take the absolute best care
of your physical body, as it’s YOU.
So it’s through participating in those
thoughts, feelings and emotions that I added even more suffering to the actual
physical suffering that I experienced.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to accept a system which does not provide adequate healthcare to
everyone equally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to allow unnecessary suffering to go on that actual beings go
through on a day to day basis.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to allow a system which actually profits off of ill health, when
such system is meant to be the life support system through which we provide and
distribute our needs to ourselves, but instead we’re allowing it to feed off of
ourselves where the system is actually parasitic in nature rather than
supporting.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider those that suffer unless I am the one suffering,
as then I have no choice but to face what is going on in this reality as what
we’re accepting and allowing to exist as I am actually experiencing the
consequences first hand.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to require to experience the consequences first hand to even
consider what is going on in this world, where if I had not experienced the
consequences myself I may have continued in my personal bubble of existence not
considering or realizing the ineffectiveness of the system and the extensive
pain and suffering that takes place which is totally unnecessary and easily
preventable, but that within accepting the system the way it is, we allow the
suffering to take place and thus are actually responsible for the suffering of
others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that I am responsible for the preventable and
unnecessary suffering that goes on in the world because I am giving life to the
system which facilitates such abuse, and not standing up and taking action to
ensure that the system I am utilizing and allowing myself to benefit from is
not causing harm to others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that within accepting the current system, I am
accepting the suffering and abuse that takes place within the current system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that the consequences as the damage that is done
to beings by not having adequate access to one’s needs as the necessary food,
water, healthcare, etc., Is damage that shape and affect that beings life for
the entirety of their life and directly affect the quality of their life and
ability to live effectively. Thus -
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that by accepting and allowing the current
abusive system, that I am directly responsible for the irreversible harm that
is done to beings, forever changing their lives and limiting their ability to
live effectively in this world, and the suffering both mentally and physically
that come from this.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to add to my own suffering by participation in thoughts feelings
and emotions onto the physical suffering I was already experiencing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to, within my mind consciousness system, utilize the events that
happened to me, to create and fuel a definition of myself as a ‘victim’ wherein
I used my position in life to generate energetic experiences within myself,
adding further consequence to the consequence I was already experiencing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to accept a society that supports such relationships toward
those who are not able to find support within the system, that judges them as
‘less than’ while ignoring that fact that the system is not set up to actually
support everyone, and that it’s current design creates lack in order to create
demand in order to make profits off of those who can afford to pay the highest
prices, while neglecting those who cannot afford to pay at all.
I commit myself to not utilizing the events
and circumstances that I find myself in to create further suffering for myself
on top of what I am actually experiencing in physical reality.
I commit myself to realizing that we are
all responsible for the suffering that takes place, mental and physical, as we
have supported each other within the examples we have lived as, yet as an
individual I am able to take responsibility for what I experience inside myself
and not create experiences inside myself based on the examples of others in my
world and reality.
I commit myself to give myself and all, one
and equal, the gift of an economic system that actually functions effectively
as a life-support system ensuring that all get access to their needs, and that
no one is made to suffer that which can be corrected or prevented, and where we
do not support each other as mind consciousness systems to participate in
building relationships within ourselves toward what we experience creating
further unnecessary suffering, and where whether or not you're supported doesn't depend on the luck of what financial position you're born into, as no matter where you're born you're born into a position where you are supported.
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