Day 82: Commitment Statements on the “There’s Nothing Wrong with Eating Chocolate” Character

I commit myself to investigate myself and identify all the ways, positive and negative, in which I’ve formed and live a relationship toward chocolate, to stop living a relationship in separation of myself toward chocolate.

I commit myself to realizing that all experiences I experience within myself are my own creation, and to investigate myself and identify all the ways in which I have learned from childhood to create positive/negative experiences within myself toward something within the belief that it is that thing causing the experience within me, so that I can forgive myself of all such associations and apply the realization that I create what I experience within myself as thoughts/feelings/emotions, to stop creating such experiences within myself in separation of/from myself.

I commit myself to be/become aware of when I go into the “There’s Nothing Wrong with Eating Chocolate” character as a cover-up to avoid investigating myself and my own relationship toward chocolate, and thus I commit myself to stop participation in this character and to when it comes up, immediately investigate myself and what relationship I am living.

I commit myself to realize that when I fear to lose something, that it indicates that I have developed a relationship toward that thing in separation of/from myself, and thus that I require to investigate myself to identify and deconstruct what relationship I’m living as.

I commit myself to realize that even though it seems like the ‘desire’ is what I want, as that is the nature of desire, that it is not actually what is in my best interest, as it is enslaving myself to something within participating in a polarity based relationship toward it, which determines my behavior toward that thing and how I will interact with it and use it, and thus I won’t be using it in a way that is actually supportive to me as the physical, and thus will be using it in a way that is detrimental to my human physical body, and thus I commit myself to realize that when I participate in desires, I am harming myself and possibly others, and that when I am not operating from within a point of desire, that I am then able to operate from the starting point of what is practical as what is best for myself and all, equally as one, therefore within this realization I commit myself to stop participation in all desires.

I commit myself to living according to what is common sense practical in the moment, within the realization that that is what is best for me and everyone, and to stop participation in thoughts and backchat as deliberate separation from what is here which inevitably leads to consequence.

I commit myself to realize that there is never any valid reason to give in to backchat and to believe the internal conversations that take place within my mind, as I realize the consequence of doing so is to develop two separate lives, one in actual reality and one in my mind, which means that I am not fully here and that I am in fact living a lie which I tell to myself as the voice inside my head.

I commit myself to realizing that when I copy the behaviors of others, I am responsible for who and what I live as, regardless of how I learned it, as within that moment I made the choice within myself of who to be, and thus I realize that I cannot make the excuse that I copied it from someone else, to justify making the same choice within myself, as it is always me making that decision deliberately to decide who to be and how to live.

I commit myself to investigate myself and identify all characters I have created/developed and live as to see exactly how I deliberately formed them so that I can deconstruct each character and live as myself here as an actual being, not as a character that exists within my mind as backchat/thought/feeling/emotion reactions to what is here.

Day 78: Self Forgiveness for the “I Can Do It” Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and believe in the picture that comes up in my mind of me not being able to do something, and then as a response/reaction to this picture, to have created and go into the “I Can Do It” character, wherein I’m trying to convince myself that ‘I can do it’, which is only an illusion in my mind as it’s not based on actual reality that I have lived/am living as who I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the picture of me failing to do something is only a picture in my mind, and not actual reality, and thus when I believe in the picture I’m believing in an illusion, the consequence of which is that I then become an illusion as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that shaping myself as a picture in my mind, is not changing me as who I am in actual reality, and thus to participate and believe in the pictures I see in my mind, is a waste of time, as instead of taking action in the physical reality to actually change and expand myself, I am only busying myself with pictures in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in the moment the picture of me failing comes up, to instantly believe in it, and then to think that the only solution is by creating a character to superimpose on myself of that I ‘can do it’, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I was doing was attempting to ‘cover up’ the reality that I saw as the picture in my mind that I believed with yet another picture illusion, and thus I was staying completely within the realm of pictures, within the fantasy-land of the mind, and not actually here, never actually really dealing with myself as who I actually am and what I’m living as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in backchat in relation to the picture that came up within my mind of me failing to do something, which I used this internal conversation to convince and talk myself into going into the character of ‘I can do it’, using backchat such as ‘oh god, what if I can’t do this’, ‘that’s just not an option’, ‘I have to do this’, ‘I must not fail at this’, within this internal conversation giving myself no other option than to pretend that ‘I can do it’, instead of seeing/realizing that the picture and belief that I am going to fail isn’t real in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how this shows just how much we’re controlled by pictures within our mind, as we’ll completely allow ourselves to be directed by the pictures that come up, instantaneously believing in them as valid and real, and having complete reactionary experiences based off of them, completely removing ourself from reality, and so have we ever really been here if we’ve always been believing in and living according to the pictures in our mind?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by changing the picture that I see in my mind that I am actually somehow changing myself and how I experience myself, and within this not realizing that if we are living as the pictures in our minds, then we are living in ignorance of our actual effect on reality in what we’re actually creating in actual reality, as we’re only busy with the pictures in our mind.

  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must appear to be able to do something, within this not realizing that I am living within the fear of survival and am allowing this fear to control/direct my behavior, instead of me moving myself here, in common sense consideration of the current state of reality and what actions may be best to take in a given situation, where because I am living as a reaction to this fear, I am not free to take everything into consideration, as for the moment who I am becomes this fear and the associated reactions, and that is all I can think/say/do/act within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a positive reaction when I participate in the 'I can do it' character and then I succeed at what it is I am attempting to do, and then to take this as validation for participating in this character, because I have apparently succeeded due to living as this character, and not considering that it was the actions I took in the physical and how I applied myself in the physical that determined whether I succeeded or not, and not the character I was participating in, as the character isn't actually real, existing in substance, but is only an idea in mind, and within this, to ignore the times where I did not succeed when living as this character, so that I can believe that participating in this character is beneficial to me and continue to remain trapped  within predesigned, preprogrammed fictional characters.