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I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that I am actually accepting how ‘work’ currently
exists as where work has become something that is ‘forced’ by living as that
relationship to work within/as myself as how I approach/see/perceive work to
be, and thus not considering that it could be another way.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that the key to transforming how ‘work’ currently
exists is through transform my relationship to/toward work, as it is my
acceptance and allowance of the belief that I don’t want to ‘work’ as actually
doing things in this reality, that ensures that ‘work’ will remain forced, as I
have not stood up from within and as this relationship to show to myself that I
do not in fact require to be forced to actually move myself to do something in
this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that work exists as forced because I do not move
myself and I only move when there is the motivation that I've accepted and programmed myself to 'require' before I will move myself, such as force or reward,
according to how I have allowed myself to be programmed within beliefs of what
'I don’t want to do’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that this ‘not wanting to work’ actually supports
consumerism within where I will rather want to just buy things to try to get
out of doing labor myself, even though I still have to labor to make the money
to buy things.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is ‘not
wanting to work’, within this not realizing how I am actually compromising
myself within developing the habit as a physical resistance to moving myself
within this physical reality, where the more I participate in the thoughts and
beliefs that ‘I don’t want to work’ and that ‘I want to do as little effort as
possible’ the more resistance I build within myself within my physical where I
will actually feel/experience an actual physical resistance to moving myself,
where it will feel like my body doesn’t want to move, where my body will feel
tired and lethargic at the mere thought of doing something which I’ve defined
as ‘something I must/am forced to do’, and thus, within this literally
programming myself as my physical to have more and more difficulty moving and
doing anything that requires any effort, and thus when I encounter something
that I have defined as what I would like to do, I will find a difficulty even in
doing that, as I have programmed my physical to avoid labor and effort of any
sort.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to see ‘work’ as something I ‘must do’, and to live this belief
within acting/speaking in ways to avoid ‘work’, where I am actually trying to
avoid the experience I have programed myself to have, which is to have a
negative reaction to that which require effort, wherein I will feel tired and
lethargic and depressed and like I will ‘sink down’ within myself and my
physical will actually feel heavy and difficult to move, when if I have created
this reaction, then the solution is to obviously see/investigate exactly how I’ve
created this reaction so that I can assist and support myself to deprogram this
reaction, which will be me setting myself free from my own imposed limitations,
with the result that I’ll no longer experience resistance toward work/effort,
and thus will be able to move effectively in my world and actually expand
myself and my ability beyond what I’ve ever imagined.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to exist as a society where ‘what we do’ is not an equal and one
expression of who we are, and thus where what we do is in total separation from
the context of reality, where much of the work/labor that is done is done for
the sake of profit – for a few to make money – and not because it is an actual
expression of who we are as human beings in this physical reality, on this earth
with everything that is here as nature and the animals.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that I came into this world ready to learn and
express, but that I was immediately trained for how to work within the current system, which does not regard life or function in ways that is best for life,
and thus the belief that who I am is ‘not wanting to work’ is only a belief and
not actually who I am, as I had to learn to accept it as ‘who I am’ and had to
learn how to live it, within learning the behaviors/mannerisms/words one speaks
and acts out, within and as this character of ‘I hate work’ from the examples
around me, and thus it is simply a character suit that I’ve put on and live as
the actor in the play of ‘I hate work’ and thus is not who I actually am,
because I am able to take the suit off, as it is I that decide ‘who I am’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not realize that I must transform myself as my relationship
to work/labor to be/become actual self expression of myself within the context
of who I am as a physical being that is equal and one with the whole of
existence, and thus must investigate and get to know myself intimately to see
where/how I am living this character in my daily life, so that I can apply self
forgiveness and corrective application to actually change who I am in the
moment where I no longer live as the character of ‘I hate work’, but live here
as the Real Character which is the flesh as the physical human body that is
made of Substance.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider why am I
separated from 'work' in where I experience work as something I don’t want to
do and will find any reason to ‘get out of’ – where in the context of what’s
here that’s necessary to be done, what does it matter what it is that you’re
doing from a personal perspective. Because if you let the world and your life with
it go to shit because what was required to be done you just didn’t feel like
doing it, well how stupid is that?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that I can become one and equal to the job in standing up to take responsibility
for the point instead of remaining in the position of a victim to the system.
