Day 70: Corrective Statements on the ‘Fear of Failure’ Character

I commit myself to stop existing as the ‘Fear of Failure’ Character.

I commit myself to realizing that it is only a thought that triggers the character of ‘fear of failure’ that comes up so immediately I do not notice it, and thus I commit myself to when this character is activated, investigate myself and become aware of what thought triggered me to go into this character, to identify the thought so that I can recognize the thought and stop becoming and living as this character.

I commit myself to realizing that thoughts are not who I am, and that if I am controlled and directed by a thought, then I am not really here as myself, and thus I commit myself to not accepting myself as a thought, so that I can be here as myself as an actual being, and not just living as a thought that isn’t real.

I commit myself to realize that the thought of me failing does not actually exist, and that the only way I can ‘know’ that I am going to fail is if I am already creating it myself, as what hasn’t happened isn’t determined yet, and thus it is me accepting the thought of failure as real that makes it real, as I’ll then live according to and as that thought/belief.

I commit myself to realizing that I am in fact responsible for creating myself as failure when I believe/accept/live as the fear of failure, and thus it is my response ability to stop creating myself as failure by no longer accepting/participating in the character of ‘fear of failure’.

I commit myself to when and as I notice I am participating in backchat, to stop participating in the backchat as it is only reaffirming my acceptance of myself as failure, and is the literal process where I talk myself into manifesting myself as failure. 

I commit myself to when I see myself participate in the backchat of ‘what is the point if I’m just going to fail’, to realize that I am participating in a self belief of myself as failure as the fear of failure character which has been activated/triggered by a thought, and that the consequence of accepting and participating in this thought will be that I will manifest myself as failure, as if I give in to this backchat, the result will be that I will avoid doing that which I believe I am certainly going to fail, within this giving up possible opportunities to expand myself within applying myself in what I do, rather than sinply accepting myself as limited and ‘unable’, without actually walking a practical process to find out what I’m actually capable of.

I commit myself to when I see myself participate in the backchat ‘Man, I don’t want to go through that’, to stop, within the realization that I am busy convincing myself to accept myself as limited utilizing a picture of ‘what it is I’ll have to go through’ which is actually me projecting what is going to happen, which isn’t actually possible as it hasn’t happened yet,  and thus if I already know what is going to happen as how I am going to experience myself, it indicates that I am living as a repeating pattern of reactions as emotion/feeling experiences and thus am not really living here as life.  

I commit myself to when I see myself participate in the backchat ‘Why do I always fail’ to stop, within the realization that I am attempting to manipulate myself with my mind to believe that I ‘always fail’ in order to create an energetic experience within myself, wherein I become that energetic experience for the moment as it takes me over as a literal possession where it is all I see/think/feel/experience, distracting myself from being here and actually applying myself effectively within my world and reality.

I commit myself to become aware through the process of self investigation and getting to know myself, of how I accept and allow myself to be and live as a mind possessed zombie through actually believing in and accepting thoughts as valid and as who I am, so that I can stop living as a zombie to my own personal mind-control that I create for myself within accepting a thought as who I am when it is only a picture in my mind and not real.

I commit myself to no longer sabotage myself by accepting the thought of failure that trigger the character of ‘fear of failure’, to no longer accept my approach to myself and my life to be one of limitation wherein I create myself as failure through my participation in thoughts and backchat, so that I can change my approach to rather seeing how I can grow/develop/expand myself to be most effective and to walk in self trust and vulnerability to explore what I am actually capable of without sabotaging myself within thoughts as projections into the future that dictate who I am and will be, trapping myself in cycles of limitation and suppression, which is not way to live.

Thus, I commit myself to live a life that is real, where I am a real actual physical being here and not controlled and directed by thoughts in my mind that take me away from reality and living what is best for life, which is to be here as a participant that lives according to the principle of doing what is best for all life, in living the example of living a life without fear that I cause myself in my own mind which I allow to suppress and trap me within pictures and memories to not ever move and apply and expand myself here.  

Day 30 - The Self Trap of Judgment

For context listen to the interview LifeReview – The Victim of Judgment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as judgment instead of support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the harm that judgment cause, and how it keeps reality from changing, keeps us from changing ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear judgment, fearing that others will judge me as having done something wrong, which then might lead to punishment, as it’s apparently ‘too late’ for correction, as you have already ‘done something wrong’, and thus solutions are not considered, but how to make one ‘pay for what they’ve done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that nervous breakdowns can result from participation in and as the system of judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an entire internal reaction process take place within myself when I perceive myself as being judged by another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I perceive as another judging me, is because I am existing as judgment toward what that being is expressing to me, and thus it’s actually me judging me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no one else’s judgment that exists but the judgment within oneself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember that I actually had to learn to judge myself by following the examples of others in my world and reality way back in my childhood.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put pressure and stress on my physical body on my internal organs through the reactions that I have programmed into myself as how I react to perceiving another as judging me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the more you accumulate participation in stress, fear and judgment will actually lead to eventual organ failure and death as it becomes too much for the physical to handle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of investigating myself to turn to external measures as for example medications which have accumulated consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept external measures as a way of controlling and curing one’s internal reality, when nothing external to and separate from me can actually change who I am and the harm I am causing myself through the thoughts and internal conversations I accept and allow myself to participate in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am as the thoughts and internal conversations I participate in within myself has a direct consequence on my life in my world and in my human physical body, causing damage to the very organs of my human physical body and eventually leading to such an extreme as the failure of the organs of my human physical body, and even my death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted the physical experience that takes place when I participate in the fear of being judged and perceive myself as being judged, as the anxiety, tension, aching and discomfort that I actually feel within such moments, as the indication that I am causing stress and harm to my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted that what I am doing to my body through my participation in patterns of self judgment within my thoughts and back chat will not actually have an effect or that I am not actually causing that much harm, as I do not feel the extent of the consequences of repeated participation as it takes time for the consequence to accumulate and for a while I will feel fine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the obviousness of the effects of the accumulation of causing such harm to the human physical body as evidenced by those in my world who I have seen literally deteriorate before my eyes due to the stress they have put themselves through, and to not take this realization back to myself and apply myself within the common sense of stopping my participation in the thoughts and internal conversations through which I cause myself extensive harm and hasten myself toward death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don’t care if I am causing accumulating harm to my physical body as I am not experiencing the consequences yet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize the accumulation of consequence being spread out over time as justification to deny that any substantial harm is taking place, as the consequence has been placed into the ‘future’ and is apparently ‘not here now’ and thus I ignore the moments ‘here’ where I am actually bit-by-bit building and accumulating the consequence that will become my eventual reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I am existing as fear of judgment, then that is what I will see, and thus how/why I will interpret & perceive others to be judging me within the comments/viewpoints they are expressing to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of realizing the judgment is within myself, place the blame on the other as the one judging me, not realizing that I am the one that is participating within the thoughts and back chat of thinking things like ‘oh god, I have done something wrong’, ‘I haven’t done this right’, ‘I have failed/I’m a failure’, and experiencing the fear and anxiety within myself, and since another person is not able to actually get inside myself it is only me that creates and is thus responsible for what I experience within myself, how I perceive my world and reality and the relationship I have formed toward it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that judgment actually functions as a tool for enslavement as it keeps us focused on and looking toward the past as ‘what we’ve done wrong’ when we can’t do anything to change the past, rather than instead investigating oneself as the relationships one has formed to uncover to self where one has formed self-abusive relationships so self can correct one’s relationships, to not involve self-abuse, so one can actually really live and not be busy killing oneself in accepted patterns of fear and anxiety toward what is here in one’s world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss out on possible opportunities of support from other beings in my reality because I perceived them as ‘judging me’ and thus went into a mind reaction where I then could not consider or realize what they were actually saying and the context in which they were saying it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by programming myself to take things personally and not realize that this is a defense and enslavement mechanism of the mind to keep me limited within experiencing reactions and missing out on opportunities to expand myself and learn from others and develop effective relationships with those in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I go into a reaction of self-judgment, that I then only see my judgment and don’t even really see the being who is communicating to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that all judgment comes from comparison, comparing myself and what I do to others and what they do and how they do it to how I do it, etc. and that when I am spending time in comparison I am distracting myself and separating myself from my own self expression by comparing and judging, when I could rather learn from others ways of doing things that I had not considered, and thus expand myself and my abilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/think that it is even really possible to compare my expression to another, as all our expression is unique.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my world to create experiences of depression, fear and anxiety within myself, instead of being here stable as myself and allowing myself to really live and express here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I did not come into this world as judging and comparing myself to others, but that I learned this behavior from the examples around me, thus it’s not a ‘natural’ part of my expression but a learned/programmed behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is no purpose or reason for comparing my expression to another’s in judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I judge things I separate myself from them and miss out on an opportunity to see the relationship I have formed with those things so that I can see the nature of myself that requires direction.

I commit myself to investigating myself and the relationships I’ve formed to what is here, to see the nature of myself that requires direction.

I commit myself to stopping participation in the patterns that are harmful and self-abusive, so that I am not busy killing myself and can get busy living.

I commit myself to walking myself within my process to sort out my internal mind reality, so that I can see what is really in fact going on in my reality and see the actual context in which beings are saying things to me, that I missed because I was filtering everything through my mind’s perception, and thus not seeing reality for what it is, but only seeing a distorted version of reality.

 

I commit myself to whenever I have a reaction toward where I fear that they are judging me, to see, realize and understand that the reaction I am having is coming from within my own mind and my own judgments toward myself, so that I can take self responsibility for whatI’m creating within myself and correct the nature I’m existing as to not be of self-abuse and self-limitation.