Showing posts with label excuse. Show all posts
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Day 124: Validation Character: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 4)





This post is a continuation to:


In the last two posts we walked Self Forgiveness on the Physical/Behavior Dimension, and now in this post we’re continuing with Commitment Statements.

Negative Dimension Internal Changes Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when facing a moment of interacting/meeting another, to when and as I experience my internal physical condition changing, especially where my heart starts to palpitate, I feel nauseous in my gut, where my legs feel week and wobbly like the energy was ‘sucked out’ of them, my body becomes stiff and difficult to move, and my shoulders become tight, to see, realize and understand that I have already gone into self manipulating myself within Energy, and not remaining here as breath and stable in/as the physical and following through with the task before me.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I have already gone into the Personality to the point of possession, where I’m already manifesting a physical condition, to realize that it’s going to be ‘more difficult’ to stop participation, breathe, and follow through with the meeting/interaction, because I have accepted the mind as having power over me, and so created it to be more difficult to stand up from the experience in the moment by letting it get to such a point, where because I let it get to the point where the Personality has taken over to the extent of causing changes within/as my physical condition, the consequence of this is that I have made it harder to in that moment, stand up and change. 

Thus, within this, I commit myself to not accept/allow myself to give in to this experience of it being difficult, and to immediately take a breath, stabilize myself here, and follow through with the meeting/interaction, as I see, realize and understand that it’s in such moments where I am experiencing it as difficult to stand up and change, that it is easiest to manipulate myself into going for the positive and running away from the situation.

I commit myself to realizing that when and as I face the moment of making the decision to give in and go for the positive, at that point where the Personality has manifested to the extent where physical changes have manifested and it is ‘most difficult’ to stand up and ‘easiest’ to give in and go for the positive, that it may seem easier in that moment, but that if I continue to go for the positive over and over I am actually making it more and more difficult to eventually stand up, and simply creating and piling on more and more layers of resistance to meeting/interacting with others.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that in that moment where it is ‘difficult’ to stand up, that it is a pivotal point where in that moment I face the decision of walking as the commitment I’ve made to/with myself to actually really change or to give in/justify/excuse giving in to the temptation of the ‘positive’, and thus the important moment to stick with my commitment to myself as I realize that if in such moments if I give in/justify/excuse that ‘it’s easier to just not do it and so avoid the situation’ that no actual practical change in going to happen in reality.

We’ll go up to here in this post, and in the next post continue with the Commitment Statements for the Physical/Behavior Dimension of the Validation Character.
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Day 44 – How to Become Life


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For context listen to 2012: How to Become Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore that I have always seen what’s going on within myself within my mind and within this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and take action in this world within the excuse of ‘what’s the point’ or ‘what’s the use’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face what is really going on this world because I do not want to admit that things have gotten out of my control, and that will ‘hurt’ my pride/ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the state of uselessness and powerlessness, feeling like I am a victim and can’t do anything to change the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am within that state of uselessness/powerlessness that I am actually in a state of possession, wherein I am only that point of uselessness and powerless and become it, where that’s all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize if I am living within fear, that I am possessed by fear where fear is all that I’ll become, all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I live as fear, that I become spiteful and nasty, as the origin of spitefulness and nastiness is fear, and that when I act nasty and spiteful it is showing that I am actually accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I must actually walk the process of self realization and self honesty for myself in seeing for myself what I accept and allow to go on within me within my mind, as only I can see my thoughts and what I participate in within my mind.

I commit myself to realize that the excuse of ‘it is useless/I am powerless’ is just that - an excuse, to not stand up and change, and thus I commit myself to stand as an example that it is not ‘useless/’ and I am not ‘powerless’ by changing myself and my nature to such that will have an actual impact on this world and reality, by walking the process of taking back my ‘power’ that I have given away to the mind by participating in excuses and backchat such as ‘it is useless/I am powerless’.

I commit myself to realizing that it is me that actually create and am responsible for what I experience and what I exist as, by/through what I decide and accept and allow myself to participate in and become.

I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to be/become possessed by energetic mind reactions/experiences such as fear and uselessness/powerlessness, wherein I become that point and only that point as I allow it to literally ‘take me over’ and all that I see, hear, experience, will be of fear or of powerlessness.

I commit myself to being aware of the fact that I do see what goes on in my mind and what is going on in this reality, and within this, to directly face what is here within/as myself and this reality, to sort out that which does not stand as what is best for life.

I commit myself to realizing that avoiding/pretending I don’t see what is really going on within this world/myself in order to protect my ‘pride/ego’ is an act of abuse wherein I am allowing the world to be in a mess for the sake of protecting an idea of myself as ‘superior/good/right’, when that idea/image of me isn’t even real and only exists within my mind, and not in reality, because who I am is allowing this world to suffer, instead of taking practical action to ensure that this reality is actually as it should be and that I am living in such a way that I am not accepting and allowing suffering and abuse to exist in my world.

I commit myself to realizing that ego is based on deception and self delusion, as it is dependent on an image of self within the mind, where one in one’s mind try to make oneself look good, while one’s standing in actual reality, is manifesting a world full of abuse and suffering. Thus- 

I commit myself to stopping participation in/as ego, within the realization that it is not real and what I require to focus on is who I am in actual reality, as who and what I live as within my words and actions as the example that I set for all and what I accept and allow to exist in this reality, as it’s what I do and say in reality that determines my character, not an image that I create in my mind.