Day 20 - We are The Living Dead

For context watch part 1 of the documentary series The Living Dead & listen to the interview Life Review - the Strategic Soldier

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the stories of history have been manipulated by the winners in history to make the winners always seem right and good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the winner as good/right when there is nothing good/right about war/fighting/competition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the stories and mythologies of the past have been and are used to manipulate people based on memories and feelings to spur people to certain actions against one another, where based on something that is seen as positive as ‘pride for one’s country’ one will justify to maim and kill another from another country, even though we are all equal as humans on this earth and ‘country’ is should be just a location as that is what it actually is, not a reason to separate from each other and cause harm to another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like one ‘belongs to something special’ and thus is ‘special’, because of one’s past as one’s history, irrelevant to who one actually is here now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I could be made to feel ‘special’ based on memories and pictures, that this indicates that I was actually feeling inferior in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I am feeling inferior, that the solution is not in memories and feelings, as those are just experiences and mirages that have nothing to do with who I actually am in reality, and thus memories and feelings cannot make me ‘more’ than who I am here, but can only make me ‘feel’ that way, and thus I delude myself to reality, and to actually face and deal with the feelings of inferiority, which I cause within myself, by judging myself for not living to my fullest potential, instead of simply living to my fullest potential and expanding myself here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what goes on in war as the brutal killing of each other, shows that this is not a world of common sense or reason, as it simply does not make sense to be engaged in an activity where we actually are killing another human being, as when we see them lying there dead, we realize that they are the same as me, and I would not want to be killed and suffer that way, so why are we allowing this to exist?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see or realize that the messages and pictures shown to us in and around war times such as video footage has been constructed in such a way to make one’s own country look like ‘the good guy’ and the other country ‘the bad guy’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how we as individuals do this on a personal level wherein we’ll deliberately lie and manipulate information make ourselves look good in a situation and the other look bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the ‘enemy’ is always made to look bad in order to make one’s own country and what one’s own government/military is doing to not look as bad in comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘bury’ what has happened in the past in order that it can be forgotten, to try to pretend it never happened because I don’t want to face what I have become/have done, and in an attempt to protect my image, when actually the way to ensure that I have the best ‘image’ would be to not waste time trying to control an image of myself, and actually live what it is I want to be perceived as, and thus it wouldn't be an 'image' and I would not be a fake trying to present and live as an image, but a real being with integrity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that to stand for and support ‘my country’ means that I am not standing for and supporting the whole of humanity as one, and thus I am participating in separating ourselves into teams that are in competition with each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that human nature is what we accept and allow it to be and thus why/how we are actually able to program humans to enjoy violence and harm, and thus we are responsible for the abuse and harm in the world as we have accepted and allowed ourselves to program ourselves and to enjoy causing harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no winner in war, there is no right side, as the fact that war exists indicates that we are accepting allowing extensive abuse to take place and exist in the world which we all exist in, that any of us could find ourselves on the ‘losing side’ of, and thus to actually win, would mean that no war or abuse exists anywhere.

I commit myself to realizing that war is the result of not considering all ‘sides’ equally, as when one is left out, they must ‘fight for themself’, their ‘right’, their survival, thus, by not considering the other equal to ourself, we create conflict.

I commit myself to see and identify when I am participating in this behavior/mind set where when I ‘perceive’ a threat to my interest, where I feel that ‘I must look out for myself as my interest is not being considered here’ mindset, wherein I’m seeing the other person as only considering themself, and thus fear that I will be taken advantage of if I don’t ‘stand up and fight for my own interest’, and stopping participation. 

I commit myself to realizing that when we stick to practicality in doing what is best for all in any given situation, there is nothing to fear, nothing to defend, as when a decision requires to be made, you simply look at the situation and see what the best solution is for all, and implement that solution, and within this you are considered equally to everyone else, thus you will not be compromised nor will you compromise anyone.

Day 11 - War and the Soldier

For context listen to the interview: LifeReview - The strategic soldier

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as a reality and a world in which the manifestation of war exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that despite everything positive that is said about the human race, and that we’re evolving/have evolved, that the fact that war still rages on in this world as brutal and bloody as ever, is absolute proof that humanity has never actually changed, as we still allow the same abuses to manifest in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not even really consider what it’s like to actually be within a war situation, as what would my moment to moment experience be, what would be the realities I would face in my immediate world, and actually considering what it would be like to be within the experience of knowing that you could die at any second.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into situations where survival is literally all you can focus on and takes over your mind completely, where you are literally only existing as that one point of survival, as you don’t have a single moment to consider anything else, or that moment of inattention could mean you or your fellow soldiers’ deaths.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that people are practically ‘forced’ into war from the perspective of not having a better option to support themselves and families because there is no better way to support themself in the current system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allowing the point of survival to be abused and manipulated to get people to participate in wars, where the participation in wars becomes justified by the need to survive and do whatever it takes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if there was a better option – if everyone were effectively supported within an economic system that does not take advantage of our physical needs, that practically no one would go to war, as there would not be the fear for and attempt to guarantee their survival to drive them to such extreme as participating in war, where they face even the possible death of themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the propaganda that is spread in order to create separation and resentment toward each other in order to provide justification to kill and harm each other, so that I’ll see others as my enemies that want to do me harm and I must defend myself and my country from them, not considering that those others are in the same position as me, and that I within accepting the propaganda I have actually become the one that wants to harm the other, thus I have become the 'enemy' myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that war is a game for the elite, a few rich guys at the top, where thousands suffer excruciating and unnecessary torment and death, all for a few elite men to feel powerful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in rooting for ‘my country’, encouraging and supporting war and conflict, and glorifying the idea of a ‘soldier’ as something great, noble, patriotic, when the actual reality is people being placed/placing themselves  into positions that are practically beyond the mind’s ability to even handle properly as what one faces in war situations is so traumatic and ‘out of this world’ in terms of the life and death scenarios that one finds themselves within.

I commit myself to changing myself so that I no longer live in support of war within who and what I live as, and ensure that the words I speak and the behaviors I participate in are aligned with the principle of what is best for all, so that I am in no way encouraging or justifying war, fighting, or separation to exist.

I commit myself to investigating myself to see how and where I participate in seeing/treating/acting toward others as ‘my enemy’, where I will go into a defensive mode where all I am considering is ‘my survival’ where I actually become ‘an enemy’ myself because I am now only considering myself and ready to do whatever it takes to ‘defend’ myself even if it means harming another.

I commit myself to speak up about the actuality of war and not allow it to be glorified and the actual nature and reality of it denied, as such deliberate ignorance is what support war to continue to exist and beings to continue to suffer as a result.

I commit myself to show that war is unnecessary and is created through our combined acceptance and allowance of participating in patterns of defense/attack toward ourselves and each other, where we allow ourselves to separate from each other within our minds in our thoughts, and to participate in backchat toward ‘our enemies’ wherein we’re literally creating the relationship within ourself toward another of being ‘at war’ with them.

I commit myself to show that walking within the principle of always considering what is best for all – equally – and not leaving any being out of consideration, is what will manifest a world that is best for all life and free of war.  

To read some more perspectives on how we as humanity have existed as Soldiers in our MIND - Day 27: Money is the Soldiers of the Mind