Showing posts with label Interaction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Interaction. Show all posts

Day 124: Validation Character: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 4)





This post is a continuation to:


In the last two posts we walked Self Forgiveness on the Physical/Behavior Dimension, and now in this post we’re continuing with Commitment Statements.

Negative Dimension Internal Changes Self Commitments:
I commit myself to when facing a moment of interacting/meeting another, to when and as I experience my internal physical condition changing, especially where my heart starts to palpitate, I feel nauseous in my gut, where my legs feel week and wobbly like the energy was ‘sucked out’ of them, my body becomes stiff and difficult to move, and my shoulders become tight, to see, realize and understand that I have already gone into self manipulating myself within Energy, and not remaining here as breath and stable in/as the physical and following through with the task before me.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I have already gone into the Personality to the point of possession, where I’m already manifesting a physical condition, to realize that it’s going to be ‘more difficult’ to stop participation, breathe, and follow through with the meeting/interaction, because I have accepted the mind as having power over me, and so created it to be more difficult to stand up from the experience in the moment by letting it get to such a point, where because I let it get to the point where the Personality has taken over to the extent of causing changes within/as my physical condition, the consequence of this is that I have made it harder to in that moment, stand up and change. 

Thus, within this, I commit myself to not accept/allow myself to give in to this experience of it being difficult, and to immediately take a breath, stabilize myself here, and follow through with the meeting/interaction, as I see, realize and understand that it’s in such moments where I am experiencing it as difficult to stand up and change, that it is easiest to manipulate myself into going for the positive and running away from the situation.

I commit myself to realizing that when and as I face the moment of making the decision to give in and go for the positive, at that point where the Personality has manifested to the extent where physical changes have manifested and it is ‘most difficult’ to stand up and ‘easiest’ to give in and go for the positive, that it may seem easier in that moment, but that if I continue to go for the positive over and over I am actually making it more and more difficult to eventually stand up, and simply creating and piling on more and more layers of resistance to meeting/interacting with others.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that in that moment where it is ‘difficult’ to stand up, that it is a pivotal point where in that moment I face the decision of walking as the commitment I’ve made to/with myself to actually really change or to give in/justify/excuse giving in to the temptation of the ‘positive’, and thus the important moment to stick with my commitment to myself as I realize that if in such moments if I give in/justify/excuse that ‘it’s easier to just not do it and so avoid the situation’ that no actual practical change in going to happen in reality.

We’ll go up to here in this post, and in the next post continue with the Commitment Statements for the Physical/Behavior Dimension of the Validation Character.
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Day 111: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension


So, I’m continuing to deconstruct the character of Waiting for Validation, and now I’m going to look at the imagination Dimension. So, what I notice is, when I am about to meet/interact with someone, I’ll go into my imagination about how the meeting/interaction might go, and I’ll either go into a positive/hopeful imagination, or a negative/fearful imagination . In the positive imagination, I’d imagine that the person is going to like me, and we’ll have a good/pleasant/positive interaction, and I will experience myself comfortably and at ease. In the negative imagination, I’ll imagine that the person will not like me, and will react ‘negatively’ toward me, and that the interaction will not go well, with the other person perhaps being ‘mean’ to me, or being uncomfortable with me.

When I imagine them as reacting to me negatively, then I experience the ‘Force’ within me as resistance where I don’t want to face this interaction, then I might start to imagine avoiding the interaction altogether where I’ll imagine finding some excuse/reason to not have to go through with the interaction and will imagine myself as feeling relieved and experiencing myself positively for no longer having to go through with the interaction.

When I imagine them as reacting to me positively, then I form an expectation and hope in my mind where I set myself up to have my expectations ‘crushed’, which will further feed the resistance to interacting with/meeting others. Where the more I give in to and feed this resistance, the stronger the ‘Force’ gets and the harder it is to continue, and the more I feel like I want to give up. 

So, the mind utilize both these positive and negative imagination points to control my behavior, in this case to convince me to essentially give up on myself interacting with others, by utilizing energetic experiences as a ‘Force’ from within that will steer me away from doing that which will expand me into/as my world, such as effectively interacting with people, and thus being effective at my job, and to keep me from the opportunity to get to know the other beings here in my world, and from being here as myself without reactions/thoughts/emotions/feelings/backchat/imaginations distracting me from what is here.

In the next post, we’ll walk the Self Forgiveness and Commitment Statements for the Imagination Dimension of the Waiting for Validation Character.
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