Humanity's Journey to Life: negativity

In this post, we’re continuing with Self Commitment Statements in relation to the Physical/Behavior Dimensions of the Validation Character. For further context also read from the Heaven’s Journey to Life blog:

The MOMENT of CHANGE: DAY 179

Physical Communication – The Basics: DAY 180

Walking through WALLS: DAY 181

Positive Dimension Internal Changes Self Commitments:
I commit myself to ‘flag point’ moments in which I notice myself physically/mentally feeling better about doing something else in my Imagination, Backchat and Reactions, that is now making my body feel the opposite as it did just a moment ago. Where for example, it goes from my legs feeling weak, my heart palpitating, my body stiff and hard to move, a tightness in my shoulders, and nausea, to then suddenly feeling relieved, and my body feeling light and energetic. To within this, when and as I see this taking place, to question how it is that I can go from one moment being stable here as myself, then in the next moment go into such extremes of feeling one way as ‘negative’ and to then suddenly experiencing myself ‘positively’, that is going to lead me into not staying here and fulfilling the task before me and into temptation to do something else/avoid the situation.

Thus, I commit myself to assist and support myself to see, realize and understand that I am in that moment facing a responsibility to do something which will influence/effect my world and my future, and thus what I’m actually doing within accepting and allowing myself to manipulate the experience of my physical body to manipulate myself to follow the positive and avoid the situation at hand, is essentially making myself feel good about not doing that which is before me to do which would expand myself and my world, rather making myself feel good about accepting limitation.

Therefore, I commit myself to through writing, self forgiveness, and commitment statements, walk myself out of these positive/negative energy games I play within my mind, within a relationship toward the physical, and so establish myself as the living word by living as expression within actually moving and directing myself here, where I actually move myself to follow through with the task at hand, and so become the living directive principle of/as myself and no longer becoming possessed within a character/personality where I allow myself to be directed by/within positive/negative energy-experiences.

Negative Dimension External Changes Self Commitments:
I commit myself to establish real communication with/as my physical body, to see what it is my physical is in fact showing me that I am participating in/living as, through the physical conditions that manifest as a result of my participation in the mind, in giving power to the mind and giving myself up to the mind, as the Imagination, Backchat and Reactions and Energetic-Experiences. For example where I experience the physical conditions where my body slouches/shoulders droop and I start shifting from one foot to the other, to see that my shoulders drooping indicate I’m putting a strain on myself as I was doing within my mind, by going into and participating in a negative reaction/experience toward/within the moment as ‘hopelessness’, and how me shifting from foot to foot, indicates how I was participating in my mind as ‘anxiety’.

In the following post, we’ll continue with Self Commitments Statements for the Negative and Positive Dimension External Changes.

Day 122: Validation Character: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 2)

This post is a continuation to:

Day 108: Waiting to Value Myself

Day 113: Validation Character: Imagination Dimension: Commitment Statements

Day 114: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension

Day 115: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension: Self Forgiveness

Day 116: Validation Character: Backchat Dimension: Self Commitment Statements

Day 117: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 1)

Day 118: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 2)

Day 119: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 3)

Day 120: Validation Character: Reaction Dimension (Part 4)

Day 121: Validation Character: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 1)

Here in this post I’m continuing from where we left off in the previous post, with writing out Self Forgiveness in relation to the Physical/Behaviour Dimension that is activated within this Character/Personality.

Negative Dimensions Internal Changes Self Forgiveness:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a relationship with my Physical body within and as Dimensions of thought, imagination, backchat and reactions within the energy of anxiety and hopelessness, where I’ve manifested the physical reactions of my heart palpitating, nausea in my gut, feeling like the energy has been ‘sucked out’ of my legs, my body becoming stiff and difficult to move, and my shoulders becoming tight, through separating myself from myself into the dimensions of the mind and allowing myself to be controlled by energy of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am actually altering, changing and manipulating myself in/as my physical body, from its natural state as stability here, through the dimensions of the mind as energy within a Personality system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this entire play-out of manipulating myself as my physical through energy-experiences of the mind is actually ‘normal’, as the ‘normal’ way to experience oneself and to exist as, and not considering that this means my reality is dependent on the experience that I’m creating myself within my mind through the dimensions of thought, imagination, backchat and reactions, and that within this, means that I am defining myself as an Experience within the physical. Never in fact considering what I’m actually doing to my physical body by manipulating how I’m experiencing myself within it, as energy through the dimensions of a Personality for my own self interest, never questioning or investigating what is actually happening/being done to the physical as I am busy preoccupied within/by the energies of the Personality I am possessed within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have so separated myself from the physical that even though in the moment I can actually see the changes that occur in my physical body, to use the physical reactions/conditions that I’ve created within me through my participation in/as thought, imagination, backchat and reactions as justification for following the positive within my mind, instead of actually questioning ‘why is my body changing like this, when I was fine/stable a moment before? What am I doing/how am I accepting and allowing this change to take place?’ Because it’s only me here, within/as my physical, so the change must be coming from me. Where instead what I’ve done is create a relationship with my mind, through that manipulate the physical, to then use the physical conditions which I created as excuse/justification to manipulate myself to seek out what my mind has shown me as ‘positive’ rather than applying myself here within physical reality in interacting with others and expanding myself into/as this world and developing effective relationships with other beings in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body to such an extent that I didn’t see, realize and understand in that moment where my heart started to palpitate, I felt nauseous in my gut, felt like the energy was ‘sucked out’ of my legs, my body became stiff and difficult to move, and my shoulders became tight, was related/connected to my participation in/as the mind as thoughts, imagination, backchat and reactions with the energy resonance of anxiety and hopelessness, that was actually manipulating my state of being in/as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider what my physical was actually going through within the discomfort and pain caused by manipulating the physical through the energy of the mind, and to not consider/investigate what the consequences have been through my participation in/as this relationship with/toward my physical body and accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my physical and manipulate it through mind energies.

We’ll go up to here for now and in the next post, continue with the Self Forgiveness in relation to the Physical/Behaviour Dimension of the Validation Character/Personality.

Day 89: The “I’m So Disappointed” Character

You know that feeling/experience of disappointment, like ‘ugh’, when something doesn’t go as you’d hoped/expected. And your shoulders sink down, and you become all ‘mopey’ and ‘sullen’, where your face kind of droops and you slouch, and you suddenly feel tired, and frustrated, like you’ve lost something that you had expected you were going to get, or that you had really wanted, or been looking forward to. Yes, that’s the Disappointment Character.

Activated by a single thought, where you picture how things ‘should’ have gone, or you wanted them to go, according to your hopes/expectations, and where you see that as ‘positive’, and then you compare that to what has actually transpired in reality, which is not what you’d expected, and so that becomes ‘negative’ and from these negative/positive associations, we determine how we’re going to feel inside, as negative or positive. In the case of the Disappointment Character, you have decided to feel negative about what has happened/taken place in reality. And this was done by comparing reality, to a picture in your mind.

So from one picture, flashing in your mind, has suddenly determined your entire experience of yourself, and has initiated a complete ‘take-over’, as you literally become this character of Disappointment, in its entirety, where now every thought/feeling/emotion/action you take/words you speak, is from within/as this ‘character of Disappointment’. So, in the moment that the picture flashed in our mind of what we would have liked/expected to happen and we saw ourselves experiencing ourself positively within that picture, and then we compared that picture to reality and since reality wasn’t as we’d wanted/expected, we decided that we must experience ourself negatively then, as now we’re ‘missing out’ on the positive experience we ‘would’ve had’, if things had gone how we’d wanted/expected.

As the disappointment character, we become/experience feeling depressed and withdraw from the world/our reality, withdraw our participation, as we sink into the experience of this character, as if now we want to avoid reality and the negative experience ‘it’s causing’ within us, yet not realizing that we’re actually the one creating the negative experience within ourself. When faced with a reality that didn’t meet our expectations, it’s like we go into a reaction of ‘I didn’t get what I want’, which was to experience ourself positively, and then go into the reaction of feeling down and depressed, and since we’re actually the one creating/accepting/allowing/giving permission to this experience of negativity within ourself, we’re actually the one that’s manifesting exactly what it is we didn’t want – a negative experience.

Within this character, one will participate in various backchat, like ‘I really wanted such-n-such’ / ‘I was really hoping for this/that’ / ‘this is such a let-down’ / ‘I’m so disappointed’ / ‘why did things have to happen this way?’ / ‘why couldn’t things have gone how I wanted?’ / ‘if only things could have gone like this/that’, where through these internal backchat conversations, we’re literally talking ourself into the experience of/relating to this character.

Thus participating in the character of Disappointment is actually deliberate self manipulation, where we inflict such an experience on ourselves, while disregarding the consequences to our physical, and to our very lives, as we’re literally programming ourselves with habits/behaviors of self limitation, programming it into the very physical as who we are, and how we’ll experience ourself over and over again, any time we’re faced with the situation where reality hasn’t gone according to our wants/desires/expectations. Thus, all we’re doing is developing reactions with ourself towards such scenario, which is in no way practical or assisting us in living our lives in a beneficial way. In the post to come, I’ll continue with the deconstruction of this character through walking Self Forgiveness on the Disappointment Character.

We can actually use this disappointment character to assist and support ourselves to see exactly where/to what we’ve ‘given permission’ to things/situations/events outside of ourself to determine how we’ll experience ourself, and thus through self forgiveness and practical application, assist and support ourselves by to no longer participate in the character of Disappointment, by looking at what was it that we wanted/were expecting that we thought would make ourself experience ourself positively, to see where we’ve separated ourself from ourself, in where we’ve allowed certain events/situations to determine how we’re going to experience ourself, instead of standing stable within ourself, constant as who we are, able/free to express ourself as who we really are in any moment, in any situation/event. So through one’s process of deconstructing this character, you can take back your self direction to no longer be controlled/directed by what happens/what doesn’t happen in your reality. More to come in the post to follow..

Day 26 - The Negative Effect of Positivity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that ‘being positive’ will improve my life, not considering that ‘being positive’ is only putting on an act by saying certain things in certain tonalities that I have defined as ‘positive’, and not actually taking any real relevant action to change myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘thinking positive’ will improve my life, not considering that within ‘thinking positive’ I am actually trying to ignore and suppress any ‘negative’ thoughts I have and cover them up with ‘positive’ thoughts, as I have not walked the practical process required to actually stop the thoughts that come up within my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only experience positive feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that no matter how hard I try to stay positive, I have never been able to maintain my positivity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I experience ‘lows’/lack of energy, it is because I have tapped-out my body’s ability to produce good-feeling chemicals by participating in feelings of ‘positivity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by trying to avoid negativity and only see/experience/think positivity, that I am still participating in the same system which creates and supports negativity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to ‘be positive’ requires that I have adequate food, shelter, water, healthcare, and all that is required to live functionally here as a physical being, otherwise my experience of myself will be of suffering due to a lack of what my physical requires, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that to even entertain the notion that I can experience only positivity means that I also must have all my needs met sufficiently, which 2/3 of the world’s population don’t, thus I am not even considering everyone here within suggesting that one can have a positive experience by simply changing the way one thinks and acts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I’ll create a better world by ‘being positive’, and not considering that I am not actually doing anything to make real change in the world or myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think if I ‘focus on ‘good’ things’ this will improve my world and my relationships, not considering that if I am only ‘focusing on ‘good’ things’, that I am ignoring that which I’ve defined as ‘not good/bad/negative’, and thus how can I expect that those aspects of my life/the world will change if I am not actually investigating them, finding the cause, and taking action to change them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that positivity can exist without negativity, not realizing that one cannot exist without the other, as one side of the polarity depends on the other to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe if I just look at the ‘positive side’ of things that this will actually change myself for the better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by seeing things in a ‘positive light’ is actually deluding myself, as I am convincing myself to view it in a certain way, and have certain thoughts about it, and not simply seeing things as they actually are.

What happens when we are positive about something? Basically, we try to see it as a ‘good’ thing, in disregard of what it actually is, which is not negative or positive, because those are only value judgments that are applied onto the thing/event/situation that is being evaluated, thus the thing itself is not positive or negative, but it is a value we assign place on top of the actual thing.

By assigning a positive or negative value to something, what we’re doing is setting ourselves up for what kind of reaction we’ll have to it – if we have assigned a positive value, we’ll experience a positive reaction, if we’ve assigned it a negative value, we have a negative reaction. The positive reaction and negative reaction are experienced as feelings and emotions within the human physical body. These feelings/emotions are activated by the mind consciousness system which activates chemical changes that take place in the body, based on the cues it has been given, by the being’s participation in a positive or negative reaction to something. Thus, by allowing these positive/negative reactions to be triggered, one is manipulating the chemical system of their own body to produce the feeling or emotion. This utilize the substance of the human physical body, which the body must then try to find a way to replenish itself.

So this participation in positive and negative reactions to things actually drains the physical and puts it into a survival mode, where it’s busy coping the best it can throughout your whole life, within the literal up and down rollercoaster ride we are putting it through, as positivity/negativity puppets that react to things according to the pre-coded values assigned to them, and the body deteriorates due to such lifelong abuse until it cannot take anymore.

Now let’s look at the concept of ‘being positive’ and avoiding ‘negativity’. The concept seeks to change one’s inner experience to one of constant positivity by attempting to only have positive feeling experiences inside oneself. How this works is by trying to assign a positive value to everything. Where one ‘try to see everything in a positive light’. However, what’s not realized, is that since negative reactions are experienced as a result of having assigned a value to something as negative which triggers a negative chemical reaction within the body, in order to not experience a negative chemical reaction, you would have to deconstruct all your value definitions of where and to what you have assigned a negative value, which you have created and programmed over your whole lifetime, thus will take years of processing by actually investigating and walking your entire mind system, layer by layer, to uncover and deconstruct each and every definition of polarity you are living as, and then no longer live as it. Thus it’s a practical process that one must walk constantly and consistently. To see how this done check the Desteni I Process.

Now, the system of negativity/positivity is a polarity system, and what that means is it has two sides that cannot exist without each other. How this works, within the human physical body for example, is the more positive reactions one participates, the more of a drain there is on the physical human body, and eventually the body will not be able to produce anymore of the good feeling chemicals, and will need to recharge, which will be experienced as going into a ‘slump’, or feeling ‘depressed’ – thus you can’t have the positive feeling experiences without also creating negative feeling experiences. Within the design itself, when you assign a positive value to something, you also create a negative value, and vice versa. For example, if you decide small noses are ‘beautiful’, which is a positive value assignment, and that large noses are thus ‘not as beautiful’ – thus, the moment you define a certain form of something here in reality as ‘more’ and define the other forms as ‘less’, you’ve created a polarity. Thus, you will have a positive feeling experience toward the thing you have defined as ‘beautiful’/positive, and a negative reaction toward the opposite manifestation.

Thus it’s actually not possible to have only positive or only negative definitions and feeling experiences. So, in order to stop oneself from having negative reactions to things in your world, require that you stop participation in both positivity and negativity.

So, in the understanding of how the system of positivity and negativity works within the human physical body, you can see that trying to stick to having positive feeling reactions only, is going to put an exceptional load of stress on one’s physical body and produce all sorts of side effects as the body tries to cope, and of course one will not be able to only have positive feeling experiences all the time, as the body can only produce so much good feeling chemical for so long. And in order to stop having negative experiences, one has to identify and delete both the negative and positive preprogramming.

I commit myself to deconstructing the polarity system within me that I have been existing as, as negativity and positivity, through walking a daily process of self investigation to identify when/where I accept and allow myself to participate in the polarity of positivity/negativity, so that I can stop and free myself from preprogrammed reactions, so that I can live here constant and stable as myself, see things as they are, and not cause unnecessary harm to my physical body.