Day 155: I Don’t Want to Do This: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 5)

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This post is a continuation to:

Now we’ll continue from where we left off in the last post, with the Self Commitment Statements on the Physical/Behavior Dimensions.

Positive Dimensions Internal Changes Self Commitment Statements (continued):
I commit myself to assist and support myself to see, realize and understand that in that moment of facing a responsibility that if carried out will affect my world and future, that I am by accepting and allowing myself to in that moment manipulate my physical body in order to manipulate myself to follow the positive, actually making myself ‘feel good’ about avoiding my responsibility, and thus essentially making myself ‘feel good’ about sabotaging myself and my world/future and accepting self limitation.

And thus, I commit myself to establish myself here as the living word by through the application of writing, self forgiveness, and commitments statements to walk myself out of these positive/negative manipulation games that I play with myself, so that I can live as expression within moving and directing myself here to actually follow through with the task before me, so that I am the living directive principle of myself, no longer subjecting myself to self-manipulation through positive/negative energy experiences.

Negative & Positive Dimensions External Changes Self Commitment Statements:
I commit myself to I commit myself to developing effective communication with/as my physical to see what my physical is in fact showing me that I am participating in, through the physical conditions that I manifest in my physical as a result of my participation in the mind, as the result of giving power to the mind as Thought, Imagination, Backchat, Reactions and Energy-Experiences. Particularly where I experience the physical conditions of where I slouched down and sat further back in my chair to see that I have become the physical manifestation of the ‘depression’ I was participating in, and where I became very stiff where my movements were like ‘jagged’ to see that I was manifesting this behaviour as the result of my participation in the energy-experiences of ‘dread’ and ‘anxiety’.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that when my physical behaviour suddenly changes, where I become the embodiment of dread, anxiety and depression, to where I slouch and my movements become stiff, that that this indicates that I am not yet effectively aware of the processes taking place within my mind and within my standing as the directive principle of myself, that I have thus allowed myself to get to this point of possession by/within this character/personality to the extent where I experience actual changes in my physical behaviour.

Thus, I commit myself to, when and as I have gotten to the point of possession to where my physical behaviour changes without my awareness/expectation, to become more specific in my application and awareness of myself and my participation in mind-energies, so that I can effectively stop participation before it gets to this point of physical possession, as by the time it gets to that point, I have made it ‘most difficult’ for myself to stand and stop participation, as I have activated the ‘full force’ of the combination of the Thought, Imagination, Backchat, Reactions, and all the energies activated by/within those dimensions.

Therefore, I commit myself to when and as I notice my physical behaviors changing to where I am moving stiffly and jaggedly, and where I am slouching down in my chair, when I am facing the point of working/doing my job, to realize/understand that I am in the process of manipulating myself with energies through the mind, and thus I immediately breathe, sit up straight and relax my body to relieve the stiffness and jerkiness, as I realize that if I accept and allow myself to give in to the mind possession, that I’m essentially giving up on myself in a moment where I have the opportunity to make a change and expand myself here, and that the solution to moving myself out of mind-created experiences of energy and into real practical living here, is to actually physically move myself to go through with the tasks/responsibilities I’m facing before me, as for example the responsibility of working/doing my job.

In the next post, we’ll walk the Fear Dimension of the I Don’t Want to Do This Character/Personality in relation to working/doing my job, through which we’ll take a look at why it is that I formed this character in the first place.

Day 154: I Don’t Want to Do This: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 4)

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This post is a continuation to:
Day 153: I Don’t Want to Do This: Physical/Behavior Dimension (Part 3)

And now we continue with, in this post, walking the Self Commitment statements in relation to the Self Forgiveness walked for the Physical/Behavior Dimension.

Negative Dimensions Internal Changes Self Commitment Statements:
I commit myself to, when facing working/doing my job, and I experience my internal physical condition changing, especially where I notice tension in my shoulders and neck, my body feeling stiff and colder, a cramping in my gut, a feeling of weakness/tiredness throughout my body, and my eyes feeling heavy, to see, realize and understand that I have already gone into manipulating myself with energy, instead of remaining here as breath and simply doing my job.

I commit myself to when and as I see I have gone into this character/personality to the point of possession, to the extent that I’ve manifested a physical condition, to realize that it’s then going to be ‘more difficult’ to stop participation, breathe through the reaction, and follow through with doing my job, as I’ve already accepted that the mind has power over me.

Thus, I commit myself to not accept or allow myself to give in to this experience of it being more difficult, take a breath, stabilize myself, and follow through with doing my job, as I see, realize and understand that in these moments, when I’m experiencing it as more difficult to stand up and change, that I am much more likely to give in to the mind experience, and run away from reality and not face the situation.

I commit myself to realizing that when and as I face that moment of making the decision to go for the ‘positive’, at that point where I’ve already gone into the personality/character to the extent of manifesting physical conditions and it’s ‘more difficult’ to change and ‘easier’ to give in, that it may seem easier in that moment, but the more I continue to go for the positive and make that decision over and over, the more difficult I am making it for me to eventually stand up and change, as I’m piling on more and more layers of resistance toward doing my job/working.

I commit myself to realizing that in that moment where it is ‘most difficult’, that this is a pivotal point where I am facing the decision of walking the commitment I have made for/as myself to really actually change, or to give in to the temptation of the mind of the ‘positive’, and thus it is important to in this moment stick to decision I have made as the commitment to change, as I realize that if I do not actually change myself, that no practical actual change is going to occur in reality.

Positive Dimensions Internal Changes Self Commitment Statements:
I commit myself to when and as I notice myself physically ‘feeling better’ when imagining doing something else and not working/doing my job, where I feel the opposite of what I was experiencing just a moment ago, where for example my experience goes from tension in my neck and shoulders, feeling stiff and weak, my eyes feeling heavy, and my body feeling cold and experiencing nausea, then to suddenly the next moment feeling more relaxed/not as stiff, a bit energized, and my eyes not so heavy, to question how it is I can go from one moment being here and stable, to in the next moment go into extremes of 'negative' feelings and then into 'positive' feelings that then lead to me not facing my responsibility here and giving in to the temptation to avoid the situation/do something else.

We’ll go up to here for this post, and continue in the next post with The Commitments Statements for the Physical/Behavior Dimension, through which I assist and support myself to walk myself into correction, and transform myself from living as patterns and energies of the mind, into real actual practical living here.

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