Day 77: The ‘I Can Do This’ Character

The 'I Can Do It' Character comes up when activated by the thought as a picture of me failing, where for example, I am about to attempt something like a new job, and the picture comes up of me in the job and failing at it, and thus I then experience the fear of that I cannot do this, where the backchat comes up of ‘oh god, what if I can’t do this?’ this is when the ‘I Can Do This’ character becomes activated, wherein I’m trying to cover up and deny that I am experiencing the fear of failure and that I have accepted and validated the picture of myself failing as real, and instead of realizing that I have simply believed in a picture that isn’t real, and thus can simply stop believing in/validating it, I rather create a new character to super-impose on top of the fear experience so that I can suppress the fear experience as how I’m actually experiencing myself and pretend to myself that that is not how I am actually experiencing myself, by deciding that how I’m going to experience myself is ‘believing that I Can do it’, yet not realizing that this belief and this character are just as fake as the initial thought and fear that triggered me to create and participate in this character. 

When I faced the point of doing a job I’d never done before, and the picture of me failing came up, I created this character because I did not want to accept the picture of me ‘not being able to do it’, as failure was simply ‘not an option’, because I required a job to be able to survive. So the creation of this character comes down to the point of ‘survival’, showing how we’ve not actually yet evolved as humanity, because we’re still allowing ourselves to exist within/as survival as how we view, perceive, and interact with the world and situations in our environment.

I saw it as I simply could not accept this picture of me failing, because I needed to succeed in order to ensure my survival, yet not realizing that what was required then was to simply not accept the picture as real, and that by creating and superimposing a character over top of my actual experience, what I was actually doing was distracting me from actually facing the thought I had accepted, to see that it was in fact not real and only a picture in my mind, and rather focusing on creating and living as yet another character, as a personality suit of mannerisms & behaviors that I act as instead of being here as myself.

Then when I live as this character, I’m putting on a ‘fake air’ of what I can/can’t do only based on an idea and not actual reality, and this will lead to disappointing results, as believing/pretending I can do something and actually being able to do it, are two different things. Thus, I’ll manifest consequences by not living one and equal as who I am by trying to put on a presentation of what ‘I can do’, regardless of actual reality, and actually sabotaging myself by setting myself up for situations where reality is going to clash with the presentation I am trying to uphold, which is completely unnecessary, as I can simply be here as myself, not requiring to ‘know’ what I can and can’t do as knowledge in my mind, but rather walk here as a physical being and ‘find out’ what I can do, by actually participating and moving myself in physical reality, so that I will actually find out what I really can do, and not be living a pretense. 

And within this realizing that skills and abilities take time as a practical process walked in the physical to develop such skill/ability, and thus further evidence it really doesn’t work to pretend and put on a character seeking to convince that we can do something, when we’re really just trying to convince ourself, because we already realize that we have not made such an ability a reality yet, and thus can only ‘convince’ ourself that it is reality, within this deluding ourself by taking ourself into an alternate reality in the mind.

Self Forgiveness on the "I Can Do It" character will be walked within the following post.

Day 45 - Love as Justification for Abuse - Self Forgiveness

Below is a Personal Message I received on my Youtube channel and related Self forgiveness. Suggestion is to speak aloud the self forgiveness for most effective result.

For context, watch the videos this comment is directed toward:

2012: LOVE Month - Who We Are Is LOVE... or EVOL?

2012: LOVE Month - Are We the Destroyers of Mother's Love?

Subject: Love Month

"HI:)
I wanted to comment on your video but my comment is too long. I think:)

How do you know, that people feel the love, in the way you describe it? Do You know all of them?:) Do You know me? :) You talk about Your friends and the people you know? Or you are talking about people you know from the media? People want to love and to be loved.
Do you love yourself?

Stress is good for us. Stress is a reaction to a threat. At the moment of danger, we can act quickly and save lives. The problem is that our environment generates stress, this stress is prolonged (eg, our work). When we go home after work, the source of stress is gone. But we do not know how to get back to our natural state. We cannot get rid of tension. We don't know how to do it. Often we are not even aware of this tension.

Motions do not damage our bodies. God gave us the body and emotions / feelings. We are not like robots. Negative feelings do not damage the body. We believe that we have no right to express our feelings/emotions (eg anger). We block, and lock them inside us. This causes the disease. We don't know how to express our feelings/emotions in a healthy way (not aggressive). Kindness, compassion, love heals. Even a smile ... just like yours. Heard about laughter therapy?
Definitely you should smile more often:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvWf6U_AbVE
And he is LOVE!
then he grows up, and:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRUGvArWXLk
:)
Love does not harm your body :) Go to the hospital. Meet with sick children. Play with them. See if you can go wrong: P The only thing that can happen is that you will experience the Big LOVE. If you think your heart is now open ...:) . The heart can always open more and more. There are no limits.
Go to a nursing home, talk with patients. Talk to someone who is terminally ill. Give him your attention. Smile (so beautiful as you can). You'll see how this "chemical reaction" work on them :) For them You are LOVE.
Without emotions we are nothing. I know many beautiful people. I also know people who are "dry". The world in which we live is not paradise. I do not know anyone who would have supported the war and abuse. People are struggling to survive. They work like slaves. They do what they do not like:/. Do not have time to save the world. And do not believe that they can make a difference. That is why We need a soul like yours. Wise, loving and in a beautiful package. There is passion in you :) and it's like a plague :P"

 

 

Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into thinking/believing that it’s not possible to know how people experience love, or that I do not know/see how love is experienced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that the fundamental design of love is the same for all human beings, because I want to justify and hold onto my idea of ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the design of ‘love’ is fundamentally the same design for every human being, yet with differences and variations within how one has ‘personalized’ their version of the definition of love that they will live as, in order to feel that one has come up with their own, unique version of love, to blind self from the fact that the fundamental design of ‘love’ is exactly the same, in order to not realize that ‘love’ as an experience is a pre-programmed pre-designed system, so that I may remain enslaved by/within my mind consciousness system, generating energy for its existence by/through participating in this design of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that participating in the design of love as an emotion/feeling experience generated within my mind consciousness system, that all I am doing is generating energy for the mind consciousness system to continue to exist, and thus I am living merely as a slave to the mind consciousness system as a human-battery that provide the fuel to continue its existence, instead of being here as life, living and experiencing myself as a physical being in physical reality which is real, and not simply an energetic experience generated within/by my mind that only takes place within my mind, and acts as a parasite to my living flesh using the resources of my human physical body to generate the emotions/feelings that we’ve defined as ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I have called ‘love’ is not actually love, as it is energetic feelings generated by/through my mind consciousness system at the cost of my human physical body, and thus what I have called ‘love’ is actually ‘evil’ as what I am doing is participating in and allowing my mind to eat away at my physical human body, which is innocent, and within participating in this energetic ‘love’, I am disregarding the physical and allowing it to be harmed, even though it has always unconditionally supported me within allowing and gifting me life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the physical is the example of real love, as real support in oneness and equality in the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that what I want/desire is not necessarily what’s best for me and reality as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe that because I want/desire something, then it must be a ‘good’ thing, and I shouldn’t question it, but should just allow myself to have it and try to fulfill my want/need/desire, within this not seeing that this indicates that I am actually enslaved and addicted to my desires, as I am not willing to look at my desire/want in self honesty to see what I am actually participating in and as, and whether it is actually beneficial to me and reality as a whole, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I do not fully understand/am fully aware of what I am participating in and what the consequences and outflows of that participation are, then I am not actually in control of myself, and that I am, in fact, mind-controlled, as I am allowing the mind as desires/wants/needs to drive me, where I am ‘blindly’ following my wants/needs/desires, and compromising myself disregarding the effects it has on the physical actual reality and allowing myself to harm and destroy the physical for the sake of desires, which do not even lead to actual satisfaction, but only to more desire, as the nature of desires/wants is to keep one forever ‘wanting’ for seeking ways to generate more energy for the mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to CON-Fuse fear as a response to an actual event in the physical which assists me in responding to an actual physical threat, with stress that I inflict on my human physical body through participation in feelings and emotions, in order to justify my participation in those feeling and emotions, at the expense of my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the stress that I experience as a reaction to my environment is due to me accepting my environment as stressful, as I’ve accepted a reality where life is not supported but is abused for the sake of fulfilling the desires of a few elite, and thus, as I in my own mind, participate in following my desires at the expense of my physical, so has the world system been manifested as the reflection of what I accept and allow myself to do/be done unto myself wherein to the world system I am simply a human battery that exist to give it life at the expense of my human physical body and the entire physical reality which is being depleted and devastated by/through the current economic system, wherein the majority of the earth’s population exists as wage-slaves to fuel the system, and do not have a dignified life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we do know what we need to do, which is to stop existing as our current accepted nature which accepts and allows the physical as ourselves, nature, the animals, to be disregarded and abused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the solution of self-change to change my world and my experience within it, within this not realizing/considering how I am actually responsible for how this world is manifested as the current abusive system, as a reflection of our abusive nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not even see how I am accepting and allowing myself and all life to be abused then I have not yet considered what actual ‘love’ is, or investigated to endure that the definition of ‘love’ that I am living, in fact applies to this reality, wherein I ensure that ‘love’ is an actuality in the physical, as all life being supported and no abuse being accepted and allowed to be done to any being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that the ‘love’ that is attributed  ‘god’ proves that love does not exist is actually evil, as if god existed he has not done anything to stop the abuse that is taking place and allows thousands of innocent children to die every day from preventable causes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify participating in emotions and feelings when I do not understand where they actually come from or how they are created and generated within my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that stress does not harm the body, when the evidence is all around me and within me, as I can feel the effect the stress has on my body, and how accumulated stress over time manifests as ‘aging’ wherein you can literally watch the human physical body deteriorate due to accumulated stress, so that I can continue participating in abusing the physical because I have become addicted to the energetic experience of feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that going to a hospital and meeting and playing with sick children, has nothing to do with energetic experiences that I experience within myself toward that situation, and that if I am experiencing energetic experiences within myself toward a situation/event/being, then I am not experiencing the actual situation/event/being, but am experiencing a feeling inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without emotions we are nothing, when in fact the opposite is the case, as when we are existing as an emotion or feeling, then that is what we become, experience, see, hear, and thus ‘miss out’ on actual reality, as what is going on in actual reality and the beings and forms in our reality we are interacting with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and accept that the world we live in is not a paradise, within this accepting and allowing the extensive abuse that is taking place within implying there is ‘nothing we can do about it’, this is ‘just the way it is’, the world is ‘just not a paradise’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have the time or am able to change the world, when I am actually one of the elite in this world that is supported within the current world system to have what I need, and thus I am actually in a better position than much of the world’s population that is in poverty and is literally ‘stuck’ within their position where every moment of their life is spent trying to survive.

I commit myself to considering what actual love would be, as ensuring that the world that we create does not allow beings to be harmed for the sake of the pursuit of desires as the mind.

I commit myself to realizing that who I am is not emotions and feelings, as when I am not experiencing them, I am still here.

I commit myself to become aware of when I use justification and excuse to accept things as they are, to not have to change myself, so I can remain within my accepted limitation, and thus I commit myself to stop participating in justifications and excuses that keep myself limited and allow the abuse to continue in this world.

I commit myself to realizing that this world is how we create it to be, and thus if it is not a paradise, then it is because we are not creating it to be so, and thus there is a solution which is to change ourselves and how we manifest and create this world, so that we manifest a world where life is enjoyed by all.

For further perspectives:

Day 21 – Slave to Emotions & Feelings 

Day 12 - What is Real Love

Day 31 - Love is Fear of the Chaos Within
Day 33 - Who We Are Is LOVE or EVOL?
Day 37 – Possessed by Sex
Day 39 - Self-Forgiveness on the Design of ‘Love’

Day 26 - The Negative Effect of Positivity
Day 27 - Positivity Positively Fucks the World

Day 44 – How to Become Life

Featured Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

For context listen to 2012: How to Become Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore that I have always seen what’s going on within myself within my mind and within this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and take action in this world within the excuse of ‘what’s the point’ or ‘what’s the use’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face what is really going on this world because I do not want to admit that things have gotten out of my control, and that will ‘hurt’ my pride/ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the state of uselessness and powerlessness, feeling like I am a victim and can’t do anything to change the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am within that state of uselessness/powerlessness that I am actually in a state of possession, wherein I am only that point of uselessness and powerless and become it, where that’s all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize if I am living within fear, that I am possessed by fear where fear is all that I’ll become, all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I live as fear, that I become spiteful and nasty, as the origin of spitefulness and nastiness is fear, and that when I act nasty and spiteful it is showing that I am actually accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I must actually walk the process of self realization and self honesty for myself in seeing for myself what I accept and allow to go on within me within my mind, as only I can see my thoughts and what I participate in within my mind.

I commit myself to realize that the excuse of ‘it is useless/I am powerless’ is just that - an excuse, to not stand up and change, and thus I commit myself to stand as an example that it is not ‘useless/’ and I am not ‘powerless’ by changing myself and my nature to such that will have an actual impact on this world and reality, by walking the process of taking back my ‘power’ that I have given away to the mind by participating in excuses and backchat such as ‘it is useless/I am powerless’.

I commit myself to realizing that it is me that actually create and am responsible for what I experience and what I exist as, by/through what I decide and accept and allow myself to participate in and become.

I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to be/become possessed by energetic mind reactions/experiences such as fear and uselessness/powerlessness, wherein I become that point and only that point as I allow it to literally ‘take me over’ and all that I see, hear, experience, will be of fear or of powerlessness.

I commit myself to being aware of the fact that I do see what goes on in my mind and what is going on in this reality, and within this, to directly face what is here within/as myself and this reality, to sort out that which does not stand as what is best for life.

I commit myself to realizing that avoiding/pretending I don’t see what is really going on within this world/myself in order to protect my ‘pride/ego’ is an act of abuse wherein I am allowing the world to be in a mess for the sake of protecting an idea of myself as ‘superior/good/right’, when that idea/image of me isn’t even real and only exists within my mind, and not in reality, because who I am is allowing this world to suffer, instead of taking practical action to ensure that this reality is actually as it should be and that I am living in such a way that I am not accepting and allowing suffering and abuse to exist in my world.

I commit myself to realizing that ego is based on deception and self delusion, as it is dependent on an image of self within the mind, where one in one’s mind try to make oneself look good, while one’s standing in actual reality, is manifesting a world full of abuse and suffering. Thus- 

I commit myself to stopping participation in/as ego, within the realization that it is not real and what I require to focus on is who I am in actual reality, as who and what I live as within my words and actions as the example that I set for all and what I accept and allow to exist in this reality, as it’s what I do and say in reality that determines my character, not an image that I create in my mind.

Day 15: Abraham-Hicks On Do Not Worry About Your Planet,Focus On Yourself - Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that death is not real, and within this belief, disregard life here in this physical reality, within the justification that 'this is not all there is', when I in fact have NO IDEA what actually awaits us after death, because I have never been there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into thinking that death 'isn't real', despite the fact that people die all the time, and once they are dead, they do no come back, which proves beyond any doubt, that death has a Real and Lasting effect here, as once you die, you are no longer here part of this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think all I have to do is 'get over the fear of death' because who I am is an 'eternal being', not considering that who I have become as a personality I formed and created based on my physical existence here in this physical reality in my physical human body, and thus who I am as a personality will cease to exist once I am no longer a part of this physical reality, and thus, to be a being that can stand eternally, regardless of life or death, means that I must not exist as a personality, thus to actually transcend death requires extensively more than simply 'getting over the fear of death', but that I must first get to know myself as who/what I have designed myself, to see if I have created myself according to principles which can stand for eternity, and realize that if there is even one thing I fear to lose, that who I am is not yet a being that can stand eternally, and that to become a being that stand eternally is going to take a process of at least 7 or more years, as who I have become as a personality was formed over many years, in many layers, and thus must be investigated and deconstructed layer by layer, until I stand clear, and then can begin to recreate myself as a being that live according to principles that stand the test of time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the belief of being an eternal being as a justification to not investigate myself or this physical reality, because 'I'm never going to die anyway', not considering that I do not even have a clue if this is true, or what or how I will exist, if I exist, after death, except that I will no longer be here in my physical body, and thus what do I know, is that once I have died, I will no longer be able to have an effect in this world and it will be too late for me to have an impact on changing this reality into what it should be - a life where all live in dignity, and that if I reach my death and I did not do all that I could, I will be disappointed, but it will be too late.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what is going on in the world, does not have to be 'in my world' - not considering that this is only apparently possible because I am in a position where I am supported by the economic system, where if I wasn't then there would be no way for me to 'avoid' the 'negative' side of the economic system as it would be my reality, as it is for more than two thirds of the world's population, thus the idea that what happens in the world doesn't have to effect you is an elitist day-dream that only a small percent of the world's population can even fall for, for a moment, as they are not yet directly facing the consequences of the current economic system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have no control in what is happening in the government, means that I cannot have any control or effect in the government and should thus accept this and not take any action, when I actually can become involved in the government and have an impact and affect within the government, thus the justification that 'I have no control over what the government is doing' is not valid, because it is by my non-involvement in the political system that I have no control within the government, because I have effectively avoided politics and not become a part of it, where I can actually have an effect, and thus all I have to do is become an actual part of it, to have an actual effect within the political system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sell to people the idea of feeling good, within a world where there is extensive suffering taking place in each and every moment, instead of exposing what is really going on in the world, so that we can sort out the shit, and manifest a world where all really can feel good, as an actual feeling that is based in the physical actuality of having a dignified life wherein you have access to that which you need to exist and thrive here and are not deliberately deprived for the sake of greed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that fear is used to control and manipulate as an excuse to not act at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being positive is all that is required for the problems in this world to cease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this belief, give the impression that positivity is all that is required, when it is actual physical actions that is required, and thus supporting the world and the abuse to remain the same, as no action will be taken to stop it.

I commit myself to walking the 7 year or more journey of self forgiveness and commitment to correction, wherein I deconstruct myself as a personality and rebuild myself as a being that stands the test of time, as a being who lives according to the principle of what is best for all life.

I commit myself to expanding myself in my world and living to my fullest ability here, so that I can have an actual impact on this world, so that when I die I will be satisfied that I did what I could to leave this world better than I found it.

I commit myself to realizing that I do not know if or how I will exist after I die, and thus the reality that actually matters is the physical reality in matter, because I am actually here, and I do know that I can actually have an effect here within my life as a physical being here.

I commit myself to considering that everything here in this world, is in 'my world', as there is actually no separation, as everything is here in this one reality, effecting this reality, and it is only that I am further removed from the consequence that we're manifesting in this world that I can pretend that there is no consequence or that the abuse in the world does not matter because it's not happening to me, even though I am a deliberate part in the cause of such abuse by accepting and allowing an economic system that I participate in every day which does not support everyone equally, and I commit myself to realize that such a system is not designed to last, and thus when it does fail, I will then suffer the consequences, and thus to avoid and ignore the situation is only allowing the inevitable problem to continue, instead of facing the problem and correcting it, and preventing unnecessary suffering and consequence.

I commit myself to becoming involved in the politic system, so that I can take self responsibility to place myself in a position in this world where I can have an impact on what is being accepted and allowed within government systems, instead of accepting that I am powerless which is a result of my deliberate uninvolvement and avoidance of the political system.

I commit myself to facing the problems of the world and finding solutions, and not hiding myself within an experience of 'feeling good', wherein I seek to have a positive feeling experience inside myself, despite what is actually going on in this world, which is actually delusional as deliberate participation in a mind fantasy that does not exist as a reality, and thus I commit myself to doing what it takes to manifest a world where 'feeling good' is not an emotional/feeling experience one has inside themself that is based in energy, but as a physical actuality that is actually lived and experienced by all equally, wherein all are given equal opportunity and ability to 'be happy' in this physical reality, by having access to that which is needed to survive and thrive here in physical reality.

I commit myself to realize that it is actual actions taken in the physical that is required to make change in this world, as it is a physical reality, and thus anything short of physical actions and anything or anyone that promote any form of solution that does not include actual practical action, is no solution and is in fact thus supporting the abuse in the world by allowing it to continue without taking action to stop it.