Day 21 – Slave to Emotions & Feelings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that participating in and experiencing feelings takes me away from here from the physical reality and takes me into my mind into an energetic experience, so that I am no longer here and present in reality, but am ‘lost’ in a made-up mind reality in an experience that is pre-designed within my mind consciousness system, based on memories and chemical reactions that take place within my human physical body utilizing the resources of the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget that I did not start out in this life as a child experiencing emotions but that it only began some years after I was born, and because I did not understand what was happening and because the energetic experiences came from within myself, I figured they must be ‘me’, not realizing how could they be ‘me’ if I they just came up inside of me as if ‘out of nowhere’, and thus obviously was not something that I was directing as myself in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that experiencing emotions is normal, and thus is to be accepted, as everyone else seemed to be accepting it as a normal part of ‘being human’, within accepting a fixed idea/definition of what ‘being human’ is, not considering or realizing that ‘being human’ is what we decide in each moment within who and what we live as – that we are ‘defining’ what it means to ‘be human’ in each and every moment, with each breath we take, in everything we do and say, and what we accept and allow ourselves to exist as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that experiencing emotions is ‘good’ or beneficial in some way, or makes the human ‘more’ or ‘better than’ or ‘special’ compared to beings that don’t experience emotions like animals or like is portrayed in movies and television - like in for example in the movie Equilibrium, the TV series V, or in Star Trek with the emotionless ‘Borgs’, and in the series Battlestar Galactica with the unfeeling ‘Cylons’ - within the theme of ‘having emotions is what makes us human’ (implying special and unique in a positive way) and portraying being s that don’t experience emotions in a negative light – within this not realizing that having emotions is actually a limitation, as it takes you away from reality here and into an alternate reality that is made-up fiction, as it’s not really happening here in reality, it’s only an energetic experience inside yourself, and thus you are distracted and ‘removed’ from reality for a moment, which makes you less effective in reality or even renders you unable to participate in reality, depending on the intensity of the experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the system of emotions and feelings within me because I liked the experience of the positive feelings and wanting to experience those positive feelings all the time, not realizing that those feelings come at a cost – at the cost of my physical human body, as to generate the feelings the mind uses the resources within the human physical body, thus depleting the body of the resources it requires to function properly, manifesting various ailments and malfunctions and causing damage to my physical human body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think having positive emotions is ‘beautiful’ and ‘wonderful’, not considering the actual cost of those experiences and the harm being done, and the eventual consequences I will experience as a result of participating in and as feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize or consider that I could actually just be here as myself, constant and stable, without experiencing the fluctuations of the polarity system of emotions, and causing unnecessary harm to my body, which allows me to live and exist and express myself here in physical reality.

I commit myself to not participating in the system of emotions and feelings, so that I can be here as a real participant in reality, not being enslaved to a pre-programmed pre-designed system which takes me away from here and into my mind in a fantasy land in a self-created energetic experience that feeds off of the resources of my human physical body.

I commit myself to respect my body, as it is my body through and as which I have a presence here and can live and express in this physical reality, and not cause it harm by participating in feelings and emotions.

Day 17 - Abuse of Animals & Nature

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a society in which there is no consideration for animals and nature, in which we are busy annihilating nature, right in this very moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the abuse of nature and animals that takes place, because I saw no one else caring for animals and nature, and thus accepted it as 'normal' to not care, even though I realized that nature and the animals is what provides us the very ability to live and exist here, and suffers through extensive abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that we as humanity are not responsible for the abuse of animals and nature that is taking place, despite the obvious fact that if we were not abusing the animals, the abuse would not be happening.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the behavior of animals as how they fight and kill and eat each other, as justification for accepting and allowing humanity to participate in the same behaviors, when it is obviously only a justification and we can actually decide who we will be and how we will live, and thus we can decide to live without abusing.

Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how our actions as humanity have affected and shaped the nature and behaviors of animals, where we have destroyed or taken over their habitat where they were busy living so that they had to find other ways to survive like eating each other, and thus we are actually responsible for their behaviors that have now become actually programmed into their very design as patterns of instinctual behavior that they had to develop to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that we as humans are the most unlimited form that exists on earth in terms of our physical ability to do things in this world, whereas the animals are much more limited in their design, and thus we are in the best position by far to do that which the other forms here cannot, in taking care of this world and directing it into an equilibrium where all life can live and have a place and have what they need to exist here and be supported.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow an entire economic system to be in place, that functions for greed and profit for a only few, and makes this profit from the abuse and exploitation of nature and the animals, wherein we literally have a system that is actually designed to abuse animals and nature, the very things which give us sustenance to live and exist here, when we should be taking care of that which supports us, not recklessly abusing it into oblivion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how different it could have been on this earth, if we had been taking responsibility from the get-go, in every way we interact with earth, nature and the animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it's not possible to stop the abuse taking place, when we are the ones causing it, and thus we obviously have the ability to stop it as we are the creators of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the abuse taking place is actually necessary and thus cannot be stopped, not realizing and considering the extreme wastefulness of the current economic system where so much of what is produced by our labor utilizing nature and the animals, is not even used, or is consumed in excessive and deliberately inefficient practices.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we can stop the abuse by constructing a new economic system that is not based on greed and profit, but is based on actually supporting life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the increasing storms and violent weather is a result of nature trying to balance itself out with all the disturbance that we are creating, in our deliberate ignorance of how the system of nature of operate, which we've really had plenty of time to investigate, but we've been too busy wrapped up in our minds in consciousness and have disregarded this entire physical reality.

I commit myself to realizing and taking into consideration that my very life depends on what I receive from nature and the animals, and that I should treat nature and the animals with a respect that is equal to the importance of nature and the animals in my ability to exist and live and thrive here.

I commit myself to become educated in the physical reality and how it operates, and the delicate balances between the animals and nature, so that I can take everything into consideration as to how to give the best care to the animals and nature, which cares for me by providing me with everything I require, and makes it possible to do everything that I do.

I commit myself to show that it is possible to stop the abuse and become the caretakers of this earth, as we should always have been.

I commit myself to realizing and applying my responsibility within being a human being which is the most unlimited form on this planet and thus the only form that's in a position to really be able to shape and manipulate what is here, as evidenced by how extensively we have disrupted nature and the animals, to the point where the animals and nature have had to go to extreme lengths just to try to maintain a balance, and to use this position I am in to become a custodian of the earth, that cares for the earth, nature and the animals as it has cared for me.