I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to think that ‘being positive’ will improve my life, not considering
that ‘being positive’ is only putting on an act by saying certain things in
certain tonalities that I have defined as ‘positive’, and not actually taking
any real relevant action to change myself and my world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that ‘thinking positive’ will improve my life, not
considering that within ‘thinking positive’ I am actually trying to ignore and
suppress any ‘negative’ thoughts I have and cover them up with ‘positive’
thoughts, as I have not walked the practical process required to actually stop the
thoughts that come up within my mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that I can only experience positive feelings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to not consider that no matter how hard I try to stay positive, I have
never been able to maintain my positivity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to not realize that when I experience ‘lows’/lack of energy, it is because
I have tapped-out my body’s ability to produce good-feeling chemicals by
participating in feelings of ‘positivity’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to not realize that by trying to avoid negativity and only
see/experience/think positivity, that I am still participating in the same
system which creates and supports negativity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to not realize that to ‘be positive’ requires that I have adequate food,
shelter, water, healthcare, and all that is required to live functionally here
as a physical being, otherwise my experience of myself will be of suffering due
to a lack of what my physical requires, and thus I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to not consider that to even entertain the notion
that I can experience only positivity means that I also must have all my needs
met sufficiently, which 2/3 of the world’s population don’t, thus I am not even
considering everyone here within suggesting that one can have a positive
experience by simply changing the way one thinks and acts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that I’ll create a better world by ‘being positive’, and not
considering that I am not actually doing anything to make real change in the
world or myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to think if I ‘focus on ‘good’ things’ this will improve my world and my
relationships, not considering that if I am only ‘focusing on ‘good’ things’,
that I am ignoring that which I’ve defined as ‘not good/bad/negative’, and thus
how can I expect that those aspects of my life/the world will change if I am
not actually investigating them, finding the cause, and taking action to change them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that positivity can exist without negativity, not realizing
that one cannot exist without the other, as one side of the polarity depends on
the other to exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe if I just look at the ‘positive side’ of things that this
will actually change myself for the better.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to not realize that by seeing things in a ‘positive light’ is actually
deluding myself, as I am convincing myself to view it in a certain way, and
have certain thoughts about it, and not simply seeing things as they actually are.
What happens when we are positive about
something? Basically, we try to see it as a ‘good’ thing, in disregard of what
it actually is, which is not negative or positive, because those are only value
judgments that are applied onto the thing/event/situation that is being
evaluated, thus the thing itself is not positive or negative, but it is a value
we assign place on top of the actual thing.
By assigning a positive or negative value
to something, what we’re doing is setting ourselves up for what kind of
reaction we’ll have to it – if we have assigned a positive value, we’ll
experience a positive reaction, if we’ve assigned it a negative value, we have
a negative reaction. The positive reaction and negative reaction are
experienced as feelings and emotions within the human physical body. These
feelings/emotions are activated by the mind consciousness system which
activates chemical changes that take place in the body, based on the cues it
has been given, by the being’s participation in a positive or negative reaction
to something. Thus, by allowing these positive/negative reactions to be
triggered, one is manipulating the chemical system of their own body to produce
the feeling or emotion. This utilize the substance of the human physical body,
which the body must then try to find a way to replenish itself.
So this participation in positive and
negative reactions to things actually drains the physical and puts it into a
survival mode, where it’s busy coping the best it can throughout your whole
life, within the literal up and down rollercoaster ride we are putting it
through, as positivity/negativity puppets that react to things according to the
pre-coded values assigned to them, and the body deteriorates due to such
lifelong abuse until it cannot take anymore.
Now let’s look at the concept of ‘being
positive’ and avoiding ‘negativity’. The concept seeks to change one’s inner experience
to one of constant positivity by attempting to only have positive feeling
experiences inside oneself. How this works is by trying to assign a positive
value to everything. Where one ‘try to see everything in a positive light’.
However, what’s not realized, is that since negative reactions are experienced
as a result of having assigned a value to something as negative which triggers
a negative chemical reaction within the body, in order to not experience a
negative chemical reaction, you would have to deconstruct all your value
definitions of where and to what you have assigned a negative value, which you
have created and programmed over your whole lifetime, thus will take years of
processing by actually investigating and walking your entire mind system, layer
by layer, to uncover and deconstruct each and every definition of polarity you
are living as, and then no longer live as it. Thus it’s a practical process
that one must walk constantly and consistently. To see how this done check the
Desteni I Process.
Now, the system of negativity/positivity is
a polarity system, and what that means is it has two sides that cannot exist
without each other. How this works, within the human physical body for example,
is the more positive reactions one participates, the more of a drain there is
on the physical human body, and eventually the body will not be able to produce
anymore of the good feeling chemicals, and will
need to recharge, which will be experienced as going into a ‘slump’, or
feeling ‘depressed’ – thus you can’t have the positive feeling experiences
without also creating negative feeling experiences. Within the design itself, when
you assign a positive value to something, you also create a negative value, and
vice versa. For example, if you decide small noses are ‘beautiful’, which is a positive value assignment, and
that large noses are thus ‘not as beautiful’ – thus, the moment you define a
certain form of something here in reality as ‘more’ and define the other forms
as ‘less’, you’ve created a polarity. Thus, you will have a positive feeling
experience toward the thing you have defined as ‘beautiful’/positive, and a
negative reaction toward the opposite manifestation.
Thus it’s actually not possible to have
only positive or only negative definitions and feeling experiences. So, in
order to stop oneself from having negative reactions to things in your world,
require that you stop participation in both positivity and negativity.
So, in the understanding of how the system
of positivity and negativity works within the human physical body, you can see
that trying to stick to having positive feeling reactions only, is going to put
an exceptional load of stress on one’s physical body and produce all sorts of
side effects as the body tries to cope, and of course one will not be able to
only have positive feeling experiences all the time, as the body can only
produce so much good feeling chemical for so long. And in order to stop having
negative experiences, one has to identify and delete both the negative and
positive preprogramming.
I commit myself to deconstructing the
polarity system within me that I have been existing as, as negativity and
positivity, through walking a daily process of self investigation to identify
when/where I accept and allow myself to participate in the polarity of
positivity/negativity, so that I can stop and free myself from preprogrammed
reactions, so that I can live here constant and stable as myself, see things as they are, and not cause
unnecessary harm to my physical body.
