Day 55: The 'Organic is Best' Character

Thus far I’ve walked through the vegan/vegetarian character, the ‘I’m too fat’ character, the ‘I want to be theperfect cook’ character, the ‘sugar is bad for you’ character, and the ‘processedfoods are bad for you’ character, all characters I’d formed in relation to food/diet/nutrition, based on ideas and information I’d come across. Now we’ll pull apart yet another character in relations to diet/food/nutrition – the ‘organic foods are best character’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that organic foods are best for humans to consume, within this not taking into consideration the big picture, like where the organic foods were coming from, what were the actual laws and standards around organic foods, and what is the impact the creation of an organic foods industry is going to have on the bigger picture, in terms of how arable land is going to be used, how the organics are going to be distributed, can you really have organic foods unless everyone goes organic as the world environment is an open system, how will those in poverty be able to get organic foods. Thus within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my decision that organic foods was best for humans, was flawed, as I was not even considering the entirety of the situation.

I commit myself to investigating and considering the whole entire picture, so that the decisions I make will be that which supports all life, within full consideration of the impacts/effects/outflows, so that I can create in awareness and ensure that I do not manifest conditions that compromise any being through my ignorance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the belief that I felt better when eating organic foods was influenced by my belief and expectation that it would make me feel better, and that I was functioning just fine on 'non organic' foods.

I commit myself to not participating in beliefs and expectations of what 'something will do to me' as I then invalidate the results that I experience as if I am participating in my mind I can be certain that I am distorting the results.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was only considering myself and my immediate reality and not considering myself as a part of the greater humanity, what the current state of humanity was/is, and thus not realizing that what I was living as ‘organic foods are best’ was not relevant in terms of the bigger picture, in that encouraging the elite populations of the world to eat organics, all I was doing was serving as an advertisement for the forming organics industry in promoting organics to those in a position to afford it and have access to it in stores, while there would otherwise be no impact on the earth and the entire rest of humanity, as the elite is only a small minority.

I commit myself to considering the entirety of the bigger picture, in realizing that I am actually part of and not separatefrom the ‘bigger picture’, and thus the entire picture must be considered to ensure that, that which I support and accept and allow as ways to live, is in support of all life and that I am not supporting that which would cause harm to any being, including myself.

Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was perceiving reality from within a bubble of self interest, wherein I was looking at ‘how can I benefit myself’, in disregard for what effect it might have on the world as a whole.

I commit myself to considering myself as one and equal with/as all that is here within existence, as all that is here is manifested from the very same substance as me, and thus everything here is myself, and is equal value to myself as life, and thus I commit myself to consider all life as me, within the realization that there is no ‘how can I benefit myself’ that matters unless it is ‘how can I benefit myself as all life as one and equal’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply trust when I heard/read somewhere that ‘organics is good for me’, instead of realizing that this message was coming from businesses within a consumerism and profit based system, where thus the motive is always profit first and foremost regardless of the harm caused to life, and thus I must take this starting point into consideration when evaluating the view point presented, as ‘organics are best’.

I commit myself to always consider the starting point of the information being presented so that i can see what it stands for and what the result/outcome of it will be if lived.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have virtually no clue how the food I eat, organic or otherwise, is actually produced, where it comes from and what all takes place within the process that the food is produced as a resource from the earth and then shaped and molded and transported to my local grocery store, if I live in an elite society as in places of poverty there is not even such a system in place.

I commit myself to educate myself to get an understanding of how what I consume is actually created, so that I can best see what kind of solutions are possible and what kind of actions is necessary to be taken to prevent and stop abuse in this world, and to ensure that the decisions I make won't lead to more unnecessary abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that organic cannot even actually exist in a world where most agriculture is non organic and since crops are open to the environment, non organic crops will actually mix with organic crops, and the legal status of ‘organic’ actually allows for an accepted percentage of non-organic content, as it literally cannot be avoided, thus what I hadn’t realized is that the earth as the environment as an open system means that what we allow to happen here affects all of here, as nothing is separate, it’s all here in this one physical reality.

I commit myself to realize that as this world and environment is an open system, that everything we do affects everyone, like if you fart in a bubble, there is no escape from it and it will affect everyone in that bubble, it’s just that the earth is a reaaally big bubble, and so if you’re far enough away from the fart, you can think that nothing is happening, until the farts become so extensive that it finally reach you, and then you realize, something stinks! Yet, imagine if you were the ones in the ground zero of the farting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support ending the use of chemicals by saying we should ‘just stop using them’ and should legally not allow them, when I had not considered that it would not be possible at the moment to provide all the world’s population with organic foods, as the current methods of agriculture is what we’ve become within our accepted understanding and ways of practicing agriculture and that to actually switch to not using any chemicals would be literally impossible and still manage to feed the population, and thus to simply disallow the use of chemicals would lead to extensive suffering, as I am looking for instant gratification, and not considering the current state of all humanity and whether we as a whole are actually set up to make such a change on a global scale, as for any change to have a real lasting impact, it must be able to be implemented by all.

I commit myself to realizing that in order for real lasting change to take place, I must understand and consider the current state of my entire body of/as humanity, in order to see what is actually required to create worldwide change, and to ensure that what I am promoting as ‘good for you/me/humans’ would not actually lead to the abuse of many humans, or any life at all.

Day 50: Stepping Out of Character: 'I am Vegan / Vegetarian'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I live the character of ‘Vegan/Vegetarian’ that this means I am ‘doing my part’ to stop animal abuse, and that I am living a lifestyle that is actually going to lead to the end of animal abuse.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent of how unaware I am of the entirety of the situation in existence as to how/why animal abuse is taking place and all the dimensions that is involved, that I could come to believe that I am actually able to not take part in animal abuse, in believing that it’s possible to end the abuse by simply buying products that do not involve the abuse of animals, not considering that no matter what I buy, the very system I am buying it within the very system that is driving the animal abuse that takes place in this world – and thus I am still supporting animal abuse, still participating in animal abuse, and still responsible for animal abuse. Therefore-

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that my participation in and living as the character of Vegan or Vegetarian was to feed and perpetuate an idea of myself as ‘caring’ and ‘making a difference’ and not actually having the result that I am apparently standing for of ending animal abuse, as I am not taking the necessary action that could possibly actually lead to the end of animal abuse, as no longer supporting the current system and standing up to establish and create a new system which will enable us to actually stop animal abuse, as within the current system that is based on profit and inequality it is impossible to stop animal abuse. See the Equal Money System as the equality based system busy being developed within the starting point of supporting life and ending all abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how I took on the character of Vegan / Vegetarian so I could have the ‘feeling’ like I am having a positive impact on the world, so I could ‘feel good’ about myself – which shows that it was simply a character as an act I put on with the starting point and focus being myself – and having a positive experience/feeling about/toward myself, and not actually about stopping animal abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine in my mind all the animal lives I was ‘saving’ by no longer apparently consuming animal products, and using this picture to create the idea of myself for myself that I am having some kind of impact on animal abuse, within this, focusing on the lives I believed I was saving and ignoring all the rest of the animal abuse that was still taking place and that I’d had no impact on whatsoever, within the justification that I am doing ‘what I can’ and that in, according to my mind, having apparently ‘saved’ a few animals that that was all that really could be expected of me, and all the possible impact I could have, as I can’t control/effect everyone else that is still using products made from animals. Within this not considering that I can in fact have an impact on others, as we all already do impact each other through the examples that we live as the actions we take and the words we speak, and through accepting and allowing the current money system which keeps the majority of the earth’s population enslaved in wage-slavery with little or no choice in what one has access to as one’s needs to be able to choose products that are not made from animals. Thus – 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the characters of Vegan and Vegetarian are elitist lifestyles created and perpetuated to serve consumerism, as those who are poor/in poverty have little to no choice in what they consume and whether it is of animal or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that in living the character of Vegan or Vegetarian, I am creating and participating in a polarity of plants vs animals, wherein I am placing animals as more important than plants, and not considering that abuse that is done to plants as well, wherein I have decided within myself that something/someone has to suffer/pay the price for me to live, and it will be the plants, and thus within this there is no equality and oneness as consideration for all live equally as all life is of the same substance and all forms are part of this earth and this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how I act when I am living as the character of Vegan or Vegetarian, as how I experience myself when I tell others that I am vegan/vegetarian, where I feel a positive charge/feeling for being a ‘good person’ who is ‘doing the right thing’ and used this definition in comparison to others who are not vegan/vegetarian and felt superior toward them, like I am better than them because they are abusing animals, while ignoring that I am still abusing animals, as animals have been and are abused within everything that is made from this earth, as in no way are we actually taking into consideration and caring for the animals, or nature/the environment or ourselves, as all equal parts of existence here, and in no way are living in such a way that is supporting life, but are rather accepting destruction of the earth to take place on a massive scale, where there is only a tiny fraction of area on the land of the earth where animals live unmolested, as we’ve literally taken over the whole planet within the overconsumption driven by the current system by those who seek to profit off of the earth, in total disregard for the immense destruction being done to the earth, animals, nature, and humans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I decided to become and live as the character of the vegan/vegetarian due to memories, wherein I had seen pictures of animals being abused and felt bad and powerless to stop the abuse that had already taken place within the image/picture, and when the idea of becoming vegan/vegetarian was presented I took it on in order to feel like I was doing something and was not powerless after all - within this showing that I lived this character as a way of directing how I was experiencing myself within myself, to make myself feel better, so in essence I became the vegan/vegetarian character in order to experience myself a certain way, and thus the starting point is not to become a force that can influence the world to actually make a change like ending abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am wreaking havoc on my physical body and the physical reality by living as characters as information that I’ve taken on and lived as myself that is based on ideas /opinions/beliefs that I learned/read/heard from somewhere, without ensuring that the information is valid as that which if lived will lead to a world where life is supported.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to live as/according to the mind as my beliefs/thoughts/perceptions/feelings/emotions/opinions, I am harming the physical, as I am not living as the physical and thus according to what the physical requires and what actually supports the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the character I live as is a personality suit that I put on in order to make myself feel like/believe that I am something I’m not in actuality.

I commit myself to no longer living as a character for the sake of thinking/believing I am making a difference/having an impact in the world, and commit myself to ensure that who I am will actually have an impact on the earth.

I commit myself to realizing that to end abuse, we must change the money system, as the money system stands as our acceptance of abuse to be done to life as ourselves, nature, the animals, and it’s through the current system that animal abuse is perpetuated, and thus I commit myself to supporting the Equal Money System, as a system where life is valued as the only real value, and thus abuse will not be allowed, and we can begin to reform the balance of nature that should be existing here.

I commit myself to realizing that to live as a character is a criminal act, as I will defend my character no matter whether such character accepts and allows abuse to exist in the world, as a character must be defended because it isn’t real, and thus I commit myself to investigating and finding every way that I live as a character, so that I can stop and become a real being that lives in consideration of life – not as an ego that seeks to be validated and feel good about itself no matter the cost to life.