Day 51: The ‘Good Cook who cooks the Perfect Meals’ Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to make perfect meals within the belief that this would validate me as a person and prove that I am ‘good at something’ and that then I must have some ‘worth’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the idea that making ‘perfect meals’ would validate me as a human being, came from stories, cartoons, books, tv, the examples of adults around me, where within stories the woman was often portrayed as being liked/respected if they were a good cook, and that it was a woman’s duty to cook the meals, and that she would be treated nicely as a reward for performing well her duty of preparing meals for herself, and her family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I formed this character based on memories of experiences of my mother cooking, and her relationship to cooking, wherein she wanted to be seen as a good cook, and judged herself for her cooking, and she took it on as her responsibility as the wife/female according to the cultural/societal programming that it is the wife’s/females duty to cook the meals for the family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this character is simply a conglomeration of ideas ,images, information, memories, feelings/emotions, beliefs, and judgments, wherein I am trying/attempting to live according to/as those ideas, images, information, memories, feelings/emotions, beliefs, and judgments, in separation of/from myself and from reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in living this character I separated myself from myself and from reality, within trying to live as an idea, which is not based on/relevant to reality, as even what I considered/judged as ‘good meals’ was also based on ideas, memories, pictures, largely influenced by what my mother/relatives/other adults in my life cooked and what I read/saw in books, movies, tv like for example an example such as Martha Stewart who represented/portrayed the character of the ‘good/perfect cook’ on her tv show, and other forms of media, and what I learned about in school, and thus not in actual consideration/understanding of proper dietary nutrition that supports the human physical body- but was only based on ideas in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the very ideas/images of foods and what a ‘good meal’ is, is largely based in consumerism, as there is extensive brainwashing/advertising done to promote certain foods by the food industries in order to ensure they have consumers for their products and so can make a profit, and thus the starting point is profit and not what is most supportive to life. Watch Century of the Self to understand how this was done to program desires into the human that go against what the human actually needs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the dietary habits we participate in become programmed into the physical and thus literally we become programmed according to what we eat, as our body must utilize what we put in and maintain it’s a state of balance and effectiveness, regardless whether what we put in it is what it requires/what supports it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the dietary habits we participate in from a young age while our body is still in a formative stage, the body becomes programmed according to what is put in and thus we are programming our body to become dependent on things which are not supportive to it and thus manifesting consequence that can last throughout one’s life, for example in cases where one’s lifestyle and diet leads to the condition of diabetes. For perspectives on diabetes here are some posts from Paul’s Journey to Life:

Day 74 - Carbohydrates

Day 75 - Making and Staying on Routine In regards to Diabetes

Day 76 - Fear of Being High (It's not what you think)

Day 77 - Going Low

Day 78 - Going Low pt 2 Attention Being Brought to Going Low

Day 79 - Going Low pt 3 - Candy and Fake Lows

Day 80 - Going Low pt 4 - Irritability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being able to ‘cook perfect meals’ will make me more attractive as a candidate for marriage, and thus I was not approaching cooking and food/diet from the starting point of what is most supportive to the human physical body, but from the starting point of self interest and manipulation, wherein I sought to use cooking as a way to fulfill my mind’s desires for relationship. And thus, within this I abused my physical by not taking it into consideration, and instead imposing the mind’s desires on my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that it is my body that requires to eat, and thus the starting point in eating should be as fuel for the body, and not feeding desires of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel validated and experience myself positively when I have received compliments on meals I’ve made, within this playing a superiority/inferiority game within myself where I feel superior because I am ‘a good cook’, which is really because I have judged ‘not being able to cook’ as inferior, and thus within this I turned cooking into a polarity/energy competition, wherein I wanted to ‘win’ and not ‘fail’, instead of simply being here as me, as cooking, and exploring cooking/eating/diet, in context of myself as a physical being that requires to eat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that by making cooking a competition within myself as the battle/war/competition I was playing out in my mind, that my body as the literal battlefield, and the soldiers on the battlefield, that was the ones actually experiencing and going through the war I was putting it through.

I commit myself to stop the competition in my mind wherein I want to ‘win’ as feeling validated and successful by living as the character of the ‘good cook’ and where I feel like a ‘loser’ when I fail to live as the character of the ‘good cook’.

I commit myself to stop participation in the character of the ‘good cook’, to live cooking/food preparation from a practical perspective, not according to pictures and ideas of what a good meal is, that is based on consumerism, and not what the human body actually requires.

I commit myself to actually consider diet/food in terms of what is actually supportive to the physical body as the fuel that it requires to function properly.

I commit myself to realizing that living as a character in no can actually ‘validate’ who I am, as it is only a character and not myself in fact, thus it is myself that must live a valid life, wherein I ensure that who I am and what I live as is actually valid in this existence, which would be to live in consideration of life and what is best for life in and as this physical existence.

Day 49 - Character Creation - Food, Diet & Nutrition

Here we’ll begin to look at and take apart the characters we’ve formed and lived as in relation to food/diet/nutrition, through which we’ve programmed our bodies to support our desires of the mind to support the current system and consumerism. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize if I can form and train my body in accordance with habits that support consumerism, then I can train my body according to what is best/most effective that causes the least harm and put the least pressure on the environment, nature, the animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I cannot trust the feedback that I get from my body as I have trained my body according to my mind, and it is under the control of my mind and thus the feedback will support the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how we support each other in developing characters, so that we are actually creating another supporter of the character we are participating in, who will validate us as that character and we will likewise validate them, and within this we'll keep each other locked into characters and not really here living as real beings that exist and live in reality and not as made up characters in our minds.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that any information, diet plan, scientific view points, that focuses on which foods to eat from the perspective of what foods are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ for the body, is missing/neglecting the point that we are able to affect and determine the relationship of our body to food, within the relationships we create, participate, and live as toward food/diet/nutrition/health.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I have from a very early age been trained/learned to eat as the mind, wherein I was supported to create relationships to food within attaching feelings, emotions, beliefs, ideas, to food/nutrition for consumerism, to become a consumer for the system as early in one’s life as possible, so that my body becomes trained to seem to want certain foods that are marketed, and thus I must investigate and remove these relationships I have formed toward food so that I can begin to retrain the body toward a diet that actually supports my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that through/by forming relationships to/toward food I have separated myself from my body and blamed the ‘food’, and thus within putting the focus on the food, I am not focusing on the relationship I have formed to/toward food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the effect I have had through forming relationships toward what is here in this reality, to not realize that within forming relationships, I am separating myself from what is here as myself, and removing my self responsibility to direct what is here as myself, within defining it and holding it in a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that in forming relationships to what is here I’ve formed myself as a character toward what is here, wherein I live as this character as a fake identity toward someone/something in my reality, wherein I define who I am, what I say, what I do toward that form/manifestation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this forming of and living as characters is utilized within the current system to support consumerism, where in terms of food, diet & nutrition you have characters such as the ‘vegan’, the ‘vegetarian’, the ‘I’m too fat – I must diet to lose weight’ character, the ‘I love to hunt and eat meat’ character, the ‘processed foods is bad character’, the ‘raw food’ character, the ‘fruitarian’ character, the ‘superfoods’ character, the‘I’m so cool because I drink wheatgrass’ character, the ‘I love to bake character, the ’Martha Stewart’ character who always makes the ‘perfect meals’ for every occasion, the ‘I don’t care what I eat, whatever’s fastest to prepare’ character,  and many more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the consequences that I am creating and manifesting in the physical reality by participating in these characters and validating others to live as these characters as well, wherein I am living as a character that is not designed in consideration of and in harmony with the physical reality, but in separation from the physical reality, wherein the physical reality and our part and responsibility in creating it has not been considered, which has led to a world where abuse is taking place all over the world in each and every single moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that my approach to food/diet/nutrition has always been one of separation, wherein I only looked at myself and my life and my diet, in separation from the whole of this physical reality, wherein I only considered my diet and relationship to food in terms of what is available to me within my immediate environment, and not considered how does it get there, where does it come from, what is the process in which it is produced, what abuse was involved in the process, and within not being aware of the full/total big picture of how we are creating what is here, I have not considered how best to direct my relationship toward food, in a way that will be best for life, as I have not considered all the factors involved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a society in which we are not aware of exactly what happens within how food is produced and distributed, and within this, to think I don’t want to know, not realizing that the aversion to being interested in how what we consume is produced, is the result of brainwashing and propaganda to support you as a consumer to not ask questions that will cost businesses profits, so that they can profit off your accepted ignorance and blindness by convincing you that what you really want is to ignore that which has an important role in your life and experience of existence as a physical being in physical reality.

I commit myself to investigating and exposing every character that we’ve created and allowed to exist to/toward food, so to correct our relationship to/toward food, so that effective communication with/as the physical body can be established and approach food as fuel/physical support for the body, not as fuel for the mind in abuse of the body.

I commit myself to do common sense research into how the physical operate to understand how best to support the human physical body with what is here, within understanding the nutritional requirements and how to effectively provide them to all beings.

I commit myself to exposing how we develop and support these characters within the children through parenting where we pass on our relationships to food to our children and teach them by example to eat for the mind and not for and in consideration of life.

I commit myself to investigating all relationships I’ve formed to/toward food, so that I can correct myself to live in support of the body and myself as all life here, and no longer live as  relationships within the mind in separation from what is here as thoughts/beliefs/perceptions/opinions/wants/desires to create energy for the mind’s existence at the cost of the physical as my human physical body and the physical reality as a whole.

I commit myself to establishing a society in which the physical is actually considered and the human is supported to be aware of what is taking place in the world and how we are utilizing the earth’s resources, and the disparaging differences that exist where many of the earth’s population that are in poverty do not have access to adequate food or nutrition, and those in elite countries who have access to a wide variety of foods yet are not supporting the body with effective nutrition even though they actually have food available to them, due to eating from/as the mind through relationships formed to/toward food as characters that serve to support consumerism and profit for a few at the cost of life. Within this, I commit myself to support and establish the Equal Money System, as the economic system through which it will be possible to consider life and do what we find is best for life.

In the post to come we’ll look at in more detail the characters we’ve formed and participated in and the consequences that we have created through living as characters within relationships to/toward food/diet/nutrition.

To get an understanding of how we have manifested the current reality and current nature of ourselves through the relationships we’ve created/formed/lived as to/toward what is here, it is suggested to read Heaven’s Journey to Life blog  from the very beginning.

For more context on Character creation read:

Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES

Day 78: Stepping out of Character

To read the collected blogs of Equal Money System perspectives from many participants, download for free at Eqafe:

What the FAQ is an Equal Money System - Volume 2