Day 44 – How to Become Life

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For context listen to 2012: How to Become Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore that I have always seen what’s going on within myself within my mind and within this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and take action in this world within the excuse of ‘what’s the point’ or ‘what’s the use’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face what is really going on this world because I do not want to admit that things have gotten out of my control, and that will ‘hurt’ my pride/ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the state of uselessness and powerlessness, feeling like I am a victim and can’t do anything to change the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am within that state of uselessness/powerlessness that I am actually in a state of possession, wherein I am only that point of uselessness and powerless and become it, where that’s all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize if I am living within fear, that I am possessed by fear where fear is all that I’ll become, all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I live as fear, that I become spiteful and nasty, as the origin of spitefulness and nastiness is fear, and that when I act nasty and spiteful it is showing that I am actually accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I must actually walk the process of self realization and self honesty for myself in seeing for myself what I accept and allow to go on within me within my mind, as only I can see my thoughts and what I participate in within my mind.

I commit myself to realize that the excuse of ‘it is useless/I am powerless’ is just that - an excuse, to not stand up and change, and thus I commit myself to stand as an example that it is not ‘useless/’ and I am not ‘powerless’ by changing myself and my nature to such that will have an actual impact on this world and reality, by walking the process of taking back my ‘power’ that I have given away to the mind by participating in excuses and backchat such as ‘it is useless/I am powerless’.

I commit myself to realizing that it is me that actually create and am responsible for what I experience and what I exist as, by/through what I decide and accept and allow myself to participate in and become.

I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to be/become possessed by energetic mind reactions/experiences such as fear and uselessness/powerlessness, wherein I become that point and only that point as I allow it to literally ‘take me over’ and all that I see, hear, experience, will be of fear or of powerlessness.

I commit myself to being aware of the fact that I do see what goes on in my mind and what is going on in this reality, and within this, to directly face what is here within/as myself and this reality, to sort out that which does not stand as what is best for life.

I commit myself to realizing that avoiding/pretending I don’t see what is really going on within this world/myself in order to protect my ‘pride/ego’ is an act of abuse wherein I am allowing the world to be in a mess for the sake of protecting an idea of myself as ‘superior/good/right’, when that idea/image of me isn’t even real and only exists within my mind, and not in reality, because who I am is allowing this world to suffer, instead of taking practical action to ensure that this reality is actually as it should be and that I am living in such a way that I am not accepting and allowing suffering and abuse to exist in my world.

I commit myself to realizing that ego is based on deception and self delusion, as it is dependent on an image of self within the mind, where one in one’s mind try to make oneself look good, while one’s standing in actual reality, is manifesting a world full of abuse and suffering. Thus- 

I commit myself to stopping participation in/as ego, within the realization that it is not real and what I require to focus on is who I am in actual reality, as who and what I live as within my words and actions as the example that I set for all and what I accept and allow to exist in this reality, as it’s what I do and say in reality that determines my character, not an image that I create in my mind.

Day 34 - Breath is the Secret to Listening

For context listen to the interview Reptilians - Breath The Answer to Life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even be aware that I am not here in every moment, that sometimes I’m not actually aware of myself in my reality and what is going on, but am off somewhere in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I have never in my life really practiced actually being here and being aware in each and every moment, but rather had learned to go more and more into my mind and out of reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so used to being in my mind to not even notice when I shift from being here in reality to going into my mind and not being aware of my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize or consider that something so simple as breath could be used to assist and support myself to remain here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my mind filters how I listen to things and thus listening through the mind is actually making it more difficult to actually hear something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within ‘trying to hear’ something, I am actually saying that I am not hearing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that since I have learned how to not listen by becoming distracted within and by my mind, that I have to actually now practice hearing to develop the ability to hear effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not notice when my mind runs rampant while having a conversation with another being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of just breathing and practicing hearing as a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I am busy having thoughts in my mind while participating in a conversation, that my ability to hear what is being said is compromised, as my mind is busy utilizing the conversation to form interpretations about the being, and my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how the mind utilizes conversations to form interpretations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the mind’s primary purpose and function is to utilize physical reality in its own interest to generate energy as experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind attempts to interpret reality in terms of ego in order to generate energy where I will in situations in my world and reality seek to win and be right and be the best and be superior and have such positive experiences where I experience positive energy within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reactions I have to information what I am hearing for example when a being is speaking, that that indicates the frame of mind I am interpreting the information through, and that I am not thus simply here hearing the information, but going into a mind interpretation that my mind is utilizing to generate an energetic experience toward the information or the being which is the energetic reaction that I am experiencing, and thus when that happens I know that I am mind controlled and, can here can use breath to stabilize myself and stop the reaction and bring myself back here to reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in a mind reaction to a point my mind is only looking at one dimension, and missing all other dimensions, and thus completely missing reality as physical existence simply does not exist as one single point in separation from all other dimensions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the more I become physically here the more I will hear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the more I move myself into physical substance, the more I’ll realize just how limited it is to be having thoughts and internal conversations distracting and taking me away from reality, where I will really no be interested to participate in thoughts and reactions anymore as I’ll rather just be here as myself breathing.

I commit myself to becoming aware of whenever I go into an energetic mind reaction, breathing, stopping the reaction and bringing myself ‘back’ here.

I commit myself to breathing and practicing being here in each moment as breath, so that eventually I will accumulate the ability to simply remain here as myself as breath in each and every moment and no longer miss out on life and on actual reality by getting distracted into the mind in ego reactions that have the only purpose to generate energy for the mind consciousness system.