Day 21 – Slave to Emotions & Feelings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that participating in and experiencing feelings takes me away from here from the physical reality and takes me into my mind into an energetic experience, so that I am no longer here and present in reality, but am ‘lost’ in a made-up mind reality in an experience that is pre-designed within my mind consciousness system, based on memories and chemical reactions that take place within my human physical body utilizing the resources of the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget that I did not start out in this life as a child experiencing emotions but that it only began some years after I was born, and because I did not understand what was happening and because the energetic experiences came from within myself, I figured they must be ‘me’, not realizing how could they be ‘me’ if I they just came up inside of me as if ‘out of nowhere’, and thus obviously was not something that I was directing as myself in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that experiencing emotions is normal, and thus is to be accepted, as everyone else seemed to be accepting it as a normal part of ‘being human’, within accepting a fixed idea/definition of what ‘being human’ is, not considering or realizing that ‘being human’ is what we decide in each moment within who and what we live as – that we are ‘defining’ what it means to ‘be human’ in each and every moment, with each breath we take, in everything we do and say, and what we accept and allow ourselves to exist as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that experiencing emotions is ‘good’ or beneficial in some way, or makes the human ‘more’ or ‘better than’ or ‘special’ compared to beings that don’t experience emotions like animals or like is portrayed in movies and television - like in for example in the movie Equilibrium, the TV series V, or in Star Trek with the emotionless ‘Borgs’, and in the series Battlestar Galactica with the unfeeling ‘Cylons’ - within the theme of ‘having emotions is what makes us human’ (implying special and unique in a positive way) and portraying being s that don’t experience emotions in a negative light – within this not realizing that having emotions is actually a limitation, as it takes you away from reality here and into an alternate reality that is made-up fiction, as it’s not really happening here in reality, it’s only an energetic experience inside yourself, and thus you are distracted and ‘removed’ from reality for a moment, which makes you less effective in reality or even renders you unable to participate in reality, depending on the intensity of the experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the system of emotions and feelings within me because I liked the experience of the positive feelings and wanting to experience those positive feelings all the time, not realizing that those feelings come at a cost – at the cost of my physical human body, as to generate the feelings the mind uses the resources within the human physical body, thus depleting the body of the resources it requires to function properly, manifesting various ailments and malfunctions and causing damage to my physical human body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think having positive emotions is ‘beautiful’ and ‘wonderful’, not considering the actual cost of those experiences and the harm being done, and the eventual consequences I will experience as a result of participating in and as feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize or consider that I could actually just be here as myself, constant and stable, without experiencing the fluctuations of the polarity system of emotions, and causing unnecessary harm to my body, which allows me to live and exist and express myself here in physical reality.

I commit myself to not participating in the system of emotions and feelings, so that I can be here as a real participant in reality, not being enslaved to a pre-programmed pre-designed system which takes me away from here and into my mind in a fantasy land in a self-created energetic experience that feeds off of the resources of my human physical body.

I commit myself to respect my body, as it is my body through and as which I have a presence here and can live and express in this physical reality, and not cause it harm by participating in feelings and emotions.

Day 20 - We are The Living Dead

For context watch part 1 of the documentary series The Living Dead & listen to the interview Life Review - the Strategic Soldier

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the stories of history have been manipulated by the winners in history to make the winners always seem right and good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the winner as good/right when there is nothing good/right about war/fighting/competition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the stories and mythologies of the past have been and are used to manipulate people based on memories and feelings to spur people to certain actions against one another, where based on something that is seen as positive as ‘pride for one’s country’ one will justify to maim and kill another from another country, even though we are all equal as humans on this earth and ‘country’ is should be just a location as that is what it actually is, not a reason to separate from each other and cause harm to another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like one ‘belongs to something special’ and thus is ‘special’, because of one’s past as one’s history, irrelevant to who one actually is here now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I could be made to feel ‘special’ based on memories and pictures, that this indicates that I was actually feeling inferior in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I am feeling inferior, that the solution is not in memories and feelings, as those are just experiences and mirages that have nothing to do with who I actually am in reality, and thus memories and feelings cannot make me ‘more’ than who I am here, but can only make me ‘feel’ that way, and thus I delude myself to reality, and to actually face and deal with the feelings of inferiority, which I cause within myself, by judging myself for not living to my fullest potential, instead of simply living to my fullest potential and expanding myself here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what goes on in war as the brutal killing of each other, shows that this is not a world of common sense or reason, as it simply does not make sense to be engaged in an activity where we actually are killing another human being, as when we see them lying there dead, we realize that they are the same as me, and I would not want to be killed and suffer that way, so why are we allowing this to exist?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see or realize that the messages and pictures shown to us in and around war times such as video footage has been constructed in such a way to make one’s own country look like ‘the good guy’ and the other country ‘the bad guy’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see how we as individuals do this on a personal level wherein we’ll deliberately lie and manipulate information make ourselves look good in a situation and the other look bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the ‘enemy’ is always made to look bad in order to make one’s own country and what one’s own government/military is doing to not look as bad in comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘bury’ what has happened in the past in order that it can be forgotten, to try to pretend it never happened because I don’t want to face what I have become/have done, and in an attempt to protect my image, when actually the way to ensure that I have the best ‘image’ would be to not waste time trying to control an image of myself, and actually live what it is I want to be perceived as, and thus it wouldn't be an 'image' and I would not be a fake trying to present and live as an image, but a real being with integrity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that to stand for and support ‘my country’ means that I am not standing for and supporting the whole of humanity as one, and thus I am participating in separating ourselves into teams that are in competition with each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that human nature is what we accept and allow it to be and thus why/how we are actually able to program humans to enjoy violence and harm, and thus we are responsible for the abuse and harm in the world as we have accepted and allowed ourselves to program ourselves and to enjoy causing harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no winner in war, there is no right side, as the fact that war exists indicates that we are accepting allowing extensive abuse to take place and exist in the world which we all exist in, that any of us could find ourselves on the ‘losing side’ of, and thus to actually win, would mean that no war or abuse exists anywhere.

I commit myself to realizing that war is the result of not considering all ‘sides’ equally, as when one is left out, they must ‘fight for themself’, their ‘right’, their survival, thus, by not considering the other equal to ourself, we create conflict.

I commit myself to see and identify when I am participating in this behavior/mind set where when I ‘perceive’ a threat to my interest, where I feel that ‘I must look out for myself as my interest is not being considered here’ mindset, wherein I’m seeing the other person as only considering themself, and thus fear that I will be taken advantage of if I don’t ‘stand up and fight for my own interest’, and stopping participation. 

I commit myself to realizing that when we stick to practicality in doing what is best for all in any given situation, there is nothing to fear, nothing to defend, as when a decision requires to be made, you simply look at the situation and see what the best solution is for all, and implement that solution, and within this you are considered equally to everyone else, thus you will not be compromised nor will you compromise anyone.

Day 19 - What is the Solution to Fear?

For context read: Day 18 - What is Fear?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that that which I fear in the world is my own creation, as I have accepted and allowed it to exist, and thus I am actually fearing myself, as what I have accepted and allowed, and not taken responsibility to find and implement solutions so that such situation that I fear no longer exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming a bum living on the street.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a society and economic system in which it is even possible to become a bum on the street.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ensure that we have an economic system which actually guarantees that all are supported to have adequate food, shelter, water, healthcare, all the things that one needs to live and thrive, and then the fear of becoming a bum on the street would not exist, as the situation of becoming a bum on the street would not exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going to jail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a society in which going to jail exists as a thing to be feared, rather than considering how and why jails exist and what is the solution to be walked, so that such a situation does not exist as it does.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that jail exists as the manifestation of judgment and punishment, wherein it is the world manifestation reflection of how we accept and allow ourselves to judge and punish ourselves, instead of assisting and supporting ourselves to change ourselves into beings that can coexist here with all other beings and do no harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that most people who go to jail is for theft which is due to the inequality of the current economic system, and that unless the main underlying cause of people being driven to theft is stopped, which is the inequality of the system, then there will continue to be people who commit theft, and thus by accepting and allowing an economic system that creates inequality, I am accepting and allowing those who are driven to commit theft and are put in jail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the current corrections system is not designed to be actually effective at rehabilitating human beings, but rather to just put them away out of society and out of the way of business and profit, one and equal with the starting point of the current economic system which we have accepted and allowed to place profit before life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I fear not having money because in the current system money is security and you are not guaranteed enough money to have a dignified life, and thus the possibility exists that you may not have enough money, and then the quality of your life will decrease, and if you have no financial support whatsoever to have access to your needs you die like thousands do everyday.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept an economic system in which a dignified life is not guaranteed and life is a gamble where one's life literally 'hangs in the balance', and one have to go through unnecessary suffering if one does not have effective financial support.

I commit myself to identifying the fears that exist within myself and humanity, and looking at how have I taken for granted that that such a condition exists, and seeing how do we create/accept/allow such condition, within the understanding that we as humanity create what is here, thus once we realize how we create such a situation, we then have the solution to stop creating it.

I commit myself to taking self responsibility to face our fears as the situations of abuse that we've created, accepted and allowed to exist, and to implement solutions so that such a situation is no longer created to exist in the world.

I commit myself to realizing that we as humanity create the very situations that we fear, and thus we are actually fearing ourselves as our own creations, which is ridiculous, when the solution to our fears is thus to realize that we are creating them, discover how we are creating them, and stop creating them.

I commit myself to realizing that this world is the manifestation of what we accept and allow and thus when we allow ourselves to participate in fears without investigating them, we are trapping ourselves into a never-ending cycle of our own fear through which we limit ourselves and the whole world, as by accepting such fears to exist, we are accepting and allowing the conditions that we fear, to exist, instead of facing that which we fear and correcting our application to no longer manifest situations of abuse to be feared.

Day 18 - What Is Fear?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider where do my fears even come from? How are they created?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just take my fears for granted like they are normal to experience and a 'part of being human', thus just accepting them without even understanding what they are or where they come from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear in some way helps me or assists me, when I look at the actuality fear as an energetic reaction based on participation in thoughts has never actually assisted me or the situation I was in, or anyone that I know of, it has only manifested consequences by taking your attention aware from here and paying attention instead to thoughts and pictures in your mind, then you miss what's happening in reality and you make mistakes and have accidents, and manifest that which you fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself believe that it's not possible to stop my fears, not realizing it is an energetic reaction that I gave permission to in the first place to be activated, and gave it permission over and over until it became an automated habit, and thus I can actually deprogram the habit by no longer giving permission to the reaction, until it no longer occurs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that fear is a preprogrammed design as evidenced by the fact that most of humanity shares the exact same fears with each other with only some minor variations between individuals but the design of each fear is always the exact same from person to person.
 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself come up with justifications as to why I have these fears, not realizing that within justifying the fears I am actually validating the fears, when they are not real as they only exist if I participate in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that I create my fears, and thus when I experience fear I am actually fearing myself, as what we fear is what is here that we have accepted and allowed to exist here, and not taken responsibility for to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that fear makes no sense in terms of that it's an experience that we allow within ourselves that we experience toward what we've created, thus there is really no reason to participate in the experience of fear, when it's not real, it's a self-created experience, and by participating in it you will manifest that which you fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself in limitation because of my fears, which I have created and given permission to in the first place, instead of stopping my participation in the fears so that I can actually live effectively in this world and not trap myself within self-justified limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the solution to fear is to stop trapping oneself in the fear towards a condition we have created and allowed here, and to find effective solutions to what is here, then that which we are fearing can not even exist, but firstly this requires to stop the participation in the fear within oneself, as participation in the fear is what keeps one from effectively facing and dealing with the situation in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if we face what we fear and correct it so that what we fear no longer exists, that this indicates that what I fear is that which I have accepted and allowed to form in this world without consideration of whether it is best for life or whether it abuse life, thus fear is the result of that I have allowed conditions to exist which are abusive to life and self as life, and thus I fear facing those conditions, because I have allowed them to exist in my world and am not doing what it takes to remove such abuse from existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if we live in self honesty not hiding anything or hiding from anything but facing what is here in this reality as myself as what I have accepted and allowed, then no fear exists, as I stand here stable as myself and take self responsibility for what is here, within the realization that to take responsibility for what is here and face the shit we have created, and sort it out, means that we'll create a world that is heaven on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is a construct that keeps me from realizing myself as it keeps me trapped in limitation and not expanding myself into and as my world, but accepting things as they are, so that I never change and my world never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear exist as energy generated within the mind consciousness system, which when I live as these fears and allow myself to experience these fears as real and as myself, I am existing as a preprogrammed energetic reaction, and thus not here as myself as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I justify participating in fears within the mind CONsciousness system I am actually conning myself into accepting self limitation by allowing myself to be controlled, bound and enslaved to my own self-created fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I manifest my fears by participating in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to live without my fears will be such a relief literally, as living as fears is stressful and takes a toll on the physical, as you can see the examples shown by those who live their lives in constant fear and worry you can watch as their physical literally  rot and shrivel away as time passes and they continue extensive participation in their fears.

I commit myself to not accepting things 'the way they are' when I do not even understand how or why it exists/is created.

I commit myself to take nothing 'for granted' as there is always a cause, as this reality is a cause & effect reality, and to take something for granted is to accept myself to remain in ignorance and thus a slave to what is here within accepting a limited understanding of my world, thus I commit myself to educating myself about my world and what is here.

I commit myself to stop participating in fears, within the realization that they are not real and that they require my actual participation to exist and to control, enslave, and limit me, while depleting my human physical body and causing 'aging'.

I commit myself to sort myself out within stopping my fears so that I can then take on the conditions that we've created in this world to stop manifesting the conditions which we fear.

I commit myself to realizing that there is never any valid justification to participate in a mind construct of fear, as to do so is to limit, bind, and enslave myself to a system to keep me in-fear-ior in this world and never standing up and expanding myself to become someone that has a real impact here in this world in bringing this world into equality and a dignified life for all.

To hear some of my personal experience with fear:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUlhjwVherY

Day 17 - Abuse of Animals & Nature

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a society in which there is no consideration for animals and nature, in which we are busy annihilating nature, right in this very moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the abuse of nature and animals that takes place, because I saw no one else caring for animals and nature, and thus accepted it as 'normal' to not care, even though I realized that nature and the animals is what provides us the very ability to live and exist here, and suffers through extensive abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that we as humanity are not responsible for the abuse of animals and nature that is taking place, despite the obvious fact that if we were not abusing the animals, the abuse would not be happening.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the behavior of animals as how they fight and kill and eat each other, as justification for accepting and allowing humanity to participate in the same behaviors, when it is obviously only a justification and we can actually decide who we will be and how we will live, and thus we can decide to live without abusing.

Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how our actions as humanity have affected and shaped the nature and behaviors of animals, where we have destroyed or taken over their habitat where they were busy living so that they had to find other ways to survive like eating each other, and thus we are actually responsible for their behaviors that have now become actually programmed into their very design as patterns of instinctual behavior that they had to develop to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that we as humans are the most unlimited form that exists on earth in terms of our physical ability to do things in this world, whereas the animals are much more limited in their design, and thus we are in the best position by far to do that which the other forms here cannot, in taking care of this world and directing it into an equilibrium where all life can live and have a place and have what they need to exist here and be supported.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow an entire economic system to be in place, that functions for greed and profit for a only few, and makes this profit from the abuse and exploitation of nature and the animals, wherein we literally have a system that is actually designed to abuse animals and nature, the very things which give us sustenance to live and exist here, when we should be taking care of that which supports us, not recklessly abusing it into oblivion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider how different it could have been on this earth, if we had been taking responsibility from the get-go, in every way we interact with earth, nature and the animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it's not possible to stop the abuse taking place, when we are the ones causing it, and thus we obviously have the ability to stop it as we are the creators of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the abuse taking place is actually necessary and thus cannot be stopped, not realizing and considering the extreme wastefulness of the current economic system where so much of what is produced by our labor utilizing nature and the animals, is not even used, or is consumed in excessive and deliberately inefficient practices.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we can stop the abuse by constructing a new economic system that is not based on greed and profit, but is based on actually supporting life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the increasing storms and violent weather is a result of nature trying to balance itself out with all the disturbance that we are creating, in our deliberate ignorance of how the system of nature of operate, which we've really had plenty of time to investigate, but we've been too busy wrapped up in our minds in consciousness and have disregarded this entire physical reality.

I commit myself to realizing and taking into consideration that my very life depends on what I receive from nature and the animals, and that I should treat nature and the animals with a respect that is equal to the importance of nature and the animals in my ability to exist and live and thrive here.

I commit myself to become educated in the physical reality and how it operates, and the delicate balances between the animals and nature, so that I can take everything into consideration as to how to give the best care to the animals and nature, which cares for me by providing me with everything I require, and makes it possible to do everything that I do.

I commit myself to show that it is possible to stop the abuse and become the caretakers of this earth, as we should always have been.

I commit myself to realizing and applying my responsibility within being a human being which is the most unlimited form on this planet and thus the only form that's in a position to really be able to shape and manipulate what is here, as evidenced by how extensively we have disrupted nature and the animals, to the point where the animals and nature have had to go to extreme lengths just to try to maintain a balance, and to use this position I am in to become a custodian of the earth, that cares for the earth, nature and the animals as it has cared for me.

Day 16 - Abraham Hicks On Do Not Worry About Your Planet,Focus On Yourself - Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suggest that everything is 'alright', because negative people get old and croak and are replaced by younger more optimistic people, completely disregarding the fact that thousands are suffering  and dying daily due to unnecessary and preventable causes, which clearly indicates that what we've been doing/what has been taking place has not been effective, and a proper solution is required. One only need investigate for oneself whether it is 'positivity' or actual physical action that actually produce change in this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I need to control is my 'vibrations' in order to stop manifesting consequence, instead of getting an actual understanding of the direct consequences of my actions and behaviors that I participate in and live as, when there is not even a practical way to understand or determine in specific detail how 'vibrations' actually manifest consequence in the world, but it is possible to see specifically in detail how my actions and the words I speak and behaviors I participate in, manifest consequence in this world, which means that by gaining an understanding of specifically how I create through my words and deeds, I will actually be able to understand exactly how the abuse is manifested in the world, and realign my words and deeds to no longer accept and allow abuse, and manifest a world that is best for all, thus there is no reason to waste time focusing on vibrations, when there is a guarantee of a solution within actually understanding how one creates in this world, and thus to focus on vibrations is actually avoiding the actual solution and accepting and allowing the abuse to continue.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard that there are those who NEVER thrive, and spend their entire life dying, regardless of how they 'vibrate', because they are given no support from the system in their life, and have literally no access to the basic necessities required to exist here, and thus are locked into a constant state of physical suffering with no opportunities available to change their situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so separated from reality and what is actually taking place here in this world as what beings are actually experiencing and going through, that I have accepted justifications as to why some suffer, when the conditions of suffering are actually deliberately created by the current economic system and beings are born into such positions without any choice or any ability to get out of such positions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not place myself actually within the situation of being born into extreme poverty to realize in obvious common sense that there is no way I could 'vibrate' myself out of starving to death when there is no food available, or 'vibrate' myself out of dying of lack of water, or from treatable disease and lack of proper healthcare, or to have at least tested this out for myself by stopping eating and seeing if I can vibrate to keep myself from starving, or if I can vibrate to keep myself from requiring water, etc, to ensure that I am not justifying extensive abuse and suffering based on an assumption that I have not tested out, as that would be extremely evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'well-being' is an energy that flows into my body or does not, when actual well-being as a physical being in a physical reality with physical requirements, depends on having the physical support one requires, as without that there is no 'well-being' and there is no 'being' as you die if your physical needs are not taken care of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I 'know the future of the planet is good' when if you look at the accumulation of the current accepted human nature and what we're busy doing to ourselves and this world, and the fact that there is no indication of any change in human nature sufficient to have effect on a global scale, our future is destroying ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suggest that I know the future when I do not even have an effective understanding how we as humanity are creating and manifesting the world as it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my fear is there to direct me, and that I should allow myself to be directed by my fear, within this not realizing that I am accepting and allowing myself to be directed by a feeling that I do not even understand how it is created or where it comes from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that this makes me a slave to feelings, that I am giving away my ability to direct myself to instead be directed by feelings, that I don't even understand are created from the memories, thoughts, feelings, emotions, and experiences stored within my mind consciousness system, and thus to live as these feelings is to live according to an energetic reaction taking place within my body, created utilizing the physical resources of the body, that is based on experiences and memories of the past, and thus I am simply living out my past experiences over and over, and will repeat the same behavior reactions that have become programmed into my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself within placing myself as 'less than' 'source', where 'source' is what must guide me as I cannot move and direct myself, when I don't even know what this 'source' is, or have ever met or spoken to it, or now it's plan, or what it stand for, yet am going to place my entire life under it's 'direction'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the emotions and feelings I experience within myself are 'source' directing and guiding me, not realizing that my emotions and feelings are created within my mind consciousness system, as preprogrammed reactions based on stored memories, and thus my emotions and feelings are actually preprogrammed reactions created by a system, and thus to allow myself to be directed by my fears actually keeps me trapped living within cycles of preprogrammed patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everyone can live 'happily ever after' without having to actually change our human nature to actually stop abusing ourselves and each other, as how can we live happily if we are abusing each other.

I commit myself to speaking directly about what is actually going on in this world and not supporting ideas that I use to justify that everything is going to be 'alright' when I have not actually verified this with investigating the actual state of humanity and what is actually required to change it.

I commit myself to ensuring that a solution is actually a solution that will produce actual results, within understanding that to propose a solution that I have not actually investigated to ensure that it will work, is actually contributing to the problems and allowing them to continue, where I am not actually presenting a solution, but supporting the abuse to continue.

I commit myself to sticking to common sense as what actually applies in a physical reality, as that which produce an actual physical result.

I commit myself to focus on solutions that assist and support me to understand how I create myself and thus how I create this world, so that I can stop myself as the cause of abuse in this world, and reform myself into a being whose actions and words will manifest a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to realize that how I 'vibrate' is just a spin-off of 'who I am' and what I am living as, and thus it's not to direct the 'vibration', but to direct myself, and change the actual cause/source, since the 'vibration' is just a reflection, and will be what it is according to the actual behaviors and patterns I am participating in, and thus it is myself as the patterns and behaviors I participate in that I must come to understand and change. Within this, I commit myself to realizing that this means that it's not my 'vibration', or the frequency at which I vibrate that directs or affects the world, but it's who I am and how I live, as the physical actions I take, as a physical being that move and speak within a physical reality, together with many other beings, where all interaction actually takes place here in the physical, and thus, I commit myself to getting an understanding of myself as the patterns and behaviors I participate in, and identifying and stopping any behaviors that do not support life but support that abuse that exists in the world, so that I can recreate myself as a being that do not harm life and manifest a world without abuse.

Day 15: Abraham-Hicks On Do Not Worry About Your Planet,Focus On Yourself - Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that death is not real, and within this belief, disregard life here in this physical reality, within the justification that 'this is not all there is', when I in fact have NO IDEA what actually awaits us after death, because I have never been there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into thinking that death 'isn't real', despite the fact that people die all the time, and once they are dead, they do no come back, which proves beyond any doubt, that death has a Real and Lasting effect here, as once you die, you are no longer here part of this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think all I have to do is 'get over the fear of death' because who I am is an 'eternal being', not considering that who I have become as a personality I formed and created based on my physical existence here in this physical reality in my physical human body, and thus who I am as a personality will cease to exist once I am no longer a part of this physical reality, and thus, to be a being that can stand eternally, regardless of life or death, means that I must not exist as a personality, thus to actually transcend death requires extensively more than simply 'getting over the fear of death', but that I must first get to know myself as who/what I have designed myself, to see if I have created myself according to principles which can stand for eternity, and realize that if there is even one thing I fear to lose, that who I am is not yet a being that can stand eternally, and that to become a being that stand eternally is going to take a process of at least 7 or more years, as who I have become as a personality was formed over many years, in many layers, and thus must be investigated and deconstructed layer by layer, until I stand clear, and then can begin to recreate myself as a being that live according to principles that stand the test of time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the belief of being an eternal being as a justification to not investigate myself or this physical reality, because 'I'm never going to die anyway', not considering that I do not even have a clue if this is true, or what or how I will exist, if I exist, after death, except that I will no longer be here in my physical body, and thus what do I know, is that once I have died, I will no longer be able to have an effect in this world and it will be too late for me to have an impact on changing this reality into what it should be - a life where all live in dignity, and that if I reach my death and I did not do all that I could, I will be disappointed, but it will be too late.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what is going on in the world, does not have to be 'in my world' - not considering that this is only apparently possible because I am in a position where I am supported by the economic system, where if I wasn't then there would be no way for me to 'avoid' the 'negative' side of the economic system as it would be my reality, as it is for more than two thirds of the world's population, thus the idea that what happens in the world doesn't have to effect you is an elitist day-dream that only a small percent of the world's population can even fall for, for a moment, as they are not yet directly facing the consequences of the current economic system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have no control in what is happening in the government, means that I cannot have any control or effect in the government and should thus accept this and not take any action, when I actually can become involved in the government and have an impact and affect within the government, thus the justification that 'I have no control over what the government is doing' is not valid, because it is by my non-involvement in the political system that I have no control within the government, because I have effectively avoided politics and not become a part of it, where I can actually have an effect, and thus all I have to do is become an actual part of it, to have an actual effect within the political system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sell to people the idea of feeling good, within a world where there is extensive suffering taking place in each and every moment, instead of exposing what is really going on in the world, so that we can sort out the shit, and manifest a world where all really can feel good, as an actual feeling that is based in the physical actuality of having a dignified life wherein you have access to that which you need to exist and thrive here and are not deliberately deprived for the sake of greed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that fear is used to control and manipulate as an excuse to not act at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being positive is all that is required for the problems in this world to cease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this belief, give the impression that positivity is all that is required, when it is actual physical actions that is required, and thus supporting the world and the abuse to remain the same, as no action will be taken to stop it.

I commit myself to walking the 7 year or more journey of self forgiveness and commitment to correction, wherein I deconstruct myself as a personality and rebuild myself as a being that stands the test of time, as a being who lives according to the principle of what is best for all life.

I commit myself to expanding myself in my world and living to my fullest ability here, so that I can have an actual impact on this world, so that when I die I will be satisfied that I did what I could to leave this world better than I found it.

I commit myself to realizing that I do not know if or how I will exist after I die, and thus the reality that actually matters is the physical reality in matter, because I am actually here, and I do know that I can actually have an effect here within my life as a physical being here.

I commit myself to considering that everything here in this world, is in 'my world', as there is actually no separation, as everything is here in this one reality, effecting this reality, and it is only that I am further removed from the consequence that we're manifesting in this world that I can pretend that there is no consequence or that the abuse in the world does not matter because it's not happening to me, even though I am a deliberate part in the cause of such abuse by accepting and allowing an economic system that I participate in every day which does not support everyone equally, and I commit myself to realize that such a system is not designed to last, and thus when it does fail, I will then suffer the consequences, and thus to avoid and ignore the situation is only allowing the inevitable problem to continue, instead of facing the problem and correcting it, and preventing unnecessary suffering and consequence.

I commit myself to becoming involved in the politic system, so that I can take self responsibility to place myself in a position in this world where I can have an impact on what is being accepted and allowed within government systems, instead of accepting that I am powerless which is a result of my deliberate uninvolvement and avoidance of the political system.

I commit myself to facing the problems of the world and finding solutions, and not hiding myself within an experience of 'feeling good', wherein I seek to have a positive feeling experience inside myself, despite what is actually going on in this world, which is actually delusional as deliberate participation in a mind fantasy that does not exist as a reality, and thus I commit myself to doing what it takes to manifest a world where 'feeling good' is not an emotional/feeling experience one has inside themself that is based in energy, but as a physical actuality that is actually lived and experienced by all equally, wherein all are given equal opportunity and ability to 'be happy' in this physical reality, by having access to that which is needed to survive and thrive here in physical reality.

I commit myself to realize that it is actual actions taken in the physical that is required to make change in this world, as it is a physical reality, and thus anything short of physical actions and anything or anyone that promote any form of solution that does not include actual practical action, is no solution and is in fact thus supporting the abuse in the world by allowing it to continue without taking action to stop it.

Day 14: Jealousy - I want what you're living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I participate in jealousy toward another, I am participating in one of the nastiest patterns of behavior that exists, wherein I sabotage not only myself but all others in my world, by living in such a way where I am only considering myself and trying to shape my world into what is best for me, disregarding all others, and disregarding the consequences that I create when I abdicate my self-responsibility and allow myself to be directed by the design of jealousy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that participating in the construct of jealousy actually only serves to trap me in a position of jealousy toward another, as I am not taking any practical action, but am only spending my time and energy participating in thoughts and backchat about what another has that I want, how it isn't fair that they have it and more various backchat depending on the extent to which one participates, where it can become extremely nasty and spiteful, and thus I am only existing as cycling through these thoughts and backchat in my mind, instead of living here and living for myself that which it is I am jealous of another for living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste the time that I have in this life in a state of jealousy, wherein instead of living for myself that which I see another living, I'm wasting time in my mind, where I literally become possessed by thoughts, feelings, and emotions through my continued acceptance and allowance of my participation in such thoughts and experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want another to not have what I don't have, rather than considering how I can live it for myself, or if I cannot live it for myself, to realize then that there is no point to continue focusing on that which is not within my ability, and instead focus on that which is within my ability to actually live as myself, so that I ensure my focus is always on expanding myself in every way possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not only harming others within participating in jealousy but that it works both ways, wherein when I attempt to keep others down I am also keeping myself down, as I am accepting my world and those in it as diminished, which means I will not have the examples of others within my world to learn from and explore new ways of expressing myself that I had not before considered, or opening up opportunities for expansion within working together with others, thus within not allowing anyone in my world to expand, I create my world to be not able to assist and support myself to expand as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so possessed by jealousy that it controls and affects my very behaviors as my mannerisms, words, actions, tonalities, wherein what I say and do is from the starting point of manipulating the situation toward an outcome that is best for me, in total disregard of another, or even in deliberate attempt to sabotage another, in the desire to get what I want for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I am possessed with jealousy, then I am not here, living and experiencing myself here in the physical reality, but am 'lost' within my mind within thoughts, and thus 'missing out' on life, which will feed my patterns of jealousy, as I am denying myself opportunities in moments to be here living and expanding myself, and thus sabotaging myself, where instead I could in those moments be putting in the time and effort to expand myself and actually live here, and then I would not feel like I am 'missing out' on anything, as I'd be too busy actually living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I am not directing my mind to ensure that the patterns I live as are in the best interest of all life here, and assisting and supporting all life, myself included, to develop and expand ourselves, for if I am not the directive principle of my mind, the automated reactions I accept as myself are what I will become and manifest in this world in the image and likeness of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an economic system which supports jealousy by not giving equal support to all individuals, so that some receive more support to expand themselves in this world, while others are disregarded and not given the same opportunity to exist and thrive here, and within this providing a platform on which jealousy to thrive for those that have not received adequate support towards those that have received more.

I commit myself to not participating in patterns and behaviors of jealousy, and to stop immediately when a thought of jealousy come up and realize that if I decide to participate in such thought that I am sabotaging myself by going into my mind into spitefulness, rather than living and expressing myself here in the physical reality.

I commit myself to realize that when I participate in jealousy I harm myself and everyone within accepting diminishment and limitation, and standing deliberately in the way of the expansion of myself and this existence in it's entirety, thus it is my responsibility to ensure that I do not participate in jealousy, so that I do not manifest a world of limitation and abuse.

I commit myself to live from the starting point of expanding myself and my world, so that I assist and support myself and my world to become the best it can be in all ways.

I commit myself to bringing forth an economic system which is based on equal support for all, so that all have the equal opportunity to exist and thrive here, and none are left out.

I commit myself to living to my fullest in each and every moment, in each and every breath, being present here, so that the the thought or temptation to go into jealousy does not have the opportunity to present itself, as I am already busy living my life and expanding myself here.

I commit myself to ensuring that I am the directive principle of my mind, so that I ensure that the behaviors that I live are directed in such a way that is best for life and that I am in no way accepting abuse or limitation to exist.