I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
accept and believe in the picture that comes up in my mind of me not being able
to do something, and then as a response/reaction to this picture, to have
created and go into the “I Can Do It” character, wherein I’m trying to convince
myself that ‘I can do it’, which is only an illusion in my mind as it’s not
based on actual reality that I have lived/am living as who I am here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not realize that the picture of me failing to do something is only a picture in my mind, and not actual reality, and thus when I believe in the picture I’m
believing in an illusion, the consequence of which is that I then become an
illusion as who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not realize that shaping myself as a picture in my mind, is not changing me as
who I am in actual reality, and thus to participate and believe in the pictures
I see in my mind, is a waste of time, as instead of taking action in the
physical reality to actually change and expand myself, I am only busying myself
with pictures in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
in the moment the picture of me failing comes up, to instantly believe in it,
and then to think that the only solution is by creating a character to
superimpose on myself of that I ‘can do it’, and within this, I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I was doing was
attempting to ‘cover up’ the reality that I saw as the picture in my mind that
I believed with yet another picture illusion, and thus I was staying completely
within the realm of pictures, within the fantasy-land of the mind, and not
actually here, never actually really dealing with myself as who I actually am
and what I’m living as.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in backchat in relation to the picture that came up within my mind
of me failing to do something, which I used this internal conversation to
convince and talk myself into going into the character of ‘I can do it’, using
backchat such as ‘oh god, what if I can’t do this’, ‘that’s just not an option’,
‘I have to do this’, ‘I must not fail at this’, within this internal
conversation giving myself no other option than to pretend that ‘I can do it’,
instead of seeing/realizing that the picture and belief that I am going to fail
isn’t real in the first place.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not consider how this shows just how much we’re controlled by pictures within
our mind, as we’ll completely allow ourselves to be directed by the pictures
that come up, instantaneously believing in them as valid and real, and having
complete reactionary experiences based off of them, completely removing ourself
from reality, and so have we ever really been here if we’ve always been
believing in and living according to the pictures in our mind?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that by changing the picture that I see in my mind that I am actually
somehow changing myself and how I experience myself, and within this not
realizing that if we are living as the pictures in our minds, then we are living
in ignorance of our actual effect on reality in what we’re actually creating in
actual reality, as we’re only busy with the pictures in our mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must appear to be able to do something, within this not realizing that I am living within the fear of survival and am allowing this fear to control/direct my behavior, instead of me moving myself here, in common sense consideration of the current state of reality and what actions may be best to take in a given situation, where because I am living as a reaction to this fear, I am not free to take everything into consideration, as for the moment who I am becomes this fear and the associated reactions, and that is all I can think/say/do/act within.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a positive reaction when I participate in the 'I can do it' character and then I succeed at what it is I am attempting to do, and then to take this as validation for participating in this character, because I have apparently succeeded due to living as this character, and not considering that it was the actions I took in the physical and how I applied myself in the physical that determined whether I succeeded or not, and not the character I was participating in, as the character isn't actually real, existing in substance, but is only an idea in mind, and within this, to ignore the times where I did not succeed when living as this character, so that I can believe that participating in this character is beneficial to me and continue to remain trapped within predesigned, preprogrammed fictional characters.
Thanks for this!
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