In my life I found myself on the side of
experiencing the consequences of our allowance of the current system which does
not effectively support everyone. There were many consequences due to this but in
this blog I will focus on one which is affecting me currently which is – bad
teeth. My teeth began to deteriorate pretty early on in my life. As a young
child I was able to get the healthcare I needed as my father had a job in the
military which provided healthcare to our family, and as most of your baby
teeth fall out anyway, it wasn’t necessary to get work done on them. However
when I got into my late teens, I was no longer covered by my father’s
healthcare provided through the military as he had retired, and this is when my
teeth really took a turn for the worse. I started to have intense toothaches that
became more and more severe where the pain would travel up into my head and
down into my neck and would be so debilitating that I couldn’t function at all
whatsoever and would lay in bed or on the floor, wherever I was it didn’t
matter because the pain was taking up all of my focus entirely, and all I could
do was writhe in pain. I was afraid that I was maybe going to die from whatever
was happening within my body, as I’d heard you can die from tooth infections. I
ended up going to the hospital emergency room, even though they could do
nothing but give me medication strong enough for the pain, so that I’d
hopefully be able to go back to work, so that I could continue earning enough
money to survive.
Ill health interferes with your ability to
make a living and when you’re already ‘living on the edge’ in terms of making
enough money to pay for your needs, your situation becomes even more dire, as
if you can’t work, you can’t make money and could even lose your job, and then
you’re sick and without a means to get money to live. It doesn’t make sense
that such a situation is even allowed to exist, as it’s obvious common sense
that no one would want to find themselves in such a situation. It doesn’t make
sense to put ourselves in situations where we’re faced with such dire extremes
of experiences and the impossibility to support ourselves out of it, while some
never experience such experiences as they’re supported from the get-go, and
while the vast majority suffers such experiences and more, all to feed the greed of those who would profit off of others' suffering. It’s simply
unacceptable.
These experiences around not being able to
get adequate dental care and the extensively painful and debilitating
experiences I went through had a hand in shaping myself as a personality toward
the system and my world and reality, where I took on a definition of a helpless victim, as I was a victim of the system as I literally found myself without a
choice to do that which those who have the option would obviously do, which is
to get the healthcare that one needs, so that one can live effectively and not
have to experience such extensive pain and suffering when a solution exists.
Unaware of it at the time I used these
events to create further experiences within myself within my mind consciousness
system, as how I interpreted these events and formed a relationship to/toward
these events, and so added consequence as feelings and emotions that I
participated in. I experienced things like a feeling of total and utter
frustration, anger and rage at knowing that the unbelievable pain I was going
through could have been easily prevented if I’d had access to proper care from
the get-go, and could have been easily stopped if I could have had proper care
in those moments of suffering. And knowing that there are others all around me
who are able to get that healthcare and that for some reason I am not, that
reason being because the system does not support all equally and they were in
more ‘fortune’-ate positions within the system where they have access to more
money and thus can afford the proper care. And I feared what long-term effects it
was having on my body not getting the healthcare it needed in time. It did not
make any sense to me to not be able to take care of one’s physical body, as the
physical body is what allows you to be here as a physical being in physical
reality to live and express, and thus you’d want to take the absolute best care
of your physical body, as it’s YOU.
So it’s through participating in those
thoughts, feelings and emotions that I added even more suffering to the actual
physical suffering that I experienced.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to accept a system which does not provide adequate healthcare to
everyone equally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to allow unnecessary suffering to go on that actual beings go
through on a day to day basis.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to allow a system which actually profits off of ill health, when
such system is meant to be the life support system through which we provide and
distribute our needs to ourselves, but instead we’re allowing it to feed off of
ourselves where the system is actually parasitic in nature rather than
supporting.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider those that suffer unless I am the one suffering,
as then I have no choice but to face what is going on in this reality as what
we’re accepting and allowing to exist as I am actually experiencing the
consequences first hand.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to require to experience the consequences first hand to even
consider what is going on in this world, where if I had not experienced the
consequences myself I may have continued in my personal bubble of existence not
considering or realizing the ineffectiveness of the system and the extensive
pain and suffering that takes place which is totally unnecessary and easily
preventable, but that within accepting the system the way it is, we allow the
suffering to take place and thus are actually responsible for the suffering of
others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that I am responsible for the preventable and
unnecessary suffering that goes on in the world because I am giving life to the
system which facilitates such abuse, and not standing up and taking action to
ensure that the system I am utilizing and allowing myself to benefit from is
not causing harm to others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that within accepting the current system, I am
accepting the suffering and abuse that takes place within the current system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that the consequences as the damage that is done
to beings by not having adequate access to one’s needs as the necessary food,
water, healthcare, etc., Is damage that shape and affect that beings life for
the entirety of their life and directly affect the quality of their life and
ability to live effectively. Thus -
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to not consider that by accepting and allowing the current
abusive system, that I am directly responsible for the irreversible harm that
is done to beings, forever changing their lives and limiting their ability to
live effectively in this world, and the suffering both mentally and physically
that come from this.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to add to my own suffering by participation in thoughts feelings
and emotions onto the physical suffering I was already experiencing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to, within my mind consciousness system, utilize the events that
happened to me, to create and fuel a definition of myself as a ‘victim’ wherein
I used my position in life to generate energetic experiences within myself,
adding further consequence to the consequence I was already experiencing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to accept a society that supports such relationships toward
those who are not able to find support within the system, that judges them as
‘less than’ while ignoring that fact that the system is not set up to actually
support everyone, and that it’s current design creates lack in order to create
demand in order to make profits off of those who can afford to pay the highest
prices, while neglecting those who cannot afford to pay at all.
I commit myself to not utilizing the events
and circumstances that I find myself in to create further suffering for myself
on top of what I am actually experiencing in physical reality.
I commit myself to realizing that we are
all responsible for the suffering that takes place, mental and physical, as we
have supported each other within the examples we have lived as, yet as an
individual I am able to take responsibility for what I experience inside myself
and not create experiences inside myself based on the examples of others in my
world and reality.
I commit myself to give myself and all, one
and equal, the gift of an economic system that actually functions effectively
as a life-support system ensuring that all get access to their needs, and that
no one is made to suffer that which can be corrected or prevented, and where we
do not support each other as mind consciousness systems to participate in
building relationships within ourselves toward what we experience creating
further unnecessary suffering, and where whether or not you're supported doesn't depend on the luck of what financial position you're born into, as no matter where you're born you're born into a position where you are supported.
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