We live two lives – the life that takes place here in actual
reality, and the one that takes place within one’s secret mind, which is the
thoughts, feelings, emotions, and backchat that is suppressed and ‘hidden’ from
the rest of the world. When I live in my mind, I effectively separate myself
from reality here, and this makes it much more difficult to be effective within
actual reality, because my view of reality becomes skewed within my mind’s
interpretations. Within the mind, we form and participate in alternate realities, and hide what’s really going on within ourselves in our mind out of fear
and self judgment. When I participate in and validate my mind, I sabotage myself,
within separating myself from reality, within participating in an alternate
reality within my mind that doesn’t actually exist here. This obviously leads
to chaos and confusion, as one is living two different realities at the same
time. This takes an extensive amount of energy at the expense of one’s physical
body, and your physical body is what allows you to be here as a physical being
in this reality. Thus by participating in energetic states within your mind,
one wreaks havoc on one’s own human physical body, sabotaging your life in this
world, and walking down a path of literal self destruction.
Whenever I fear to expose my secret mind, it is because I
fear to lose something, because I fear that if I expose myself my life will
have to change, I will have to change. Yet what’s to be realized is that the
change does not mean you lose anything. If you fear to lose it, you’re not
actually living it as yourself in the first place. You’ve already separated
yourself from that which you fear to lose. The fear of loss will consume you and
your participation will be directed by the fear and you’ll not actually be
participating in what you do, as yourself, living it as an actual expression of
who you are, because you’re busy in your mind having thoughts about it, and
interpreting it through your mind. Thus, you’ve already ‘lost’ it within separating
yourself from it – instead of participating fully in what you’re doing, you’re participating
in thoughts, feelings and emotions. In this, you miss the opportunity you have
here within this life to grow and expand and live to your fullest capacity this
in physical reality.
Thus, the key is to realize that participating in the fear
to change is what keeps us in a limited existence of fear and self abuse and
self limitation, and from gifting ourself the opportunity to really live here,
one life, in actual reality. Which is so much simpler than trying to exist in
two worlds at once, when only one is real – the physical reality. Thus if you
dare, let go of the fear of change, and gift yourself the opportunity to live
for real - without fear and judgment, without secret mind backchat, without the
consequences one manifest for oneself by participating in my mind. It’s not
worth it to destroy your body for some energetic experiences which you allow to
direct your life, instead of living yourself.
This is why I walk the journey to life – the journey to one
life that is lived here in reality, by dismantling the life of separation I’ve
created in my mind, and rebuilding myself as a new human being, that lives
fully here in reality, nothing hidden, no part of me lived within my mind in
separation of actual reality, so that I can stop the consequences I cause on my
physical body, and expand myself to my full potential, in this one life, this
one opportunity, to live for real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
live two lives, where I have one life in actual reality, and another ‘secret’
life as what takes place within my mind that I hid from the rest of the world.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
believe that participating in thoughts, feelings, and emotions is ‘normal’, as
‘everyone else is doing it’, within this, disregarding the consequences that
come as a result of participating in and as one’s mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear that my world may change, that I may have to change, when I should
actually be grateful for the opportunity to change, as this means that I can change myself from living as patterns of limitation and self abuse, within
which I keep myself from actually living here, and being a presence here in
fullness, and thus the only thing I stand to ‘lose’ within changing myself is
the limitation I’ve always existed as, which means I lose nothing that was of
any value in any way, and I gain everything, within picking up the pieces of
myself that I’ve separated myself from throughout my life within accepting and
allowing myself to exist as limitation, and taking my life back and giving
myself the opportunity to expand myself and become a real human being that
lives fully here in completeness and in reality to the utmost of my actual
capability.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to realize that living a second life within my secret mind manifests the
consequences that I face in my world, and thus to stop living a second life in
my mind in separation of myself here, is the key to giving myself the
opportunity and ability to stop manifesting an actual life of limitation and
self abuse.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
that I will lose something if I stop the secret life in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate
in a life in separation in my mind in the belief that it is who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
accept existing in my mind as a valid way to spend my time, as a valid way to
live, as ‘normal’, disregarding the consequences that result from participation
in my mind as the damage that is done to my physical human body through
participating in energetic states that cause the physical to become unbalanced
and suffer.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to consider that I could actually stop the backchat, thoughts, feeling and
emotion reactions, and that within doing so, I give myself the opportunity to
reconstruct myself as an effective human being and actually live for real in
the physical real reality, that sees and experiences what is here directly, as
it is, without it being filtered through my mind’s interpretation so that I am
then living within an ‘interpretation’ of reality and not in actual reality
itself.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to consider that through my participating in the mind, I manifest the
consequences that I face in my world, and thus I am responsible for and the
creator of those consequences.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to consider the simplicity of living one life in actual reality, instead of
trying to live two separate lives, one in reality and one in my mind which
isn’t real, through which I accept myself as limited within fears and
judgments, which keeps me from expanding to my full potential and actually
being satisfied in life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that our thoughts, feelings, and emotions are ‘who we are’ as humans,
that it is part of the ‘natural’ nature of humans, that it is normal and
acceptable behavior, without realizing the consequences of participating in
thoughts, feelings and emotions, or the possibility to change oneself and
through self forgiveness, deconstruct the patterns I’ve existed as and actually
stop living in cycles of self abuse and limitation, and allow myself to rebuild
myself as a human being that lives one life here, no longer living in fear and
judgment, but free to expand and grow.
I commit myself to stopping participation in my secret mind
backchat, thoughts, feelings and emotions, within the realization that participating
in my mind manifest unnecessary consequences and cause deleterious effects to
my human physical body.
I commit myself to consider that participating within the
mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions is what is keeping me from really
living here, and expanding myself to my fullest potential.
I commit myself to considering the actual consequences of
participating in my mind, which is separating myself from actual reality, causing
harm to my physical body, limiting myself within fears and limitations, and
supporting others to do the same by standing as an example, where if you have a
look at the abuse in this world that is justified within the minds of humanity,
if you participate in the mind you support all humans to do so, and thus are
actually responsible for all the abuse that exists in the world, within having
a responsibility to change the example you are living as so that you do not
support, accept and allow abuse to exist in this world.
I commit myself to consider that I have never actually lived
since I have existed within my mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions throughout
my life, and thus I don’t even know what it means to actually live, and that I
will only find out what I am truly capable of if I stop myself as my mind,
stopping the cycles and patterns of behavior I’ve existed as, to be able to
reconstruct myself in a way that I become a being that lives according to the
principle of what is best for all life, which means not accepting and allowing
myself to exist as limitation and fear, but to actually live here, in the
physical, as a physical being, living as life and not accepting and allowing
myself to be enslaved by thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Thanks Kelly!
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