Day 46 – It’s Time To Wake Up – Part 1



Here I'm walking through this video and applying self forgiveness on all the points that arise within the video as what we have accepted and allowed to exist within and as ourselves and what we have not considered within how we are manifesting the world as it is, so to assist and support ourselves to find and apply solutions within ourself and the world, to within this actually assist with the Waking Up of humanity to OurSelves and our Oneness & Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a world in which we create nuclear weapons, or any weapons, to use against each other, instead of standing together as one in equality, and not trying to have more than another, but giving to all as ourself and ensuring that we all as each and every individual have what we need to live and thrive, and then there is no one to fight or build weapons to use against.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a world where fighting for survival has become the way of life, when we could all stand together as one to ensure that all are supported to have what each one needs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there actually is a solution to the fighting, because I haven’t realized that there is a cause of the fighting that we are creating and that it doesn’t happen naturally as the ‘natural’ nature of humanity, as we are not born into this world fighting, but it is something we learn/are forced to do in order to survive and make a ‘life’ for ourselves in this current reality that we have accepted wherein not all are equally supported.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we are not living the actual message ofJesus which is to love thy neighbor as yourself, where we are not considering our neighbor as every being that exists within reality, we are only  considering ourselves and our own personal lives, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this is why fighting/war exists in this world, as we’ve separated ourselves from each other, and placed ourselves in competition with one another, and thus made fighting a ‘necessity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the solution of an economic and monetary system based on supporting all equally will end conflict, as the inequality of support within the current system is what cause and ‘necessitate’ the fighting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my participation in thoughts and the mind consciousness system is what is responsible for the vast majority of the suffering existent in reality, as it’s within thoughts that we separate ourselves from each other and the world, within comparison and judgment, where we see the world as our ‘enemy’, not realizing that we are in fact making ourself as the ‘enemy’ to the world, within separating ourself from all and everything, placing ourself in a position/state of conflict with what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am not thinking/having thoughts come up, that I am still here, and thus that shows that who I am is not thoughts, and that I do not require to have thoughts/to think in order to live, and that in fact if thoughts are not who I am, then when I participate in them as if I am my thoughts, then I do not actually exist.

I commit myself to investigating myself and reality to see exactly how/where I have accepted and allowed fighting and the use of weapons against another to exist within me, and thus have accepted and allowed it to exist within this world, so that I can find and understand just how we have created such a world, in order to find the solution as how I/we as humanity must change to stop creating such a world, where weapons and fighting has become an ‘ingrained’ part of surviving in this world.

I commit myself to live the actual message of Jesus which is to ‘love thy neighbor as thyself’, within investigating myself to see where/how I have separated myself from all life that is here as my neighbor, so that I can consider all life equally and do what it takes to manifest a world where all life is considered and supported equally.

I commit myself to showing how we are not living the actual message of Jesus as ‘love thy neighbor as thyself’ within accepting and allowing separation towards one another to exist within ourselves, wherein we consider only ourselves and our personal existence and disregard all others, as if our well-being is actually separate from the well-being of all.

I commit myself to show that we are not separate from each other, and just how it is that we are all ‘one’ in this existence, in that we all exist here in this one reality and what we do and how we live and what we accept and allow within ourselves as who we are and what we live as, determines and affects how this world is manifested, that we are busy affecting the lives of one another constantly and continuously, and thus we are all responsible for how this world currently exists and the situation of each and every being on this planet.


Day 45 - Love as Justification for Abuse - Self Forgiveness



Below is a Personal Message I received on my Youtube channel and related Self forgiveness. Suggestion is to speak aloud the self forgiveness for most effective result.

For context, watch the videos this comment is directed toward:


Subject: Love Month

"HI:)
I wanted to comment on your video but my comment is too long. I think:)

How do you know, that people feel the love, in the way you describe it? Do You know all of them?:) Do You know me? :) You talk about Your friends and the people you know? Or you are talking about people you know from the media? People want to love and to be loved.
Do you love yourself?

Stress is good for us. Stress is a reaction to a threat. At the moment of danger, we can act quickly and save lives. The problem is that our environment generates stress, this stress is prolonged (eg, our work). When we go home after work, the source of stress is gone. But we do not know how to get back to our natural state. We cannot get rid of tension. We don't know how to do it. Often we are not even aware of this tension.

Motions do not damage our bodies. God gave us the body and emotions / feelings. We are not like robots. Negative feelings do not damage the body. We believe that we have no right to express our feelings/emotions (eg anger). We block, and lock them inside us. This causes the disease. We don't know how to express our feelings/emotions in a healthy way (not aggressive). Kindness, compassion, love heals. Even a smile ... just like yours. Heard about laughter therapy?
Definitely you should smile more often:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvWf6U_AbVE
And he is LOVE!
then he grows up, and:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRUGvArWXLk
:)
Love does not harm your body :) Go to the hospital. Meet with sick children. Play with them. See if you can go wrong: P The only thing that can happen is that you will experience the Big LOVE. If you think your heart is now open ...:) . The heart can always open more and more. There are no limits.
Go to a nursing home, talk with patients. Talk to someone who is terminally ill. Give him your attention. Smile (so beautiful as you can). You'll see how this "chemical reaction" work on them :) For them You are LOVE.
Without emotions we are nothing. I know many beautiful people. I also know people who are "dry". The world in which we live is not paradise. I do not know anyone who would have supported the war and abuse. People are struggling to survive. They work like slaves. They do what they do not like:/. Do not have time to save the world. And do not believe that they can make a difference. That is why We need a soul like yours. Wise, loving and in a beautiful package. There is passion in you :) and it's like a plague :P"

 
 
Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into thinking/believing that it’s not possible to know how people experience love, or that I do not know/see how love is experienced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that the fundamental design of love is the same for all human beings, because I want to justify and hold onto my idea of ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the design of ‘love’ is fundamentally the same design for every human being, yet with differences and variations within how one has ‘personalized’ their version of the definition of love that they will live as, in order to feel that one has come up with their own, unique version of love, to blind self from the fact that the fundamental design of ‘love’ is exactly the same, in order to not realize that ‘love’ as an experience is a pre-programmed pre-designed system, so that I may remain enslaved by/within my mind consciousness system, generating energy for its existence by/through participating in this design of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that participating in the design of love as an emotion/feeling experience generated within my mind consciousness system, that all I am doing is generating energy for the mind consciousness system to continue to exist, and thus I am living merely as a slave to the mind consciousness system as a human-battery that provide the fuel to continue its existence, instead of being here as life, living and experiencing myself as a physical being in physical reality which is real, and not simply an energetic experience generated within/by my mind that only takes place within my mind, and acts as a parasite to my living flesh using the resources of my human physical body to generate the emotions/feelings that we’ve defined as ‘love’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I have called ‘love’ is not actually love, as it is energetic feelings generated by/through my mind consciousness system at the cost of my human physical body, and thus what I have called ‘love’ is actually ‘evil’ as what I am doing is participating in and allowing my mind to eat away at my physical human body, which is innocent, and within participating in this energetic ‘love’, I am disregarding the physical and allowing it to be harmed, even though it has always unconditionally supported me within allowing and gifting me life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the physical is the example of real love, as real support in oneness and equality in the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that what I want/desire is not necessarily what’s best for me and reality as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe that because I want/desire something, then it must be a ‘good’ thing, and I shouldn’t question it, but should just allow myself to have it and try to fulfill my want/need/desire, within this not seeing that this indicates that I am actually enslaved and addicted to my desires, as I am not willing to look at my desire/want in self honesty to see what I am actually participating in and as, and whether it is actually beneficial to me and reality as a whole, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I do not fully understand/am fully aware of what I am participating in and what the consequences and outflows of that participation are, then I am not actually in control of myself, and that I am, in fact, mind-controlled, as I am allowing the mind as desires/wants/needs to drive me, where I am ‘blindly’ following my wants/needs/desires, and compromising myself disregarding the effects it has on the physical actual reality and allowing myself to harm and destroy the physical for the sake of desires, which do not even lead to actual satisfaction, but only to more desire, as the nature of desires/wants is to keep one forever ‘wanting’ for seeking ways to generate more energy for the mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to CON-Fuse fear as a response to an actual event in the physical which assists me in responding to an actual physical threat, with stress that I inflict on my human physical body through participation in feelings and emotions, in order to justify my participation in those feeling and emotions, at the expense of my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that the stress that I experience as a reaction to my environment is due to me accepting my environment as stressful, as I’ve accepted a reality where life is not supported but is abused for the sake of fulfilling the desires of a few elite, and thus, as I in my own mind, participate in following my desires at the expense of my physical, so has the world system been manifested as the reflection of what I accept and allow myself to do/be done unto myself wherein to the world system I am simply a human battery that exist to give it life at the expense of my human physical body and the entire physical reality which is being depleted and devastated by/through the current economic system, wherein the majority of the earth’s population exists as wage-slaves to fuel the system, and do not have a dignified life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we do know what we need to do, which is to stop existing as our current accepted nature which accepts and allows the physical as ourselves, nature, the animals, to be disregarded and abused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the solution of self-change to change my world and my experience within it, within this not realizing/considering how I am actually responsible for how this world is manifested as the current abusive system, as a reflection of our abusive nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not even see how I am accepting and allowing myself and all life to be abused then I have not yet considered what actual ‘love’ is, or investigated to endure that the definition of ‘love’ that I am living, in fact applies to this reality, wherein I ensure that ‘love’ is an actuality in the physical, as all life being supported and no abuse being accepted and allowed to be done to any being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the fact that the ‘love’ that is attributed  god’ proves that love does not exist is actually evil, as if god existed he has not done anything to stop the abuse that is taking place and allows thousands of innocent children to die every day from preventable causes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify participating in emotions and feelings when I do not understand where they actually come from or how they are created and generated within my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that stress does not harm the body, when the evidence is all around me and within me, as I can feel the effect the stress has on my body, and how accumulated stress over time manifests as ‘aging’ wherein you can literally watch the human physical body deteriorate due to accumulated stress, so that I can continue participating in abusing the physical because I have become addicted to the energetic experience of feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that going to a hospital and meeting and playing with sick children, has nothing to do with energetic experiences that I experience within myself toward that situation, and that if I am experiencing energetic experiences within myself toward a situation/event/being, then I am not experiencing the actual situation/event/being, but am experiencing a feeling inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without emotions we are nothing, when in fact the opposite is the case, as when we are existing as an emotion or feeling, then that is what we become, experience, see, hear, and thus ‘miss out’ on actual reality, as what is going on in actual reality and the beings and forms in our reality we are interacting with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and accept that the world we live in is not a paradise, within this accepting and allowing the extensive abuse that is taking place within implying there is ‘nothing we can do about it’, this is ‘just the way it is’, the world is ‘just not a paradise’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have the time or am able to change the world, when I am actually one of the elite in this world that is supported within the current world system to have what I need, and thus I am actually in a better position than much of the world’s population that is in poverty and is literally ‘stuck’ within their position where every moment of their life is spent trying to survive.

I commit myself to considering what actual love would be, as ensuring that the world that we create does not allow beings to be harmed for the sake of the pursuit of desires as the mind.

I commit myself to realizing that who I am is not emotions and feelings, as when I am not experiencing them, I am still here.

I commit myself to become aware of when I use justification and excuse to accept things as they are, to not have to change myself, so I can remain within my accepted limitation, and thus I commit myself to stop participating in justifications and excuses that keep myself limited and allow the abuse to continue in this world.

I commit myself to realizing that this world is how we create it to be, and thus if it is not a paradise, then it is because we are not creating it to be so, and thus there is a solution which is to change ourselves and how we manifest and create this world, so that we manifest a world where life is enjoyed by all.

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Day 44 – How to Become Life


Featured Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo



For context listen to 2012: How to Become Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore that I have always seen what’s going on within myself within my mind and within this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and take action in this world within the excuse of ‘what’s the point’ or ‘what’s the use’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face what is really going on this world because I do not want to admit that things have gotten out of my control, and that will ‘hurt’ my pride/ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the state of uselessness and powerlessness, feeling like I am a victim and can’t do anything to change the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am within that state of uselessness/powerlessness that I am actually in a state of possession, wherein I am only that point of uselessness and powerless and become it, where that’s all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize if I am living within fear, that I am possessed by fear where fear is all that I’ll become, all that I’ll see, all that I’ll live and all that I’ll experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I live as fear, that I become spiteful and nasty, as the origin of spitefulness and nastiness is fear, and that when I act nasty and spiteful it is showing that I am actually accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I must actually walk the process of self realization and self honesty for myself in seeing for myself what I accept and allow to go on within me within my mind, as only I can see my thoughts and what I participate in within my mind.

I commit myself to realize that the excuse of ‘it is useless/I am powerless’ is just that - an excuse, to not stand up and change, and thus I commit myself to stand as an example that it is not ‘useless/’ and I am not ‘powerless’ by changing myself and my nature to such that will have an actual impact on this world and reality, by walking the process of taking back my ‘power’ that I have given away to the mind by participating in excuses and backchat such as ‘it is useless/I am powerless’.

I commit myself to realizing that it is me that actually create and am responsible for what I experience and what I exist as, by/through what I decide and accept and allow myself to participate in and become.

I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to be/become possessed by energetic mind reactions/experiences such as fear and uselessness/powerlessness, wherein I become that point and only that point as I allow it to literally ‘take me over’ and all that I see, hear, experience, will be of fear or of powerlessness.

I commit myself to being aware of the fact that I do see what goes on in my mind and what is going on in this reality, and within this, to directly face what is here within/as myself and this reality, to sort out that which does not stand as what is best for life.

I commit myself to realizing that avoiding/pretending I don’t see what is really going on within this world/myself in order to protect my ‘pride/ego’ is an act of abuse wherein I am allowing the world to be in a mess for the sake of protecting an idea of myself as ‘superior/good/right’, when that idea/image of me isn’t even real and only exists within my mind, and not in reality, because who I am is allowing this world to suffer, instead of taking practical action to ensure that this reality is actually as it should be and that I am living in such a way that I am not accepting and allowing suffering and abuse to exist in my world.

I commit myself to realizing that ego is based on deception and self delusion, as it is dependent on an image of self within the mind, where one in one’s mind try to make oneself look good, while one’s standing in actual reality, is manifesting a world full of abuse and suffering. Thus- 

I commit myself to stopping participation in/as ego, within the realization that it is not real and what I require to focus on is who I am in actual reality, as who and what I live as within my words and actions as the example that I set for all and what I accept and allow to exist in this reality, as it’s what I do and say in reality that determines my character, not an image that I create in my mind.



Day 43: Who I Am – Mind Consciousness or Physical


Featured Art by Matti Freeman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I really am is the physical, and it’s through my mind consciousness system that I have separated myself from the physical here within forming relationships within my mind toward what is here as the physical, as emotions, feelings.

These relationships I form in my mind toward what is here consist of and exists as feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, images, perceptions, beliefs, opinions, memories, judgments, thoughts, experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that these feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, images, perceptions, beliefs, opinions, memories, judgments, thoughts, experiences only take place within the bubble of my personal mind consciousness system and are not experienced by anyone else but me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if all these experiences only take place within me, that that implies that only I can control/direct what I experience within me, as it is taking place within me, and no one else is inside of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this means that I am in fact responsible and the actual cause of what I experience within myself, and thus anytime I find myself blaming another for how I feel/experience myself, I am actually giving my power away and my ability to direct myself as how I experience myself within myself, and making myself subject to factors that are outside of me to direct and control my experience, when it is actually me that is accepting and allowing what I experience within myself, and thus within this I forgive myself for blaming another for what I myself am allowing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that in believing others to be ‘responsible’ for what/how I experience myself I am separating myself from my ability to direct how I experience myself, and to direct myself as myself, as I will be subject to experiences that come up within/from my mind consciousness system that, rather than here as myself with nothing moving, no experiences being generated within me, as those experiences are not who I really am, but are stored information generated by my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that if I am the only one that actually can control/direct how I experience myself within myself, then I am actually responsible for everything that goes on within me, as every thought I allow, as every emotion/feeling I allow, as every memory, image, picture, and every reaction I have to anything in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every reaction I have to what is here in this reality, either as a positive or negative reaction, is due to the relationship I’ve formed to/toward a manifestation within this reality that I am assessing/judging within my mind’s eye, which sees in terms of polarities as positive/negative in order to generate energetic experiences based on the values I have assigned to what is here, where if I encounter/experience something in my world that within my mind consciousness system is defined as good/positive, then I will experience myself positively, and if I encounter/experience something I have defined as negative/bad within my mind, I’ll have a negative feeling/experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the sole purpose of the mind is to generate energy to continue its existence, and thus by living as the mind, I become that slave that does the ‘dirty work’ for the mind consciousness system, by participating in these polarities and believing that these experiences are whoI really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind is nothing without the physical, as it requires the physical substance to generate energy for its continued existence, and thus if I do not participate in the mind by feeding it energy, it will cease to exist, and I will exist here as myself free from mind control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that who I am here is the physical here as the breath, as when I stop the mind and participation in and as thoughts feelings and emotions, I remain, and thus who I am is not the mind - though the mind is who I am as who and what I have allowed myself to become in separation of myself, wherein I have given parts of myself away to the mind consciousness system and allow the mind consciousness system to live for me, instead of living for and as myself.

I commit myself to through a process of self investigation, self forgiveness, and self corrective application, deconstruct myself as a mind consciousness system, to investigate the relationships I have formed throughout my life within my mind consciousness system toward that which is here as the physical, so that I take back all the pieces of myself that I gave away and gave up my ability to direct, and thus became a slave to my own mind consciousness system.

I commit myself to showing that who we are is not the mind consciousness system, in showing that it’s a system that exists within and as us as a parasite that leeches off the physical and utilizes the physical to generate the energy that it require to exist and thus does not exist of its own accord, but actually requires the physical to exist, and the being as self to participate in and as it.

 I commit myself to living as the example for all that who I am and who we really are is the physical here as breath and not the mind, by stopping myself as a mind consciousness system through daily application of uncovering to myself all the layers of consciousness that I am/have been existing as to see and identify and diffuse the patterns, taking myself back to a point of nothingness, wherein nothing separate from me moves within me, to then be able to recreate myself as a being that stands one and equal to and as the physical, that considers my world and reality as equal to myself.

I commit myself to no longer be a slave for the mind consciousness system wherein I exist only to give power and life to the mind consciousness system, but to birth myself here as life and actually live for real, not a puppet for a system to use as a literal battery to generate energy for its existence.

For more context read Day 49: the QuantumFlesh and listen to the interview Reptilians – Facing The Question of ‘Who I Am’

Watch the documentaries The Trap and TheCentury of the Self to see how the human has been able to be controlled by taking advantage of the human as a mind consciousness system.